They played PlayStation and some other video games and watched a movie untill Niall fell asleep cause they were already watching TV in the dark
"the dork is asleep" Louis said to Harry pointing at Niall and smiling so Harry giggled, looking at him
.....
"Louis.. Do you feel better now?" Harry asked worried of the shit that Louis usually says but he didn't expected him to answer like
"i don't know.. I was never so confused. I thought i hated her but... When she's really is getting away from me i.. I felt different.. Afraid" Louis said looking at his feet and holding his knees as he sat a while ago
"i told you that you don't hate her Louis but you never listened"
"you were right.. I never cried over someone but believe it or not, i-i cried myself to sleep yeaterday" Louis said smirking as if making fun of himself
"this isn't weird, she's your mother Louis, she's not just someone"
"i don't know what i feel.. I'm afraid and sad and I'm so guilty as i was never before.. I feel weak. And unfortunately i need her.. W-why would she just stop caring about me! She said it to me face to face yesterday.. She will only pay for my school and needs.. I was never so shocked before"
"louis she didn't do this for no reason, you've done alot.. I told you before that you're so harsh with her but you didn't care.. She's had enough and she needs someone to care about her cause... It's truth Louis, you never cared about her or her feelings, you were treating her so cold and you couldn't care less! These are the results of the way you used to treat her and you can't blame her"
"what am i supposed to do now?" Louis' voice cracked and Harry could see his teary eyes from the light of the TV
He sighed and patted his back "just wait.. And try to talk to her-"
"i-I'd never do this!.. I can't"
"but you have to, Louis"
"but-"
"i know it's hard for you but if you need her you have to do this and.. After all, she's your mother, you can't keep your pride against her she will forgive you if you talked to her cause she loves you so much, don't forget that you're her only child, Louis" He said putting his arm on Louis' shoulders and shaking him friendly so Louis smiled lightly and a single tear slided down his cheeck and Harry could never be more shocked or sadder.. He never saw Louis crying althought that they've been friends for years
"No, Louis c'mon.. Everything is gonna be fine please, just stop" he said and hugged him but Louis was frozen and just let out a small sob which made Harry hug him seriously now
"it's fine, Louis, please"
"i caused her sadness and tears and insulted her" he said between his low sobs
"while all what i got back was caring and fear and worry and love.. I don't deserve anything good" he said and cried harder on Harry's shoulder while all what Harry did was patting his back and comforting him.. He knew that Louis needs to talk or he could never allow him to see his tears
"it's okay, Louis, it's okay.. She loves you, beleive me. If you talked to her she will forgive you"
" i don't think so" he said pulling away and wiping his face
"Louis, just rest right now and sleep and tomorrow we will talk"
"okay.." he said in a strange tone that Harry had never heard from him.. A weak and low tone.
They both slept on the ground and carried Niall and put him on his bed.
#Louis' POV
I woke up in a strange place and was alone.. But the view changed slowly showing me my mom.. Niall, Harry, their parents and some other people.. Wearing all black and standing in front of a casket and mom was crying so hard.. I walked and stood so near but they didn't notice me.. Harry and Niall was crying hard. I stood in front of Harry but he didn't see me. What?
I walked closer to the casket.. What the actual fuck!
It's me!
Oh my god ,there have to be something wrong! What is- h-how is that even possible!
"mom! Niall!.. Harry?!!.. Hey I'm still alive what is this!" i yelled looking at them but they didn't even look at me it's like if i wasn't here!
In a minute the view changed to be actually me in the casket and they were closing it on me
I tried to scream and yell but my mouth were glued and my voice didn't come out and my hand was frozen, just as my body.. It feels like if I'm really dead but with an awake mind!
God this isn't possible!
"No, wait! Wait, i'm still alive!"
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"Louis, Louis.. Wake up!" i felt a hand shaking me
I snapped my eyes opend and took the deepest breath my lungs could handle as a gasp and let it out loudly and repeated it but with shorter breaths
I felt like if i was under water or that i wad really dead.. Or my lungs were just empty and in need for air because of the screaming in the nightmare or even in reality
"you okay?" Harry asked and i looked at him in relief
"t-thank you for waking me up.. T-thank you" i said out of breath and he gave me a glass of water was on Niall's night stand
"what was that?"
"a h-horrible nightmare... It's terrible" i said and drank the water and then i could breath well..
"you wanna talk about it?"
"no!... N-no i don't"
"okay, okay, it's fine can you get back to sleep?"
"i-I'm afraid"
"okay, want to stay awake? It's okay i can stay up"
"i don't know"
"okay we're staying up until you feel better"
"thanks"
#no POV
Within minutes Louis was asleep just as Harry.
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"you wanna go home?" Harry asked
"i don't know"
It was Saturday so they didn't wake up for school
"if you're not ready to talk to her, it's okay but is there any other reason?"
"I'm.. Ashamed" Louis said looking at Harry in the eyes
"guys, finally you woke up! C'mon lets have breakfast"
"Louis, your mother called yesterday and asked if you were here. Haven't you tell her that you'll sleep here?" Niall's mum said
"N-no, i forgot"
"okay, call her so she wouldn't be worried anymore"
"okay" louis said
They had breakfast and went out walking and eating ice-cream
"what would you do, Louis?" Niall asked
"I don't know, i think i need to talk to her"
"great! Do it then!"
"oh, really. Was i waiting you to just tell me? Like if it was that easy?"
"um.. What would you do then?"
"i still don't know how to.. How to face her"
"it's gonna happen anyways so don't be afraid and go for it and after all she's your mother so don't expect something bad" Niall said
"yeah i told him that" harry said
"just be ready"
"okay positive people thanks for your support but it didn't change a shit" Louis said and Harry rolled his eyes, just as Niall
"just go for it Louis, go home" Harry said
"but-"
"no but, just go"Niall said
"okay.. See ya then?"
"yeah see ya.. Bye" Niall said and Harry waved and Louis waved back for them both and turned his back to them so he can head to his house now.
#Louis' POV
I was nervous and i couldn't put words together to tell her
I opened the door quietly and stepped in and closed it only for mother to show up from no where and ask me
"where were you Louis?"
"i think you already know" stop being rude you stupid ass!
"i mean.. Maura said that you called so-"
"and why didn't you call me and where were you before you go to Niall's house?"
"i was with Niall and Harry" i said
"you're lying" she said crossing her arms
"no! I swear i was with them, you can ask them!"
"why didn't you just call was it so hard for you even to text me? Just leaving me here alone for a whole day not knowing where are you!"
"well, you didn't call even when i was late so i... I thought you just don't wanna hear my voice.. Or maybe busy"
"busy? I was never busy for you Louis, i just... Well, i don't know i just didn't.. Call"
"i-I'm.. I'm s-sorry" i sighed and to be honest it was never easy to speak out this word i would clap my hands for myself for saying it
"i-it's okay honey" mom said and, surprised, i can tell. I know.
I walked upstairs and entered my room, threw my bag on the ground and threw myself on my bed
Minutes later, i stood up and headed to the bathroom. Took a hot shower and realised that i did really need it.
I walked out with the towel on my waist to my room, wore a random sweatpants and a T-shirt
And didn't bother to brush my hair
I headed down and found mom in the kitchen.. Well i feel kinda weird sitting here, doing nothing.. I usually be in my room until food is ready or just hanging out.. I was never sitting like this before, what should i do? Watch TV? Or just go and talk to her?
No i don't think so.. No.
I heard mom letting out a short scream so i ran to the kitchen to find her puttung her hands under water and moaning in pain
"m-mom, you're alright?" i asked getting a bit closer to her
"Y-yeah I'm fine" she said closing water and turning to me with a towel wrapped around her hand
"what bappened?"
"nothing, i'm fine" she said with a kind smile
"just say what happened?"
"the boiling soup.. Some of it fell on my hand" she said tightening the towel aroung ber hand
"shit!.. I'm gonna get you a cream or something do we have one?"
"y-yeah, in the bathroom"
"okay, I'll get it in moments" i said rushing to the bathroom and searching in the many medicines till i found one and rushed back to the kitchen
"thank you, sweetheart" she said and her eyes were teary, damn, of course that hurts as f*ck!
"j-just let me help you" she said taking off the towel and seeing her puffy and red hand
I took some of the cream and started wiping it on her hand and she was holding her tears in.
"well, f*ck cooking. You could just order some shit" i said and then gave her a pill of an analgesic medicine
"food is already done, we don't need to order" she said
I put food on the table in the kitchen and we both sat there eating in silence
"thank you, Louis" she said looking at me
I swallowed and looked at her
"i must've done this" i said
We finished dinner and i went back to my room.. I don't know why didn't i just talk!
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#No POV
"did you talk to her?" Harry asked when they sat on some wooden seats in the streat
"not yet" Louis said
"what? Why?!" Niall said
"i couldn't.. I just didn't"
"it's okay, whenever you are ready you can talk to her" Harry said
"i was so kind yesterday.. I was surprised myself" Louis said chuckling and they both guggled
"so.. What would we do today?" Niall asked
"i don't know" Harry said
"i had a similar nightmare , yesterday.." Louis said and Harry looked at him worriedly
"what nightmare?" Niall asked
"the day we slept at your house, he had a nightmare.. You were asleep" Harry told Niall
"was it the same?" Harry asked Louis
"No, but similar" Louis answered
"does it mean anything to you?" Harry asked
"no.. Not at all"
"what was it about?" Niall asked
"in both nightmare i was... Half dead"
"what do you mean?" Harry asked
"i don't know but.. I was dead but could see myself.. It's like if i was watching a video of me but it was real.. And i saw everything but couldn't say or do anything.. I actually talked but wasn't heard and waved and did all what i could but wasn't seen.. I don't know what does that mean... To see yourself dead but you are actually alive.. It's terrifying. I'm afrad to sleep again"
"calm down.. It's only a nightmare" Niall said
"but.. To be honest.. This is so scary. Just to be not seen or heard is so terrible itself plus that you're actually seeing yourself dead.. This is even more horrible!" Harry said
"yeah, it is.." Louis said staring at nothing and remembering the details of the dream and that made him feel weird cause.. Usually you don't remember the details of a dream once you wake up.
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