Elsa :
I got out to the cold emptiness of the snowy outdoors, thinking about what happened after I went out of his room yesterday:
All rosie red, thinking about him,
after I got away so quickly that he was almost able to think that I don't like him and that I despise any kind of touch with him, while my opinion is exactly the opposite one!
No, no I am over reacting. He couldn't infer that only because I ran away soo quickly.....
But there is no chance that he missed the fact that I am a terribly shy person!
The way that I ran away from his presence soo fast or the way I blushed like a fool in his hands before.
In his hands......
I don't know why but even tho I blushed then, and was exited of the situation, I felt very natural and released in his arms, when I fell on his knees.
Like no one threats me.
Like he is protecting me.
Like I'm safe.
Even tho, when I looked straight at his eyes, I tried to analyse the situation in the beginning, but then
I met that comforting blue in his eyes, full of those small sparkles that looked like stars in a once in a year,
clear- clear nights, that you can actually see thoes cool, stardust planets shining above you.
And I fell into them in this wird feeling of belonging and attraction.....
I almost not able to actually recognise what was in there, but it felt soo good and got me soo high that I am still actually surrounded by the energy of the moment or the tingling that I felt where he put his arms on me,
Or the tingling on my lips, almost getting too close.......
No, no,
What am I saying?
He is just a friend that I cured because he needed help.
And I took care of him pretty good, I didn't expected that it he will manage walking even half a step like he did.
Well it took a lot of work ;
Dragging him in the first day I saw him,( look how better he got since then! ) searching thoes medical supplies that I never use for his wounds, cleaning the scars on his body and his chest.......
Oh no!
What am I thinking about?
No!
He is just a good person that crashed next to my palace for a mistake, there is no way that we can possibly think of each other like this,
Especially not me.
I don't want to hurt
and I don't wanna be hurted,
And love is to destroy
and to be loved is to be destroyed.
Just like I thought last evening as I got back to sleep.
Prephering not to see the consequence of my last heartbreak, and got back to bed as fast as I could.
'I need to wash it out, all of it.
Maybe some sleep is just what I need,
but I doubt that.'
I thought yesterday while I put my hands on the pillow, and fell asleep.
I woke up in a snowy filled,
Close to one of the top of one of the mountains.
I started walking, studying the icy wiew the I already used to see.
And over sudden,
I saw him.
Touching the sharp edge of the icicle,
Running his hand upon it, with a furious expression but with elegant moves like he always had.
Tall, with that strange lightning in his black deep eyes, that were always hidden by his thick eyebrows, but cleared with his wide forehead.
-"Hello, Elsa." He said with this passion in his eyes that could be considered as madness if he hadn't use that sweet begging voice, or getting his face soft. "My love."
He ran to me accelerating with every step of the passion strong as an explosion in the flames he always held in him,
Kissing me with all his love, and powerful burning, of the risky combination of, frankness and softness.
Wait a minute........ Burning?
I opened my eyes from that kiss.
There is no daylight only darkness surrounding me like the heavy smoke,
coming from the fire he is in with the same broken, tourchered, tearful face he had in that exsact moment months ago.
Against my willing to run away of the horror I'm touching his cheek, crying as I see the flames surrounding his black, green and golden suit and his stright black hair that curved up that way I used to see.
And in the peak of my emotion storm,
the moment frooze for a petrifying second as I thought to myself with a inhuman ,cool ton against my willing :
'How? How could I?'
I wake up.
Breaving heavily.
It was a nightmare.
What kind of nightmare of a life is it?!
-"AHHHH!"
I sobbed to myself while I cried.
Why did I do it?
How could I do this?
Am I a monster now?!
Is the poisent bad deeds the society surrounded me with all my life had breached the icy walls of my world? My heart?
Are my life ruined?!
I kept whiling to myself and crying as I almost falling into despair.
Please don't kill me!
Please don't let the gilt and the emotions kill me!
Or if they were meant to tourcher me until I die ,such a blessed curse couldn't possibly be worse!
Please cut me off my misery and end this here and now.
Help me!
Save me!
I screamed from the inside as I cried for several seconds more,
And then over sudden,
I heard steps from an unknown direction, and saw some white shadow on the ice wall.
I thought that my eyes weren't able to see so good because of the tears that blurred my eye site, or that I am starting to having hallucination of the agony that attacks me all the time.
'Are the gods demanding my suffer as a punishment for killing one of their own, no matter how much of a devil there's in him instead of a god?!'
I thought as I cried again softly, shrinking myself inside like I try to protect myself of the pain, almost realistic.
-"Why would you cry? "
Suddenly I heard a masculine voice, taking to me with soft pity in his deep ton.
Is it possible?
Somebody is here?
Somebody is listening?
-"Elsa?"
The comforting, loving voice said again.
-" W-Who are you? What do you want from me? " I asked afraid, which made me sound polite.
-"I want to help you Elsa.
I swear, I won't do you any wrong."
Help? Me?
Has my wishes been answered?
No, no. Don't rush to believe someone that you don't even know.
He might be a lier, or if not he might be exited only in my tormented imagination.
-"You can't help me."
-"Why can't I?"
The loving voice asked.
-"Because I am possibly imaging you."
I answered the truth for my mind and decided to say whatever that's in my mind now if he is real or not.
"And because for what I did......
even haven will not forgive."
I shrunk myself in and cried for the painful memories.
- "I am not from haven but, let me show you otherwise."
The encouraging, male voice said,
And my heart was opened.
- "Can you? Can you save me?"
I asked full of hope that looked almost pathetic.
The masculine voice, that sounded as sweet as the sunrise was silent,
Then talked again filling me with a strange combination of hope, interest, fear, and solvation.
" Close your eyes. "
He said with a calming, stable voice that felt cold for some reason yet full of existment.
I did as he said, convinced, calmed and lighter somehow when I heard his footsteps walking on the slippery ice floor.
My existment started storming in my heart and then......
He kissed me.
The touch of his lips on mine was cold and guilty somehow yet full of emotion and endless pleasure,
I couldn't stop.
Even with my eyes closed I could imagine him like a first sunlight after a long time of darkness, such a cool blessed perfection that touched my lips for a passionfull moment that seemed like forever and I only wanted it to continue.
I didn't know who was he or how was he, I just felt that next to this mysterious man that I don't know his name is where I belong.
I searched for him around the room, interested to see who the mysterious man was, but found no one.
Then, I decided to say whatever my heart demands me to say;
"Thank you, whoever you are."
I fell back asleep, with my face dry, no more tears, happy and full of expectations.
I am not sure if I heard someone yelling out of joy, but I didn't thought of it too much and fell asleep.
By the time I thought about all what happened that night I went a kilometre from the castle and another one back to it.
My mind was finally clear and joyful as I hoped it will be, and full of light and energy I came into my palace.
I opened the ice doors and heard someone braking something that sounded like......... ice?