My words hurt me so much
My thoughts are venomous to the touch
Things were suppose to get better
Trying to be a friend to the letter
I failed, but I am trying
I am still dying
The war in my head is brutal
Is the fighting futile?
One side fighting for friendship
Other fighting for relationship
I'm scared...which side is the right one
Which side will be stable when this is done
I fear both....
Neither shows any growth
I'm afraid of choosing the losing side
I have to choose,I have no more places to hide.