Chapter 3
I've been walking into the woods ever since I heard a girl screaming and begging for help. I've been following her squeal and cries for hours but it seems that I'm still from where she is. Each trees I pass the screams grew louder and louder but there's still no sign of the girl that I've been searching.
Then I was welcomed by a cabin in the middle of the woods. You can determine how old it was for it's beginning to deteriorate. I was going to walk pass by but then I heard the a voice.
"Rebecca... "
I look back at the cabin once more but I was shocked when a saw a faceless figure wearing a white dress standing at its doorway.
"Rebecca what are you doing in here?"
I then started to back away but it seems that my feet are glued to the ground. I then look at the figure once more but this time it's becoming to get closer.
"Rebecca talk to me" It said. As it comes closer to me, the figure beginning to form a face. I was now with it face to face but then I realize who this was.
"Mamma?"
"Rebecca what are doing outside" She said to me. I was them puzzled at her words but as I look at my environment it suddenly changes. I was now in our own garden.
"What am I doing in here mother?" I ask her when I was finally able to gather all my thoughts. 'That can't be just a dream' I said to myself but the way my mother looks at me it's already confirmed that I was under a dream.
"You were sleepwalking Rebecca, the maids only alerted me that's why I was able to find you. What is happening to you now?"
I then tried to find any words to answer her questions but only came with none.
"Come, let's just get inside. It's nearly sunrise" She said to me while taking my hand. Walking inside, my mind was still blank on what just happened to me. I can't quite comprehend how this have slip out of my very senses, this never happened before.
"Rebecca darling tell me, what was your dream about? Is it like the previous ones?" She worriedly ask. I just shake my head in disagreement and she sigh while taking to a nearby chair. I then just put my gaze downwards, ashamed of what is happening to me. This is the first time I let my dream take over my body but I never thought this will happen. Waking up standing and crying in my bedroom was still acceptable to me because this was always brought by stress but sleepwalking? This is beginning to be 'Out of Hand'
"I'm calling Lucas" She with determination in her voice. I then look up to her with wide eyes and stood up.
"Mamma, Lucas doesn't have to know about this, he already gave me a high dose of sleeping pills to help me. I'll just call him to increase it again but please don't tell him it's getting worse" I said while walking towards her. She ignored my pleads and continue to dial him. Defeated I run where my bedroom is and lock my door several minutes later, I hear her knocking.
"GO AWAY!....PLEASE LEAVE ME BE!" I shout at her. I know I don't mean what I've just said to her but I can't neglect the hurt I am feeling at this very moment. I then hear the door lock clicking meaning that she already have the key to my room and opened it.
"I know you hated whenever I always interfere with your problems but Rebecca I can't pretend that I still don't know what's happening to you" She explained but I still didn't look at her. "Rebecca please look at me. Whenever I came to visit here, I'm always praying that you would never have those dreams again but up to now nothing changes. In fact, it getting worse and I'm beginning to be afraid that one day if i still didn't do anything for you, I might lost you forever"
"But I don't want you to suffer and feel what I am feeling right now mamma. it hurts so much when you know that you have no chance of ever recovering and escaping from this. I tried my best, every psychiatrist tried their best, only my best friend was the only one holding up on me and doing his best to help me, but I don't want him to be devastated. I don't want him to be angry at himself when he knows that even him can't help me. I'm tired of being referred to, I don't want to here those words from him, it will crush me"
She then went to my side and hugged me, I then started to whimper while she stroke my hair. "Don't worry, he is not devastated and will come here as soon as possible to help you" She said to me.
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"Since when have you been hiding this to me Rebecca?" Lucas said while standing in front of me. Lucas Slade have always been a special friend to me since we were in the university. We are actually colleagues but as you all know I didn't chose to pursue my chosen profession, which is why he insisted on being my psychiatrist after we graduated.
"Are you even listening to me Rebecca? He asked, cutting me from my reverie. I then look at him and sigh."
"Yes"
"Then why are you not answering?" He said while crossing his arms while his brow furrowed at me.
"Because I thought you are not yet done having your own little tantrums" I said to him while smiling.
"This isn't any tantrums Rebecca, I am worried about you yet it seems like you don't even care at all" He then started to touch the bridge of his nose. "When will you ever listen to anything I say?"
"I'm very sorry Lucas, I'm really listening to you but I just don't want to also put you under pressure and I know from all of your patients, I am the stubborn one"
"At least you are aware of that fact" He said to me as he chuckle. He then walked towards me and pat me on the back. "But let's be serious now, I am your psychiatrist Rebecca. I have to know everything about you, every nightmares that you are experiencing. I know you think that because I am also your friend, you worry about what I will feel but you are my priority. And I think I have to do something about it"
"Don't you dare let those words come out of your mouth Lucas" I said clearly warning him. I know what he was at this moment and I am totally against it.
"But it's the only way and you know that. With me being your psychiatrist, the boundary of doctor/patient relationships don't mean anything at all" He said to me while trying to make me calm about the issue.
"So referring me to another psychiatrist is your best option? But it seems to me that you didn't try anything at all. By this action, you are actually throwing me to the predators. When they found out what I am truly capable of, they will use me Lucas! They will do experimentations to me!" I yelled as I stood up and look at the closest window.
"But we haven't tried anything yet Rebecca, please just be reasonable"
"I am being reasonable Lucas, check the news!" I told him and then he opened the television. A news about a blonde missing girl for about a week now was the one who caught him eyes. She was found inside an old cabin not far from Baltimore, she was cut open like a pig. Left there lifeless, and most of her organs removed. I had enough of this, so I took the remote from him and turn it off. He then looked at me with curiosity in his eyes.
"If you're thinking that if she was the girl in my dream, you guess it right she is. It's becoming out of hand now Lucas, I am seeing murders before it ever happen. I'm like Will Graham, the special agent that Freddie Lounds calls a 'psychopath'. But I am worst, so worst"
"You don't know that Rebecca"
"No!" I snapped at him "You are the one who don't know anything, it is slowly consuming my sanity. Whenever I visit events I always look at people faces, searching for a potential killer. So Lucas, please look me in the eyes and answer me, is that still normal?"
He was hesitant to answer my question. I know that what I just told him was true. Before he told me that this dreams meant something but now I know what they truly mean and it fears me, so hard that now I have to make a fake facade just to hide it. I have this curse since I was just only twelve, the first time it happened was actually at our own house in Italy. I dreamt of a burglar coming in to our home, killing my mom and me. I tried to tell her that this dream seems real to me but she didn't listen, so when the night falls it really happened. The same burglar broke in, I've managed to hide from him but not her. As she was being killed, I watched it all happened. Even my nanny was killed, who shouldn't be there to take care of me if I didn't rant about those dreams. After that event, I tried my very best to hide these nightmare on my own, fearing that if I let it slip out my mouth again more people will suffer.
"Rebecca, you are not a psychopath. What you are experiencing now doesn't make you insane" He said to me but I cut him off.
"Psychopaths are not insane Lucas, and we both know that. They are aware of what they are doing and the consequences of their actions. So please don't try and tell me that I am not on that stage yet. I am having this dreams Lucas!. The more I dream of seeing people die, the more it happens in real life and I don't have any reactions to this, for I fear that it will become worst than it should be!"
"Is this still about how your mother died?"
"Don't!.. " I angrily said while pointing my finger on him "Even! Try!"
"Oh, I see. It is still about her death"
"You don't know anything about her death!" I yelled at him. I was at rage now, first he want me to be recommended to another psychiatrist then now rants about my mother's death.
"Of course I don't know anything!, because you don't trust me well enough to tell me about it" I was then shocked at his words. He was right, I didn't told him about my mother's death not even any one of them.
"I was to help you so hard Rebecca, but you won't let me! I tried everything I could to make you feel protected and open up completely to me but I know now that it will never happen, not now! not ever!" I then walk towards him and saw the sad look in his eyes. He was my best friend. The one who swore to protect me.
"My mother's death is my own burden Lucas, so as those other murders I've been dreaming. But if this was the only way it will make you feel at ease, I will try that psychiatrist to help me" I said to him. He then hugged me and wiped the forming tears in his eyes.
"I understand that you don't want to tell me everything, but let me help you okay. Your stepmother worries about you, I worry about you. We are in fear, that one day we will lose you because if those dreams" He then held me tightly and I started to smile.
"I will let you Lucas"
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