Chapter 27- The Necklace, The Cabin, The Gun-shot, The Panic attack
My eyes flung open and I yawned.
I sat up and got out of my bed.
It was already 1 o'clock.
I sighed and went to my bathroom and brushed my hair and teeth.
I opened my closet door and grabbed clothes.
I pulled on a pair of
I let out a exhale then standing up from my bed and walking downstairs.
No one seem to be home.
There was a note on the fridge.
Dear Tatum,
I am at a meeting for work. Lex is out with Eli. Mark went to Rivers. Gwen is with Holly. Max is at a friends house. P.S. Beth called and said quote 'Tell your daughter to get her f***ing a*s up! And tell her to pick up the God damn phone and tell her I said Love you'.
Love
~Mom
I chuckled off course Beth.... What would I do without you?
I grabbed an apple from the fridge and grabbed my skateboard and phone.
I walked outside and put my ear buds in and my skateboard down.
I skated down the streets of Portland.
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I knocked on the door.
The door opened to James.
"Hey Tatum" He smiled.
"Hey James, can I beat the crap out of Mark quickly"?
"Go ahead" he said and opened the door and I walked in.
Taylor asked "Tatum? What are you doing here"?
"I just have to take of my brother" I gritted and walked downstairs to the basement.
I saw the guys sitting on the couch and were watching the big TV screen.
I walked up behind Mark and smacked him in the head.
"Ow!" He yelled and turned him around and stood up "What the hell Tatum"!?
"What the f*ck is wrong with you"?! I yelled.
"What the hell did I do"!? He exclaimed.
I shoved the piece of paper.
He unfolded it and smirked.
"Mark, I want it back now! I declared.
"Tatum, come on-".
"Mark! You know how f***ing close that is to me, you cannot just take it! Why the hell were you going through my stuff anyway"!?
"Tatum look I'm sorry, but I-".
My eyes widened and I clutched my fist and punched him straight in the face.
River and Luke shot up and River grabbed me.
"You f***ing A*swhole of a brother"! I yelled.
Mark was resetting his jaw.
"Alright"! River yelled "What the hell happened"?!
I looked at Mark with a glare.
"I took Tatum's necklace that our dad gave her when she was little" Mark said.
"I want it back!" I demanded.
"Tatum, he's a abusive a*swhole!" He yelled "He hit you all the time, yet you still want the necklace the f***ing a*swhole gave you"!?
"Yes"! I yelled.
"Why"?! He tested.
"Because he actually loved me once" I yelled at and Mark was silent.
Holly and Gwen came down by now.
Mark sighed and reached for his back pocket and took out the necklace and handed it to me.
"Don't touch it ever again" I warned.
He clenched his jaw.
I turned and River still had his hand clasped around my wrist.
"Let go of me".
"Tatum, you need to calm down, you're shaking".
"I'm fine! Now let me go!" I yelled.
"Tatum" He warned and his grip tightened on me.
"Ow"! I whimpered in pain.
His eyes bored into mine "Calm down".
I gulped and started to relax and he let go of me.
I rubbed the spot on my arm where he had his grip.
I walked upstairs and outside.
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I knocked on the door.
"Babe" Jake smirked and opened the door.
I said "I want to talk to Beth".
"Have you been crying"? He asked concerned and wiped a tear away.
I swatted his hand away "No! You don't get to be concerned"!
"Tatum, what happened"? He asked.
"Wheres Beth" I asked seconds away from tears.
"She's not home, just tell me".
I shook my head and looked down "I-I can't".
"Tatum" He pleaded.
I ended up blurting everything out and he wrapped his arms around me in a hug and I cried into his shoulder.
But the thing was I didn't feel safe.........
I didn't feel safe like I did when I was in River's arms.........
"So what movie do you want to watch" He asked as he sat down on the other end of the couch.
I shrugged "Anything".
"How about Friends"?
I nodded and he went on Netflix and put it on.
I woke up and sat up and Jake wasn't there.
I rubbed my eyes and stood up and walked into the kitchen.
I saw Jake on the phone; pacing back and fourth.
"No! Stop with the bulls*it!" And he hung up and I cleared my throat and his head snapped towards me.
"O hey you're up. Sorry about that-" He scratched the back of his neck.
I said "It's fine" and then their was knocking at the front door.
Jake said "I'll get it" then jogging past me and to the front door.
"Where the hell is she"!? I heard River's voice yell.
"Dude, chill!"
I whipped around and River made eye-contact with me.
He barged up to me and grabbed my wrist and had a tight grip on me and pulled me to the front door.
I whimpered in pain as his fingernails dug into my skin.
Jake pushed him off me "You don't own her!" He yelled.
River gritted "Don't f***ing push it with me, Evans".
Jake gave him a cold stare "She's 18! She can make her own f***ing decisions, Lockwood"!
"She doesn't know what she's getting herself into" River gritted.
I couldn't help but think:
This she, is standing right here!
"She'll find out eventually" Jake yelled.
"Eventually is not now"! River yelled and turned towards me "Tatum, lets go"!
Jake grabbed my arm and whirled me around to him and smashed his lips into mine.
I stood their frozen, as Jake's hands went to the hem of my shirt.
It didn't last long till River pushed Jake off me and punched him repeatedly.
Then grabbing my wrist and pulling me out.
"River! River! River let me go!" I yelled.
He dragged me down the driveway and gritted "Tatum, just shut up!"
"Would you let me go"!?
He opened his truck passenger door and picked me up and placed me in and buckled me in.
"I'm not f***ing 5" I yelled.
"Not with that mouth, you aren't" He muttered and rolled his eyes and shut the passenger door, then walking around to the other side and getting in the drivers side.
I asked "Why the hell did you even come"!?
"Why were you at your EX boyfriends' house"!? He snapped back.
"Why do you even care"!? I yelled.
He looked at me and said "Tatum, hes bad new, stay away from him".
"I'm 18 River, not 8! I can make my own decisions"!
"That's questionable concertinaing how you ran off"!
I looked at him in disbelief "You can't control me! Why do you even care"!?
"Because" He yelled and slammed his fist against the steering wheel "I don't want to see you get hurt"!
I blinked a few times and looked straight ahead again.
I ran a hand threw my hair.
Its been about 40 minutes and I only live 20 minutes away from Jake's.
"Where the hell are we"!? I asked.
"I'm bringing you somewhere" He said and stared straight ahead.
"Where"? I asked.
"Somewhere" He said with no emotion.
I rolled my eyes and slammed my head back against the seat "This is qualified as kidnapping".
He stroked his clenched jaw.
It's been 2 hours.
We pulled up to a cabin in the middle of the woods.
My eyes widened as I remembered the familiar cabin.
He parked and got out then came to my side and opened the door.
"Tatum lets go" He said.
I was just frozen.
I couldn't process what was happening.
He leaned over and unbuckled my seat belt and pulled me out.
He pulled me towards the house, but I screamed and tears flooded my face and I fought against him.
"Tatum please don't make this harder then it has to be" He pleaded.
I punched him in the arm and chest and tried to run back to the truck but he caught me and picked me up bridal style.
I looked at his blue eyes and pleaded "Please don't do this".
He said "I'm sorry Tatum" then bringing me inside and I hid my face in his chest and tears fell down my cheeks.
He placed me down but I didn't remove my face from his chest and he wrapped his arms around my waist.
"You need to look" He whispered.
This cabin.....
This cabin is where I saw everything go down......
Where I saw what a monster my dad was....
When he pulled the gun trigger and shot someone.
"River, please can we leave"! I pleaded with tears everywhere.
He looked at me with a sympathetic face "Tatum, you have to spend the night here".
My eyes widened "No! No! You wouldn't do that to me!"
He took my hands "Tatum, I'm sorry" he whispered.
I squeezed my eyes shut "River, don't do this to me"!
He gulped silently "Tatum you need to do this".
I was shaking uncontrollably.
"River don't!"
"Green eyes, I'm sorry" He said, and let go of me and walked out of the kitchen and to the door.
I chased after him and he walked out and shut the door shut.
I tried opening the door and kept fidgeting and pulling on the door knob but he blocked it so it wouldn't opened.
I banged on the door and screamed "River! River! River Please"!
I know he could hear me, because I was screaming at the top of my lungs.
My mind was blurry and I was screaming as my face might as well be an ocean with all the tears.
I placed my head up against the door and sobbed.
"River please" I said in a whisper.
Dream/Flashback:
"Stop!" I cried out and River held me back.
River wrapped his arms around me as I cried.
I look at my dad and he pointed the gun at a man; I didn't even know.
My breath hitched.
BANG!
The bullet flew through the air hit the man and he fell back.
River hugged me tightly as we were both curled up in the corner.
He kissed my forehead "It'll be alright Tatum" and rubbed circles on my back.
I cried into his chest.
My eyes flew open. I screamed and immediately started panicking again. I was up against the door and I looked straight ahead into the kitchen and looked at the corner that River and I were in.
Image appeared and it was like we were there again and tears started flooding my face.
I then saw the trigger pull, and I clutched my head and tried making the memories go away.
I took out my phone; which was at 2%.
I called River.
He answered.
"River please let me out"! I cried.
"Tatum, this is killing me, it is. I hate seeing you hurt and upset, but you need to do this. You need to know the feeling again so you stop panicking. I'm sorry Tatum".
"You f***ing A*shwole! I hate you"! I yelled.
"And you have every right to, right now. But just go back to sleep" He said calmly.
My phone then shut off because it died.
I brought my knees up to my chest and wrapped my arms around them and shivered.
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I woke up and stood up.
I looked around, and it was probably only 6 A.M. but I probably only got a half hour of sleep throughout the night.
The door opened and River came in.
I jumped into his arms and he wrapped his arms around me and I cried.
"Don't do that ever again" I cried and my words were muffled since I said them into his shirt.
He nuzzled his head into my neck and rubbed circles on my back.
"I'm so sorry" He said and he sounded like he felt horrible.
I pulled away and looked up at him.
He had bags under his eyes, messy hair and exhausted crossed over his face.
But I looked worse with tired eyes, tear stained cheeks, knotty hair, etc.
He pressed his lips to my forehead and said "Tatum you will never know how hard this was to do" He said "I am so sorry. But I needed you to come and face what reality was".
I stayed silent.
I just stared outside the car window as River drove home.
I squeezed my eyes shut and sighed then re-opening them and looking at the colorful trees.
It was Monday and I feel like hell.
I just wanted to go home.
The whole thing with my dad really hit me hard........
My dad was a messed up and use to abuse me.
Only me because he didn't love me, like Lex, Mark, Gwen, and Max.
I put up with it and then he and Mr. Lockwood became involved in gang violence.
Mr. Lockwood and My dad were friends since elementary school and were both messed up in the head.
They got into gangs, and it all went down hill from there.
They're both in jail now.
River almost had the same story as me. His dad was a drug-addict and other things. He cheated on Mrs. Lockwood and he abused all of his kids. He stole, murdered, and raped, innocent people. River had it bad. Mr. Lockwood would even force River to steal sometimes so if they got caught it would be blamed on River. Then with the gangs.........
Let's just say, we weren't the sweet innocent kids, that parents dreamed about. We were not living some fairy tale. Rivers personality was shaped into a bad boy, and mine wasn't an innocent 'good girl' because I was far from that.
We pulled into my driveway and I got out and slammed the door and walked up to the door.
River followed me and I opened the door and Mark, Lex, Gwen, Max, and my mom hugged me.
"O my god! You're okay!" My mom said with tears in her eyes.
I nodded slightly.
River leaned up against the doorway.
"Where the hell were you?! We tried calling you and you didn't answer"! Gwen said.
I looked at River.
Lex said "Tell me you slept with River".
I stomped on her foot and she hissed in pain.
My mom said "You have some explaining to do, miss".
I bit my lip.
Mark sighed "Mom, I know what happened, and knew exactly where she was. River and I planned something, and- well just don't make her explain. I promise I'll explain everything".
My mom gave a confused look then nodding and turned towards me "Tatum, go head to sleep. You look exhausted".
I nodded and started to walk away but my wrist was grabbed and I was whirled around; to face River.
He placed his forehead to mine "You know I'm sorry".
"I know" I whispered.
"Do you forgive me"?
I looked up from the ground "No" I said and walked away.
I was sitting on the window seat of my room. Which is the ledge type thing by a window that has cushions and throw pillows.
I leaned up against on of my walls and watched as the raindrops ran down the window.
I smiled to myself, and remembered when I was little and use to watch as the raindrop ran down the window and I would make them 'race' and see which one got to the bottom first.
It's been an hour since I've been home and I couldn't stop thinking.
Their was a knock at my doorway.
I turned my head to see River leaning in my doorway and he knocked with his knuckles "Can I come in"?
I nodded slightly and he shut my door and walked over to me and sat down the other side of my window seat ledge.
I curled my knees up to my chest and continued watching the drizzled rain.
I saw River staring at me, like he was trying to figure me out.
I raised an eyebrow.
He shook his head.
There were a few moments of silence.
River pulled me over to him and into his lap.
His fingers traced circles on my hand.
Electricity shot threw me and he hummed a familiar tune.
I smiled at him as I knew the tune.
It was Walk On By by Noosa.
It is my favorite song and people always called it 'River and Tatum's song'.
"Run when the rhythms right
Go into the night
Go until you're out of sight
And you're out of my mind"
He sang softly into my ear and continued to trace circles on my hand
"Run when the rhythms right
Go into the night
Floating as the river flows
Easy as it goes to the ocean
So walk on by, I've got no reason to love you but I do, I do, I do"
He sang slowly and softly.
"You're showing me colors of the sky
But all I see grey
You lost me when you lied
Promise me but you never try
Secrets in your eyes
You go and run, I'll hide
You're showing me colors of the sky
But all I see grey
You lost me when you lied
I don't ever wanna be crowned just another prize
It breaks my heart"
He sang faster and I looked at him.
"Lost in the midnight blue shadows of the moon
Here with open arms for you, feeling something so new
Said with me you'd reach the sun
Oh but we were so young
Love me 'till the summer's done"
I sang softly almost in a whisper.
"But keep me in your heart so i hold on
So walk on by, I've got no reason to love you but I do, I do, I do"
He turned me in his lap so I was straddling him.
"You're showing me colors of the sky
But all I see grey
You lost me when you lied
Promise me but you never try
Secrets in your eyes
You go and run, I'll hide
You're showing me colors of the sky
But all I see grey
You lost me when you lied
I don't ever wanna be crowned just another prize
It breaks my heart"
I sang and he stared at me insistently with his blue eyes.
"shook me to the ground now and some how"
"I feel like you don't know me
Shook me to the ground now I don't even know how
Brought me to a life that you never showed me
Coming from a locked up ghost of yourself
But you're coming from the light
There's more to you than you ever thought there was
Yeah you're coming from the light"
We both sang at the same time.
"Run when the rhythm's right" The last part of the song was sang slowly.
He stared at me and I parted my lips.
He leaned in and his lips brushed against mine; testing me.
I smashed my lips into his and he responded immediately and his right hand cupped my cheek and the other went to my lower back and pushed me up against him.
I smiled into the kiss as electricity raced threw me.
His hands went to my waist and traced circles and lifted up my shirt slowly.
I broke the kiss.
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A://N Long chapter again!
WooooHooooo!
I'm writing before hand so it's current;y 12:42 A.M.
So did you like this chapter??
It revealed a lot.........
Its already Chapter 27, and we're just getting into the story plot line.
QUESTIONS:
1) What do you think about Tatum and that Necklace?
2) What do you think about her hanging out with Jake?
3) What do you think about River being overprotective and jealous and taking her from Jake's
4) What do you think about River bringing her to the cabin?
5) What do you think about Tatum's Dad, and River's Dad?
6) What do you think about River locking her in the cabin, so she would face reality and her fears?
7) What do you think about River and Tatum's kiss?
Well since 7 is my lucky number, that is all the questions.
This chapter took 5 hours..........
I kept deleting things and re-writing, plus wattpad kept crashing.
So fun!
I listened to Walk On By by Noosa the whole time, while I wrote this.
It's not really a known song, but its AMAZING!
Go check it out if you want!
Anyways, that is it.
BYE
~Ashley