the next day on the Tuesday, she returned into his life and with strong feelings for him...again.
he also had the same feelings for her, which I did not know until term 3.
her best friends were the only ones that knew and would always make a comment about how they would make the cutest couple and that they should be together. they would say this right in front of me knowing that I would go to my friends and have a breakdown.
no one cared that I would be balling my eyes out over something major besides maybe 5 girls and maybe 2 guys, and yet when she cried only one tear everyone would rush over to see if she was ok. you did that, which is what made me know you had feelings for her.
that day was one of the worst days of my life. with Wednesday and Thursday still to come.
everything that we used to do together, you would do with her....
Walk together from the back oval to the lockers
Hug before, after and during classes
Sit down with her during lunch and recess and spend time with her
Walk everywhere with her, too and from classes
You would even walk right in front of me and flirt the whole time even though you knew I was right behind you and her crying into my friends shoulders.
everyone kept telling me that everything will be ok and that nothing is going to happen between them. but everyone was wrong, no one was listening to me.
Wednesday was probably the best day, because I knew most of my friends weren't going to be at school the next day, on my last day. so I spent most of the day having fun with them and showing you that I didn't need you in my life and that I didn't need you screwing up everything that was good.
Thursday was bad, on the bus I did what any depressed lonely lost child would do...
i cut
well it was more like scratching until skin came off....I did it twice that morning
I did that because of you and her together, I couldn't stand it
so my thought was
"it won't hurt as much on the inside of I hurt myself on the outside"
it wasn't true, I regretted it straight away because I have scars now, and no matter how hard I true to cover it up with make-up before I go to school it just doesn't cover up
the rest of the day was like Wednesday, I spent the day with my best friends and every time you would look over at us having fun
we could all see how much regret and sorrow you felt for treating me like that
it was the finally the end of the day where I would say good bye to my dearest friends for 12 days, I saw you and her standing there about to hug so I pulled in one of my best friends to block it out so I didn't throw up or want to start crying in front of you
you then walked over to me and have me the weakest and smallest hug I had ever gotten from you to wish good luck and to have fun
I was so disappointed and annoyed that I just left without saying goodbye to anyone else
the afternoon came and you texted me like nothing bad had happened between us, you were sending me love hearts and kissy faces
I was so confused, and so was everyone else that I sent screenshots too
we all decided that he was just trying to make amends before I went to a different country so that I would enjoy my time and not think about him
but boy was he wrong!!!