"I love you, I'm sorry." I never knew those words would mean that much to me. I never knew I would lose him that quickly... until now.
"Look Bella, I'm sorry." He apologized through the phone. I turned a left as I carefully looked at the road signs.
"Just shut it, Andrew!" I snapped, anger boiling in my veins.
Andrew and I have been dating for a year. He became my boyfriend on his birthday, the first time he asked me out.
"Bella, just please, listen." He pleaded as I turned another corner.
"Not now, Andrew." I said through gritted teeth, my hands clenched the driving wheel harder as I gain more speed.
"Bella, please! I love you, I'm sorry!" I let out a loud scream before I completely lost control of the car. My car screeched its way to a nearby tree. The windshield broke, the engine let out smoke. I can feel my head getting dizzy at the same time blood streamed down my face.
"Bella! What happened?!" That's the last voice I heard before I black out.
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"Bella, please, wake up. I can't lose you." I felt a hand squeezing mine. I tried to open my eyes as hard as I can. Finally! I did it! I looked at the person holding my hand. He has a pair of brown eyes, floppy trousled blonde hair, a square jaw, and a fit figure. He quickly rushed towards me and engulfed me in a hug, "Bella, I thought I was going to lose you!"
"Get off me!" I said as I squirm through his grip. He looked at me in shock and disbelief as he backed away.
"Look, Bella, I'm sorry-"
"What? Who are you? What am I doing here? Where am I?"
He looked hurt as I ask these questions. There were tears forming in the corner of his eyes.
"Don't you... Don't you remember me?" He asked, his voice was quivering as his eyes we're filled with pain. His voice. It sounded familiar.
"No." I answered, unsure. "Am I supposed to remember you?"
He didn't say anything. He just stood up and walked out. After that, I heard voices outside.
"Why can't she remember me? It's like she can't remember anything!" I recognized that voice from the person earlier.
"I'm sorry, Mr. Valdez. The effect of the car crash must have had an impact on her brain. Just as I said before, she might suffer brain damage because of it. Amnesia even."
The door opened and a woman in white entered.
"Good evening, Mrs. Crystals, glad to finally see you awake." She stated. "I'm nurse Joy. You're in a hospital."
"What?! Why? How long have I been out?"
"Your car crashed. It's a miracle you survived. You're here for about six months. You're lucky you just suffered a small coma."
"The guy earlier, who is he?"
"Oh, Andrew Valdez. I'm guessing he's your boyfriend or something. He's been here since the day you were put here. Visiting everyday, staying up all night, bringing you food and presents and all."
"You mean... He always visits me even though I'm still asleep?"
"Of course! Sometimes, we even have to force him to go home."
"R-r-really?"
"Of course! By the way, you should probably get some rest. You're probably exhausted."
I didn't say anything. I just followed her instructions.
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"She's still asleep."
"I know. I just want to see her." I heard a sigh and the squeaking opening of the door. I just pretended that I'm still asleep.
"Hey, Bella. I just wanted to say that... I'm happy that you made it..." I recognized that voice. "I hope that you remember me soon. I wanted to make up for all my past mistakes. This is all my fault. If I only didn't distract you while driving, you would've been fine now. None of this would've happened... I'm so sorry, Bella."
That's when it hit me. A memory flashed through my mind. I was driving. The car crashed. I felt pain all over my body. Blood streamed it's way down my face. I love you, I'm sorry.
I opened my eyes and I saw the same guy yesterday. He's holding a bouquet of red and white roses. He looked at me, stunned and speechless. I sat up. "You're awake. I'm Andrew Valdez."
"Uh..." I started to look for my name, racking my entire brain.
He looked at me, taking notice at my confusion, before letting out a small chuckle. "Bella Crystals."
"Uh, yeah. That's my name."
"So..." He started. "Wanna go?"
"Where?"
"To get your memories back." He said with a cheeky grin.
"Huh? How are you gonna do that?"
"We're gonna go to the places that you loved to go."
"Um... okay." I said, unsure of my answer.
I stood up and looked at him. He extended his hand towards me and gave me a look. Without hesitation, I took his hand and smiled. For some reason, I trust this guy.
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He opened the passenger's door and let me in. "Thanks."
"No problem." He replied with that same old cheeky grin.
"So, where are we going?" I asked as he was getting in the driver's seat.
"Back in time." He said, causing me to giggle.
"Ok." Was all I said before he started driving.
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"Back In Time." I muttered as I read the name of the place. I thought he was only kidding. We got off the car and made our way inside. When we got inside, a memory struck my mind.
It was night. Andrew asked me to come here for our monthsary. The trees were decorated with light bulbs that illuminate the park. There was a beautiful soft music playing. He was the one singing. He was holding a bouquet of roses, a pattern of red and white. He gave me the roses and we danced throughout the night.
"Bella." A voice called out, snapping me back to reality. I looked back at Andrew and noticed we were in the middle of the park.
"Yeah?"
"Are you alright?"
"Of course."
"Do you remember this place?" I stayed silent for awhile, trying to remember my memory.
"It's where we had-"
"Our first monthsary." I said as I cut him off.
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Days passed by and I've been regaining my memories. Memories of me and him. Like every last Friday of the month, we'll have movie marathons. Every monthsary, he'll take me somewhere nice like dinner dates, fairs, carnivals, arcades, and elsewhere. Everything just to remind me how special I am to him.
But this month, something changed. He's being distant. It's like he's avoiding me.
My phone rang and I picked it up. It was Mrs. Valdez. "Hello?"
"Bella, come quick."
"What? Where?"
"In the hospital. It's Andrew." I quickly dismissed the call and rushed towards the hospital. I quickly located Mrs. Valdez, crying. I walked towards her, each step adding more and more fear in me.
"Andrew?" I asked, my heart beating faster and faster. She broke down crying as Mr. Valdez comforted her. He looked up at me with pain in his eyes. I knew he was trying to fight the tears. "He's in the room." I quickly rushed inside. The moment I saw him, my heart dropped. He was lying down on the bed. The nurse walked out, but not before giving me a note. "He said it's for you."
I opened the note, trying to fight back the tears that are starting to form.
"Dear Bella,
I'm sorry I haven't been spending my time with you. I just don't want you to get hurt. And I specially don't want me to be the reason why you're in pain. I'm sorry that I kept this from you. I just don't want to hurt you. The truth is, I have cancer. I know that I don't have much time left, that's why I want to spend my remaining time with you. I want to be with you as long as I can. But then, I realized that... the closer I get to you, the more pain you'll suffer. And I don't want that, Bella. I don't want to hurt you. I don't want to hurt you with my foolishness anymore. Please forgive me that I didn't tell you. Please, remember, I love you, I'm sorry."
I put the note down and wiped my tears. I didn't realize I was crying until I felt hot liquids running down my cheeks. I looked back at him and ran towards his bed. I hugged him, knowing that this'll be my last time. My last chance.
"Andrew, please don't do this. Please..." I cried, sobbing harder. "Don't leave me." I kissed his forehead. This is the last time that we'll be together.
"I love you..." The machine beeped. He's gone. Andrew's... gone. I was too late. I only remembered him when he's gone. I cried harder, knowing that I'll never get him back. "I'm sorry."