To start off I was wrong about how I thought things was going to change. We haven't talked in months and I'm starting to regret everything, but the only good part is there are some good memories. While your up there having your fun I'm done here crying and scared of me possibly losing you. I know for a fact i miss you and talk about you a lot, but it don't feel like you think about me because it dont feel like I am memorable. So I just talk to Becca telling her how I feel but its not the same because I cant tell you, but when I do text you it feel like your ignoring me I would understand if you just said you dont want to talk. I just love you so much and it feel like I'm losing you and the person it feel like im losing you to is Kali. I shouldnt be feeling like this but I just do because you dont talk to me much and you talk to her a lot still even when you said you wont. It just dont feel like a dream anymore everything is just falling apart. So I wish on us seeing each other more and you stop talking to Kali before something bad happens.
Chris P.O.V.
To start off i havent talked to Carey in a while because im just scared if what she would say because im sure she knows that I still talk to Kali. But when I see she do text me my stomach goes into knots so the only person I could talk to is Kali.
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Today I was talking to Chris and so far it was a good conversation until all of a sudden he just stop texting and I think to myself maybe he is doing something but the hours go by and I start to wonder. So like five hours later I see a picture and it has text messages Kali and Chris were texting and after it he said dude what should I do, but I seen my name in the conversation so I start to read and it says...
Chris: I think Carey knows im talking to you :(
Kali: So why does it matter?
Chris: it matters cuz she is my girlfriend n you know what you said on that phone conversation
Kali: well your so call girlfriend is just so clingy and i know she is making you say this you really should break up with her
Chris: no well she kinda is but it's for the best and i kinda want to be with her...
So when I finish reading that of course I was a little mad, but I decided to text him and said look at the name you sent that to and he said oh babe im soo sorry. Then all I said was this must be a hard decision Chris. Then he said no it's not a hard decision I want you to still be in my life. I didnt text him back none that day so I decided to text Becca what happened and of course she is horribly upset and wants me to break up with him, but I couldnt I just love him so much and cant let go. So now she is mad at Chris and hate that I am still talking to him but she still love me anyway. I been forgave Chris but its just another side of me that's scared. Hopefully we stay together for a long time...