I wake up at 3 am. Bad dream again. I decide to get up and walk around my room for a bit pacing quietly back and forth. I want to dance to forget this dream but I can't. After 1 hour of being awake I think I know what I need to do. Stay awake. Kayla just go to sleep your worthless anyway. Let the dreams control you! I stay awake till I hear My dad get up for work. I run down stairs and grab an apple.
" Hey dad," I say.
" Hey Kay how are you? Dream?" He asks.
" I'm good and yeah," I say.
" It will get better," My dad says and he smiles. I give a weak smile back and eat my apple on the couch. I decide to have some cereal as well as I need a good diet for dancing. I realise that I booked studio a this morning. After waking Riley and Emily up I get changed into my dance wear and pack my bag.
When I get into studio a miss Kate smiles and waves at me and I wave back. I'm not sure if my mum has told her yet. I really hope she hasn't.
I decide to dance to a song called tears of an angel. It's a lyrical song and I dance really freely. Its been ages since I can just dance lyrical. I feel so free. It's the best I've ever danced.
As im dancing miss Kate comes out and watches me. Slowly the song draws to a close and I stand facing the mirrors.
" Kayla that was amazing! Your moves and technique were on point," Miss Kate exclaims.
" Thankyou," I reply. Miss Kate walks back into the office and I restart the solo working on some parts.
I decide to dance full out one more time before my rehearsal time is up. The song plays and I dance.
As im dancing I see some of a troupe walk in. There early. I see the rest of a troupe walk in and I carry on dancing.
The song finishes and I feel tears running down my face. I wipe them away and a troupe clap.
" Wow Kayla!" Michelle says.
" A troupe material there," Chloe exclaims.
" Thanks but it's your rehearsal time so I better get going," i say before walking out of the studio. Kayla the only thing good about you is your dancing. Your crap at everything else. And most of all your ugly. Your a waste of space and oxygen. Just kill yourself.
This time the words kick in. I run home crying but I know I'm stronger. I can fight this. I'm going to get better!