"Everything I didn't say"

" Starring Role "

ALICE
I could not believe that I've been waiting for at least a month and now he's finally mine. I had to constantly keep pinching myself because I felt like this was all a dream even though I've only been living in a nightmare for so long. It's just so hard to picture someone like Harry to be with a nobody like me. I didn't feel like changing so I just stayed in my pjs which consisted of a pair of plaid flannel like shorts and a long sleeved shirt with a coffee cup on it. I tip toed downstairs and was about to secretly enter the kitchen and grab a glass of wine and a light snack but instead found a pair of big hands wrap around my waist I screamed, but quickly began to blush whenever I realised it was Harry. Love? Where were you going? The kitchen Harold I said annoyed. Please don't tell me your going to grab a can of bud light? He said concerned. N-n-no I was going to get a glass of wine and a snack I mumbled. I quickly bolted past and closed the kitchen door behind me. I'm sorry... It's just... I need something to numb the pain. I grabbed a glass and poured it to the brim with wine. I gulped it down in less than 2 minutes savouring the bitter, tangy, grape flavour. I knew I probably shouldn't but I poured another glass but hey this time it's only " half " full. I suddenly felt lightheaded so I took a seat at the dining table. I held my head in my hands rubbing my temples. Ugh! Why me? What else did I do wrong universe? Please tell me. I now had a head cracking headache I went over and fished around the medicine cabinet until my hands touched the package of Tylenol tablets. I cracked open two and gulped them down with the remaining wine. I sat down and let a silent tear tumble down my cheek. Harry and Niall burst through the kitchen door, Alice? What's wrong? N-n-nothing I stuttered. I tried to stand up but immediately sat down because I was going to throw up, holy shit! I think I'm sick again. Alice? ... Alice? Alice Lorain Horan!?! Huh? Did you have two glasses of wine? Mabey I whispered my stomach tightening as I started getting more and more nauseous. I shakily stood up and threw up in the nearest trash can. Alice why? I'm so sorry Harry and Niall :( I really am. It's okay but why? I just... It's the only way for me to forget the pain but every time I drink it I get sick to my stomach and throw up. I'm really sorry I said lowering my head in shame. Alice it's okay but one I hope you learned your lesson and two lets get you to bed. We'll call a doctor or something in the morning okay baby sis? Okay big brother I said my face contorted and I threw up again. Harry came in and placed a cold rag on my forehead and kissed my cheek. You'll feel better in no time baby. Yea right😒 I love you he said kissing me on my lips. He turned to leave but I grabbed his hand  before he could head out the door. Harry? Yea baby? Would you sleep with me? Yes anything for you baby he said kissing my cheek. Goodnight baby girl💙 goodnight Harold ❤️