i wanted to thank all my fans for all the support i hope you like this chapter as much as you liked the last
this chapter this dedicated to Rolia
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Hope's point of view:-
i opened my eyes and i saw Justin there sleeping on the chair beside my bed holding my hand i don't remember much of what happened yesterday i just remember Justin taking me to my family and i talked to them and then i closed my eyes and slowly falling asleep and then nothing.
i saw Justin still sleeping in the chair which looked very uncomfortable.
Me:- Justin wake up
Justin:- what Hope are you ok??
Me:- am fine what happened
Justin's point of view
me:- you....you got sick yesterday Hope if i didn't hear you scream and i touched your cheeks i would have never known you were having a fever if i didn't call the doctor you would have never survived you lied to me you said you were ok you never told me you were anorexic i told you, you could trust me but i guess you didn't did you know what it would have done to me if something bad happened to you did you ever think of that i don't think so, i called the school telling them you weren't going today and your going to the therapist later.
i know i was being hursh on her but she really did hurt me and i don't know what came to me i liked her i didn't want to scream at her i just don;t know anymore
Hope:- i........i didn't
Me:- save it i don't want to hear it you have done enough
i don't know what just came to me why didn't i let her explain i should have let her i mean it was mean from me i know i swear i do i just
i left the room closing the door really hard i didn't want to stay in the house anymore knowing if i did then bad things would happen and i would hurt her even more
i took my car keys and i left the house driving to no where
Hope's point of view:-
i don't know what's going on i mean i didn't mean to hurt him i did stop being anorexic after he adopted me something about him made me want to stop wanted me to keep living cause i cared for him a lot,but i know when am not wanted and right now am so not wanted
i don't know what got to me but i took my pack bag and i put some cloths in them and i wore a new outfit and i wrote in a paper
*I WAS NEVER ANOREXIC WELL NOT IN THIS HOUSE YOU GAVE ME A REASON TO LIVE AND I WOULD NEVER HURT YOU IF YOU WOULD HAVE JUST LET ME EXPLAIN, BUT I KNOW WHEN AM NOT WANTED SO
GOODBYE JUSTIN THANKS FOR ADOPTING ME TO YOUR LOVELY HOME AND MAKE ME FEEL LIKE I HAD A SECOND FAMILY THANK YOU JUSTIN FOR EVERYTHING I WILL MAKE SURE YOU WON'T SEE ME AGAIN HOPE ANGEL JOHNSON *
i wiped the tears that started to form in my eyes i took the paper and put it on the kitchen bar so it would be visible and i saw a paper that had my name on it i looked at the paper and it had my information and an address and i recognizad that it was mine i took the paper with me and i took one last look at the house and i walked away
i can tell you it hurts to leave it really did but i had to he didn't want me and i can't get back to the orphanage i just can't i started to walk faster i just wanted to get there fast
(one hour later)
am so tired but i have to this am almost there i think i can see it there that big house
and soon as i saw it all the memories came back i remembered the police coming to the house telling me the news i remembered every detail and the pain started hurting my heart
me:- but i have to stay strong i can do this am strong i can do this Hope you can do this
i walked finding the door unlocked i came inside and i close the door it was black dark dirty but it was home my home i put my bag beside the door and i walked to the bathroom i washed my face looking into the dusty mirror i spalshed some water on it so i could look at myself in the mirror
i felt my phone buzz and i took it out my pocket i found 9 messages from Harry
*text message from harry*
are you ok?
where are you?
is everything ok?
why aren't you in school?
Hope please answer i have looked for you every where?
Hope what's going on did i do anything where are you?
am going to stop messaging you but please call me when you see this message please
Hope am sorry if i did anything just please answer
please call me Hope please
i felt bad remembering that i was suppose to meet him yesterday so i decided to call him
Harry:- Hope are you ok i have been sick worried where are you
Me:- am ok Harry am sorry for not calling you yesterday a lot has happened and i just a lot of stuff got complicated
Harry:- Hope are you sure your ok it sounds like you have been crying
Me:- am fine Harry i really am
Harry:- where are you
i looked around having a smiled a bit
Me:- am finally home Harry since a long time
Harry:- where is that i will come meet you there
i thought about it and i guess i needed him i gave him my address and told him to come after and hour and a half we hung up and i looked at the mess i took a deep breath and i started to open the windows and i started to slowly clean i went under the stairs to find the brooms and i started to clean everywhere
when it was the time to clean upstairs i couldn't just go up so i kept cleaning downstairs cleanign the windows and the door i went to the kitchen to see if i could turn the water on but of course i couldn't and that's when i heard the knock my heart fell did they find me al ready
i went to the window in the living room and saw who was at the door and it was Harry and my heart slowly went to beating slowl, i went and i opened the door.
Harry:- hey
Me:- hi
Harry:- can i come in
i steped aside for him to come on in pointing at the living room he took a seat
Harry:- so mmm who's house is this
Me:- my house
it felt good to say that for the first time it felt real
Harry:- but i thought you lived with Justin
Me:- past tense stuff happened and we got into a fight and he left and i did to but he doesn't know am here so please don't tell anyone
Harry:- did you clean the house?
Me:- ya why?
Harry:- cause i could see it i mean the house has been abandoned for a long time and before you ask i live right across the street
Me:- oh
Harry:- well do you need any help i mean i would love to please
Me:- i don't want you to go all tired
Harry:- no it's fine like i said i would love to
Me:- really?
Harry:- ya come one lets get starting what do you want to do first?
Me:- well i was trying to get the water to work i just don't know how everything works the same with the electricity
Harry:- well see you need help come on lets get starting
and as we stood and i lead him to the kitchen he held my hand i looked back
Harry:- you know am here for you ok anything you want i will be here
Me:- thank you for telling me
we looked under the sink and he asked for some tools and i gave it to him and just like that the water started to work, we next went to the basement and he same thing happened and he fixed the electricty.
Me:- thank you Harry
Harry:- hey don't thank me ok, mmm Hope do you have some water?
i felt really embarrased i didn't have any money to do buy anything
Me:- mmm well you see i don't have money to buy it i didn't take any money with me am really sorry
Harry:- hey it's fine you don't really have to be sorry
he took out his phone and texted someone
Harry:- anyways what to do next?
Me:- well i cleaned downstairs so i guess upstairs is left
Harry:- ok lets start
he pulled my hand and i just pulled it back i didn't want to go up stairs (am sure you will understand why)
Harry:- what's wrong??
Me:- i don't know am just
Harry pulled me into a hug a tight on i may add
Harry:- everything will be alright ok i won't let anything bad happen to you i promise
i nodded and i held his hand again and we started to walk upstairs i saw my room at the end and i suggested to started there and he agreed he opened the window and you can breath the fresh air
Harry:- will take step by the time ok
i nodded and i looked at my room everything was in place i went to the bed and started to remove the sheets i put the dirty ones on the floor and i got fresh ones from the closet Harry helped me am glad he came by.
i started to clean the mirrors and the window and remove the dust from everything else
Me:- am all done here lets go to under room
Harry:- are you sure
Me:- am sure i got you with me right?
Harry:- always
i went to my parnets room which was across my room i slowly opened the door and Harry caught my hand to let me know that his here
i opened the windows and i saw everything took it in and i went to there closet and took out clean sheets i removed the old ones and put the new ones on i dusted everything and i went to the master bathroom and i just looked at the products it looked like they never left everything was upside down i found my mum's hair brush and i held it up to my heart i missed them a lot
i did the same with Mia's room but when i got to Adam's room that's when it got harder you see i had a really strong relationship with him unlike any brothers sisters out there.
i took a deep breath and and i cleaned the the sheets and dusted everything until i got close to a letter with my name on it 'Angel' it fell from his desk
*IF YOU EVER FIND THIS ANGEL THEN IT MEANS AM GONE FROM THIS WORLD I LOVE YOU ANGEL AND I WILL BE WATCHING OVER YOU WE ALL WILL WE ALL LOVE YOU ANGEL DON'T EVER BE SAD BECAUSE THAT WILL HURT US I KNOW GREAT THINGS WILL HAPPEN IN YOUR FUTURE SO KEEP HOLDING ON LITTLE SIS KNOW THAT I ALWAYS BELIEVED IN YOU I WILL BE WITH YOU EVERY STEP OF THE WAY ANGEL TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF I LOVE YOU ANGEL ALWAYS HAVE ALWAYS DO I HAVE OTHER LETTERS HID IN MY ROOM AND ALL AROUND THE HOUSE AND I LEFT SOME MONEY AGAIN ALL AROUND THE HOUSE THE FIRST ONE I WILL TELL YOU ABOUT HIS HID UNDER MY CHAIR DESK I LOVE YOU*
that's when i just couldn't hold it in and i the tears started to fall Harry hugged me and as my fair is in his chest i could feel his heart beat which kinda got me to come down
Me:- am sorry
Harry:- hey don't be sorry ok am gonna stay by your side
he hugged me once more and that's when he kissed me and you can see the sparkes fly all around the room i pulled back feeling amazied
and that's when i heard the door knock omg Justin found me
Me:- please Harry he can't find please just tell him am not here
Harry:- who are you talking about?
Me:- Justin
Harry:- relax it's my friend Zyan i asked him for some stuff to bring
we went down stairs and he opened the door i have to say Zyan was really cute but not as cute as Harry.
Zyan:- hi there am Zyan
Me:- am Hope
Zyan:- nice to finally meet you
i smiled when i saw 3 other guys coming behind him
Harry:- Hope these are Niall, Louis and Liam
Me:- it's very nice to meet you
they had a lot of bags in there hands
Me:- what's all this
i pointed at the bags they had
Harry:- well i told you am taking care of you right and this is part of taking care
he stepped aside and let the guys in pointing at the kitchen they all went in
Me:- Harry you really didn't have to
Harry:- but i wanted to come on
Me:- sure let me just take a quick shower and getting into something new and i will be back
Harry:- ok
i went to take a quick shower and that's when i saw the old shampoo i used to use when i was 13 i used it and smelled like strawberry when i was done i changed into a skirt and a t-shirt and some flip flops
and i went downstairs seeing that the guys were placing everything in place cleaning all the dishes and i didn't really expect that.....
Justin's point of view:-
i drove for almost an hour to clear my mind and that's when i thought that i should go back to say sorry to Hope i got home and i opened the door i went to the kitchen bar to take a water bottle that's when i saw a paper with my name on it
*I WAS NEVER ANOREXIC WELL NOT IN THIS HOUSE YOU GAVE ME A REASON TO LIVE AND I WOULD NEVER HURT YOU IF YOU WOULD HAVE JUST LET ME EXPLAIN, BUT I KNOW WHEN AM NOT WANTED SO
GOODBYE JUSTIN THANKS FOR ADOPTING ME TO YOUR LOVELY HOME AND MAKE ME FEEL LIKE I HAD A SECOND FAMILY THANK YOU JUSTIN FOR EVERYTHING I WILL MAKE SURE YOU WON'T SEE ME AGAIN HOPE ANGEL JOHNSON*
as soon as i finished reading it i had tears coming i went to her room to find it empty i looked in every room on house and i just couldn't find her i called Fredo to come and think with me where would she go.
(15 min later)
Fredo knocked on the door
Fredo:-what have you done how could you
Justin:- i didn't mean to hurt her i was just angry
Fredo:- oh ya i was just angry well am angry now
and that's when i felt a hit to my face and i guess i deserved it
Fredo:- how could Justin after all she has been though you would just hurt like that god knows where she is now am sure you never left her money so now she is out there in the cold without any money
me:- am gonna go out and find
Fredo:- no i think you have done enough stay away from here
that's when the real pain started and it's not cause of my face it cause of my heart i really did hurt her this time but even though of what Fredo said am still gonna go out and find her
(1 hour later)
i had this idea in my mind maybe she went home i mean i have looked every where and i couldn't find the paper i called Scooter hopefully he has a copy of the papers and he did i started to drive to her house hoping i would find her there
Hope's point of view
Me;- what are you guys doing
Niall:- well we decided we need to help you out so we started cleaning the dishes you know so later we can all eat like a family
Harry give Niall a look and Niall knew what he did
Niall:- sorry hope i didn't mean to
Me;- no it's ok i think am gonna love this family
they all looked at me with a smile on there face and that's when i walked to them and i started to help them out we cleaned the frige and started to store food in them we also took out all the old food in the coboards and cleaned inside them and stuffed more food
all the dishes were clean so we only had to clean the place they were in and we did and that's when the kitchen looked sparkly clean
Harry:- how about we rest for a min and then we can start cleaning the outside what do you guys say?
Me:- you don't really have to i clean it tomorrow it's fine you guys have done enough for me
Louis:- why rest am not tired each 2 of us takes a side of the house from outside and cleaned when ever your done you go help the other i will fix the stalilte and you Liam and Zyan clean the pool and Harry and you Hope clean the front graden and Niall well how about you start to paint the fench and when we are all done we can paint the house tomorrow we can paint the inside ok deal?
before we all agreed the door knocked and i went to open it and there was Justin i just stood there i couldn't move i didn't expact to find him here
Justin:- hi
i still didn't answer that's when i heard Harry call my name and came beside me
Harry:- Hope are you ok you seemed shocked how's at the door
and that's when he saw Justin
Me:- hi
Justin:- can i talk to you
Me:- ok
i stepped aside letting him in
Me:- you guys can you give us a second please
they all nodded and left except for Harry he called my name
Harry:- Hope can i talk to you for 5 min
Me:- sure
I walked to him
Harry:- are you sure?
Me:- am sure i mean i can't avoid him forever you start helping the others i will be out in a min ok?
Harry:- ok if you need me just call me and i will be right here ok?
Me:- ok
he left from the front door as i came sat beside Justin
Justin:- listen Angel
Me:- don't call me that
Justin:- Hope am really truly sorry i didn't mean to shout at you i really didn't i just i was angry and am sorry because i didn't give you the time to explain i really hope you would forgive me?
Me:- you know you really hurted me
Justin:- i know am sorry i..
i cut him off
Me:- but your my family so no matter how mad at you i will always forgive you
and that's when he hugged me
Justin:- i really am sorry
Me:- i know you are
Justin:- so can we go back home
Me:- no Jay am staying here Harry and his friends are helping me get it back in shape and am gonna live her and it's not that am mad at you or anything it's just i need to be here it's my home after all
it took him few min to process what i just said
Justin:- well at least can i help you please
Me:- sure if you want to
Justin:- of couse i want to, and i think you should call Fredo i called him when i first saw the letter and we had a fight and he ended up hitting me
Me:- are you ok?
Justin:- ya am fine just call him please
Me:- of course
Justin removed his jacket and he went to the back where everyone was helping out and meanwhile i called Fredo and told him to come over
(10 min later)
Fredo:- Hope are you ok?
Me:- am fine really
we sat on the door step
Me:- am sorry i left like that i just thought Justin didn't want to see me so i came here a friend of mine came over he was worried so he came over and i was cleaning the house to get it in shape and he ended up calling his friends to help to and Justin came he said sorry for hurting me but just know Fredo Justin is my guardin so i can never be mad at him and i think you guys should make up ok
he nodded
Me:- come on lets go meet the others am sure there gonna need my hand to help
Fredo:- can i help to
Me:- sure only if you want to
Fredo:- i would love to
we went to the back seeing everyone doing what we agreed on i called Justin's name and i left him with Fredo and went to join Harry he was painting the wall and i could hear Justin and Fredo making up and i knew they would i mean there best friends
Fredo went to help with the pool and Justin went to help with the front garden
(3 hours later)
we all sat on the swimming chairs i shared my seat with Harry and everyone sat one everything looks perfect
Me:- i just want to say thanks everyone for being the best 2nd family anyone could ask for.
everyone started to shout cute stuff and that's when we had a group hug me being pressed at the middle
Justin:- how about we all get cleaned up and meet out to and eat what do you all say?
Me:- well about cleaning up am ok with but eating out am not how about this we all get cleaned up and i make dinner just like a family what do you say i mean am sure you haven't eatten home made food in a long time
they all agreed and that's when i went upstairs to get cleaned up and Harry stayed with me Justin and Fredo went to there houses to also get cleaned up and the boys went they agreed with Harry that the first to finish comes her to watch me and so he could go get cleaned up as well when i was done i wore gray skinny jeans and white tank top and black sandals, fixed my hair into a ponytail.
when i got down stair i saw Niall sitting on the couch texting in his iphone.
Me:- so Niall do you cook?
Niall:- of course i cook i mean i love food
Me:- me to so do you want to help?
Niall:- i thought you would never gonna ask lets go
we started cooking making some chicken and some pasta and i quickly made a salad
that's when the door opened and i saw him....
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sorry it's not that long and sorry took time i spent 3 hours writing i had to make sure it's perfect that's why i had to rewrite it over and over again
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