첸pov
I got nothing to say, thing changed and time flies fast. My life has turned upside down once again after Nara came back and makes my life even crazier. Kris, Xiumin and Luhan hyung confessed their involvement to Nara's flee four years ago. I dont have time to resent them, that girl just got a lot of men on her back willing to support her. And she now keeps on bugging me around.
"I dont think you dont love me anymore Chen." She said once firmly. Her confidence level also has increased these years. Even if I acted really cold in front of her, she did not stop to show that she wants us back together.
Even though shes all busy with her business, which exposes her more on a bunch of men, she still managed to show up in SM building and sometimes set up a dinner with my members, of course I should go with them too just like today.
Everybody is enjoying the food and sharing a lot of laughter with her but I just stayed silent beside Lay hyung.
"By the way Kris, I really missed that River adventure we did back then." Nara said to Kris.
"Ahh yeah. But I already sold that property when I came back to Korea." Kris responded.
"You had a good memories in China, right Nara?" Luhan joined.
"Oh thats all because of you oppa."
So they just realized that Luhan Hyung is actually older than Nara? Now shes dearly calling him oppa?
"Ah Noona, when are you going to invite us in your Star house!" Baek changed the topic.
Nara hummed and get her phone from her bag.
"Lemme check."
Deep inside I dont really want to see her perform, I dont want to hear her sing again.
"Next week, I got a set after BTS." She replied to Baek.
Did she just mentioned Bangtan? Seriously? How did she convinced BigHit to be their partner? This woman is really something.
"BTS Noona?" Kyungsoo was surprised too. Nara nodded and boastfully smiled.
"Ill save the date for you guys." She looked to me. "Dont make excuses and come too."
"I wont." Did I just say that? I shoul have said, I wont waste my time for that, but it will make me sound like a bitter ex-boyfriend.
She winked to me in return and our members laughed.
The rest of the dinner went well, Baek just make it like a gag show. We are laughing out loud and seems to forget that we still need to record for our own reality show this 5am and its eleven already.
After realizing that we need to go home, we parade to the parking of the restaurant and we just realize that Nara did not bring her car. Well did she bought a new car after her return?
"Noona, we will just drop you home." Channie suggested.
"Nah thanks. You know we are heading to opposite direction. Ill-" She stop talking when we heard a high pitched voice calling her. We are all surprised to see the small eyed guy Park Jimin running to our spot. Hold on. What is going on? What is Park Jimin doing here and is he close to Nara?
"Noona, Im sorry Im late." He smiled to Nara and Nara just cling herself to Jimin's arm.
What the hell?
"Oh. Annyeonghaseyo." Jimin bowed.
My members greeted back and all look at me, they seemed to be waiting for my reaction.
"Hello Jimin. Why are you here?" That was Kai.
"Ahhh. I texted Noona that we are just acrross the street. We are visiting V's aunt. My members went to our dorm already. I bring my big bike so Ill just drive Nonna home."
He brought his bigbike and drive Nara home?
"Bye guys. Ill be fine." Nara waved to us and just turned heading to Jimin's motorcycle parked just a few meters away from our van. I saw him handling Nara the helmet and they looks really close.
"So lets go." Suho hyung said.
Xiumin hyung who served as our driver in the front started the engine and played a song for us.
"Wahh I didnt know Noona was close with BTS." Kyungsoo who was sitting in the front seat began.
"Why? Noona is a very charming woman? She can be loved by everybody." Sehun seconded.
"Right. She once told me that BTS once perfomed in Star House Japan." Xiumin hyung commented.
So meaning, Nara has shared a lot of things to Xiumin hyung already? Did Xiumin hyung tried to get even closer to Nara these days? I knew he liked her very much and even wanted to court her before. Is he going to court her now for real?
박나라 pov
I thanked Jimin for dropping me home and bid him goodbye. Out of all BTS members Jimin is the only one im very close with though the rest are just very courteous to me since it appears that I am their employer. But Jimin was very different, he jokes and pranks around me.
I felt tired but my phone rings. Its Xiumin oppa.
"Oppa?"
"Naraya, are you home already?" As always Oppa has been very caring about me but he has clarified already to me that he respected my love for Chen and I adore him even more because of that.
"Yes. Im really sleepy but I still have to check my emails." I replied as I entered my door's passcode. It clicked open and I entered the house.
"Naraya, I have something to tell you, today I got a notice from SM that I will enlist in three months. I felt sad leaving you."
"Oppa, Ill be fine. Dont worry about me." I still understand that he still loved me all this time and I feel sad that I cant even return the feelings. "You should ne the one to take care of youself and be back safely. Ill miss you. Ah, how about us bonding a lot before your enlistment. So that you wont miss me a lot."
He laughed a little.
"It will make me miss you more but yeah, we'll do that. Sleep now Nara. Good night."
"Good night Oppa."
I tossed myself in the couch. I feel emotionally stressed. I know that Xiumin Oppa loved me more than a dongsaeng and Im a lot grateful about it but it makes me even more sad to think that I cant love him back the way he loved me. He knows more than anyone else how much I worked hard on winning Chen back in my life but there seems to be no progress at all as of this time.
Remembering of that hard headed jerk. I grab my phone and dialed his number. It rings several times but he doesnt answer so I dialed it over and over again but he never answered me. Maybe he is sleeping already.
Chen told me once not to call him but I called him every night before I sleep or text him goodnight. I never gained any response from any of those. I sighed. Life is such a big joke. Theres Xiumin oppa who loved me unconditionally but I cant fake my feelings. I love oppa as a fan but I cant love him beyond that.
I decided to text Chen before going to sleep. CAN WE TALK ABOUT US? STAR?
백현 pov
We are all gathered at the front of the Star house stage. I can see that the bar is filled with may customers ready for the live disco. All tablea are occupied and drinks are pouring from there and there. BTS is done with their set already and Noona is preparing for her set. The disco filled the space between the set and the disco light starts to dance. Everybody is dancing on the dance floor and on their seats as well.
I saw the group went over to Noona who was in the counter with the staff. Noona was all set with her make up and costume, she looka stunning. I saw Jimin hugged Noona, Noona just poke the guy's shoulders. I looked at Chen, is he jealous? That feirce look at Jimin and Noona and his clenching teeth. Is noona tried to make Chen jealous or its just Chen with his pride gets jealous.
The music became louder and the crowd gone wild. When I look back at Noona, she was left with Jimin in the counter, they are conversing merrily and seems to be joking around. My eyes pop out when I see Jimin kissing Noona's cheeks and Noona just laugh and playfully pushed Jimin away.
To our surprise, Chen suddenly stood up and walk towards the two people playing with each other. My members panicked and but maintain our places and just observed Chen. Chen politely whispered to Jimin and grab Noona away going to the back stage.
"You see that?" Channie asked while hastily poking my arm.
"Yeah. I don't know whats going on with Chen, he really made it hard for Noona but he just jealous now. I wish they will patch things out."
Park Nara Pov
Chen drag me like a log going to the back stage. He politely tell the staff to leave us alone and they left accordingly. I was terribly trembling because I can see in his eyes that he is mad. He pushed me and glared my with his flaring eyes.
"Whats wrong with you?" I exclaimed! I am seriously nervous and confused when he suddenly pop out from nowhere and drag me to the back stage. My arms still hurt because of his strong grip.
"Are you that desperate to make me jelous? I am not jelous Nara!" He shouted back at me teeth clenching and facial muscles contracting.
"Then why do you care? We are not doing anything wrong?"
"You want to destroy somebody's career again? People are staring at you both and reports could come out that you both are dating. And if there will be controversies, you are going to escape again? Hurting somebody again?"
I did not talked back. His words sliced my heart into pieces. My lips began to tremble and my eyes hurt. I cried. It was the most painful thing I ever heard from him aside from his cold dealing with me. Like all those years that I loved him from far away, he has thought that I selfishly escaped from the trouble that our relationship caused.
"I never leave you because I wanted to Star-"
"Don't call me that!" He hissed.
"I love you until now. It grows everyday Chen. And leaving you many years ago, I regret it. Many nights I cried thinking the possibilities if I stayed beside you and never leave you at all. You know, you are the most wonderful thing that happen to me since birth Chen. If you don't love me anymore, please just say so and don't tell me things like that!" I said between tears. My sobs has increased as I can see in his eyes that he wasn't moved by my words.
"You never said anything. You just left. I wanted to become stronger for you back then Nara but you did not believe me. I loved you more than my dreams and if leaving EXO is the only way to be with you I would do that but you did not wait for me to show it."
"I was afraid. I don't know what to do. I know I hurt you and Im so sorry. Im so sorry." I tried to hug him but he stood still like a rock.
"Let me go." He said coldly but he did not pushed me away. "Your apology won't bring back my tears and my fears to trust again. More than anything else, you broke me into someone that I am not Nara."
"Please give me a chance again Star, promise this time I would love you right. Just give me a chance." I tighten my hug but it leads him to harshly untangle my arms from him.
"No more chances, just get over it. It was a dark past and I don't want to spend my future lingering on it anymore with you." He looked into my tearful eyes. His eyes conveyed to me that he was saying the truth and we really are over.
"Don't you love me anymore? Even a bit?"
"No. There's nothing left between you and me here in my heart."
I was silenced by his words. What did I do? Was I being selfish all these years? But I just wanted to protect him.
"Are we really over Chen?"
"Yes. And don't bother me anymore Noona. Goodbye."
He walked away from me to the dark, I was left with tears splashing my face. My knees fall to the ground and my shoulder become frail. All I can see is his shadow faded in the dark. I call out to his name over and over again, sitting on the floor hugging both of my knees.
I had him, we had each other full of dreams but it was over now. No more Star and Starlight. No more Chen and Nara. No more us.