~KIANS P.O.V.~
I fill up the tub with water and can't help but smirk. Jc and I are going paint-balling today and I thought it would be fun to wake him up with some ice water. When the bucket is full I take it upstairs. God damn this thing is heavy.
I slowly open his door trying my best not to make any noise. I tiptoe in and see him on his bed ....spooning someone? It's a girl. Holy shit this just got interesting.
Dammit, Jc got lucky, I can't soak him when he's with a girl. I set the bucket on the ground and try to peek to see who the girl is. I freeze when I see the familiar full lips. I look just to make sure and as I suspected, it's Luna.
I slowly creep out of the room to try and figure out what the hell happened last night. I guess they fucked. I don't think jc would waste an opportunity like this and not fuck Luna. But how the hell did this even happen? I feel my pulse start to race. I open up a beer to calm down. I don't feel like overthinking this right now.
LUNAS P.O.V.
I wake up to the sound of jc's light snores. I check my phone to see the time. It's 12:07. I'm not sure what to do right now. Jc's arms are wrapped around me and if I get off the bed, he will surely wake up.
"good morning" says jc with his eyes still closed
"I'm sorry I didn't mean to wake you up" I say
"I'm a light sleeper, it's no big deal" he says rubbing his eyes
"...how do you feel?" he asks carefully
"other than the fact that half of my face looks like I'm morphing into a smurf?" I laugh dryly
"do you need anything?" he asks with concern obvious in his eyes
"no thank you" I smile sincerely
Maybe sarcasm isn't the best option right now.
"I'm going to take a shower, but if you need anything just ask ok?" he says
I smile and nod reassuringly
To be honest, I don't feel ok. I'm so emotionally unstable. I can't figure out if I have feelings for Kian, or maybe even Jc. I am scared to even come close to my boyfriend because he might hit me again. I'm not sure if we're technically still dating but I'm too scared to ask or end things because I know that he could do worse things than just a simple slap.
I feel tears start to form in the brim of my eyes but I quickly blink them away even though I am currently alone.
I go to my room and grab my clothes and makeup. I quickly make my way to the downstairs shower since the other one is taken. No one seems to see me and I sigh in relief. I lock the door behind me and take a look in the mirror. I'm surprised to see that I don't look as shitty as I feel. It's nothing makeup can't handle.
I step in the steaming water and feel my muscles relax. I stay in the shower way longer than necessary but it helps me forget my thoughts.
When I'm done, I change into joggers and a simple tank top. I'm not in the mood to impress anyone. I examine my face in the mirror. A mixture of blues greens and even purple takes up a good amount of the left side of my face. The colors are actually quite beautiful and I admire them for too long, sometimes even lightly touching them to feel the stinging pain.
I take my foundation and apply a thick coat over the bruise. It covers up nicely but I apply powder over my face to blend it in better.
Once I look decent I step out of the steamy bathroom.
My heart leaps when I see Kian for what feels like the first time in forever
"hey!" I smile
"hi" he says back not even looking at me
I can't tell what his tone is. I'm slightly taken aback since he didn't flash me his usual smile. Or even bothered to look my way.
"I haven't seen you in so long" I say pretending that I didn't notice his unusual behavior
"yea" is all he says
I don't say anything back to him.
I open the fridge and see that there are no Arizona's left. I sigh and roll my eyes.
"...where are you going?" asks Kian when he sees me grab my car keys
"to buy some things. need anything?" I ask
He shakes his head and returns to his phone.
He's acting different with me and I'm getting pissed. I was looking forward to seeing him since he's one of the only people I feel close to lately and he's acting distant. I don't want to deal with him right now so I just head out the door.
I'm not going to overthink his mood. Maybe he's just having a bad day.
KIANS P.O.V.
Ok ok, I think I'm starting to like this girl. I've been acting distant because I can't allow myself to develop any feelings. So because of that, I got myself a new girlfriend. She's not really a girlfriend but I guess we're just messing around. Her name is Mandy. I really can't be around luna right now. She has someone. I'm not sure if it's Alex or Jc but I can't step in between that.
I feel guilty as soon as she leaves. I hate acting like this with her. She looked so taken aback by my attitude. I hope I'm doing the right thing
LUNAS P.O.V
I arrive at a Publix and take my time strolling down each aisle. I take whatever looks appetizing which includes mostly unhealthy snacks. I make my way down to the medicine area and skim through the labels.
"Luna?" asks a guy's voice from behind me
My heart stops. I turn around to see a familiar face with a warm smile. My mood instantly relaxes.
"Dr. Gyllenhaal" I smile hoping that I remembered his name right
"it's just jake" he says
"right" I say remembering when he specifically told me to just call him jake
"so I guess I didn't do very good at my job huh?" he laughs
I'm confused at first but then understand when I realize I'm in the medicine isle.
"oh" I laugh "no you did fine, uhh its for something else"
"oh ok" he smiles "...can I help you with anything?"
"I'm ok I'm just a little sore" I say
His eyes widen at my poor choice of words.
"Oh no not like that!" I gasp "uhh I mean I ...got hurt and it's just ...hurts"
I'm not making this any better.
He smiles at my reaction. He takes a step towards me and lightly taps me by my left eye. I flinch as he touches the sensitive skin.
"is it that noticeable?" I frown
"no" he says still inspecting my face
"but I am a doctor" he smiles "it's just slightly swollen. Barely noticeable. No one would notice if they didn't know"
"Thanks" I smile
"did you slam against a skateboarder again?" he asks
I wish.
"something like that" I lie
Jake inspects the medicines and frowns.
"none of these are for pain" he says
"what?" I ask "how?"
He laughs and shrugs
"that's weird" I say
Jakes phone rings and he answers it
"hello?" he asks "Are you fucking serious? Ok. Yea. Bye"
"some idiots decided to take drugs and are now puking everywhere" he smiles
"Wow" I giggle "being a doctor seems great"
"It has it's perks" he smiles at me and I can't help but get a little nervous thinking that he's referring to me
"I have to go now, but uhh I'll surely see you again" he laughs
"Probably" I laugh
"be careful" he smiles and leaves to go pay for his things
"I'll try"
I wonder how old he is.
I check once more to see if there are any pain killers but I still can't find any. What kind of a Publix is this?
I pay for my stuff and leave, stopping to fill my car with gasoline. I arrive at my cabin and notice a small blue bottle in front of the door. I pick it up and notice that it has writing on the top.
"Hope these help :) only take one. They're strong
~the best doctor alive"
I smile to myself and bring the pills and the rest of my things inside.
"Hey" says Nyla "How's it going?"
"good" I smile
"The hot doctor left those for you incase you were wondering" she says
"I wasn't" I laugh
"oh and Alex has been stopping by like every 30 minutes asking about you" she says
My heart stops at the mention of his name.
"what did you tell him?" I ask
"that you were out somewhere" she answers
"if he comes by again could you please tell him I'm not here?" I ask
"uhh sure" she answers "everything ok?"
"mhm" I nod
My mood doesn't feel the same now that I'm thinking about Alex again. I feel anxiety take over me as thoughts swirl over my head. I take a deep breath.
"uhh where's Kian?" I ask
I need to talk to him. I can't lose his friendship.
"backyard I think" she says
"ok"
I step out of the house and walk around it. I finally see Kian sitting down with his back against the wall. The object between his fingers intrigues me.
"You smoke?" I ask
"It calms me down"
I sit next to him and extend my legs in front of me.
"Can I have one?" I ask
He looks at me confused. I've never smoked before and I know that it's horrible for you but I would do anything to relive the anxiety I am feeling right now.
He hands me a cigarette and lights it for me. I observe the way he holds it between his fingers and try to imitate him.
"you smoke?" he asks
"I guess I do now" I shrug
I inhale the cigarette and feel my lungs fill up with pollution. The scent is rewarding and familiar. Both of my parents smoke so I guess it has just become the normal in my household. I would usually scold them for destroying their bodies but right now I guess I can relate.
"so what's stressing you out?" I ask awkwardly
He looks at me for a second and then looks away.
"it's no big deal" he says a bit harshly
"...I'll tell you if you tell me" I say quietly
He looks at me again. "ok" he says and exhales the smoke "you go first"
"...well uhh" I try to plan the words in my head carefully making sure not to tell him too much "Alex and I broke up"
"so you decide to risk cancer?" he scoffs "I don't think that was all that happened. You're not that stupid"
"I guess I am" I say "what about you?"
he shrugs his shoulder
"you agreed to tell me if I told you" I say
"hold on so let me get this straight" he says "your boyfriend breaks up with you, so you sleep around to make yourself feel better. And then you think you're a big girl so you start to smoke"
The words hurt me because they are partially right.
"no"
"then what the hell is going on? I mean it's not that big of a-"
"shut the fuck up and let me explain" I interrupt
"oh so now you're cursing too? what the hell is going on wit-"
"he hit me" I finally say
His annoyed expression changes to sadness making me regret telling him.
"what?" he says his voice barely noticeable
"I went over to Alex's house. He wanted to have sex and I didn't. So he hit me. He actually hit me pretty fucking hard so it wouldn't hurt to show me a bit of pity." I say blinking away the tears again "I was scared and Jc was the only person that was home and the only comforting thing I had at the moment. So I stayed the night in his room. Sue me. It's not like we had sex or anything"
Kians eyes are watery and on the edge of overflowing. He doesn't say anything. I don't really expect him to. I would have been bothered if I thought he slept with one of my friends so I don't blame him for acting that way.
"I'm so sorry" he says quietly
"It's ok" I say taking a deep breath
"Luna I'm so fucking sorry" he says again
I smile
"...are you ok?" he asks
I nod slowly. I'm not sure myself if I'm okay, but I don't want to put him in a worse mood so I lie for Kian.
I throw away my cigarette once I feel calmer. I take Kians out of his hands and throw his away too.
"we don't need this" I smile softly
He smiles back at me and nods.
"And don't be gone for so long all the time" I chuckle "I missed you"
"I won't" he says "I promise"
KIANS P.O.V.
I fucked up.