It's been about a couple of weeks since I had to go to the hospital and my depression's gotten worse. The guys came over practically everyday to cheer me up, and I thank them for that but it wasn't working. I haven't eaten right or cleaned myself up, I've been laying in bed crying and not being able to sleep, I was a wreck. And today Zak was coming over to take me somewhere and I haven't even thought about getting up.
"Candy?" I heard my name being called from the living room
That can't be Zak already, he said 2 I thought
I looked at the clock and it read 2:00pm
Guess it's already 2 I thought
"Candy how come you're not ready yet?"
I looked over to my door and there stood Zak
"I don't feel like going anywhere" I mumbled and put my face in the pillow
Zak came over to me, sat down next to me and said
"Candy, honey, you don't really have an option at this point. I have re-enforcements on stand-by"
"So?"
"Candy please don't make me use force"
"Where are you taking me a freaking rehab center?...I get it, you want to get rid of me just like I had to get rid of-"
"CANDY! Stop..." he said and pulled me into a tight hug
I started sobbing into Zak's chest. I also heard alot of footsteps coming to my room
"What's going on?"
"Nothing, everything's fine Billy"
I looked up and saw Nick, Aaron, and Billy. They has sad smiles on their face
"If you're not getting rid of me then where are you taking me?"
"To a doctor so he can help you...We hate seeing you lie this Candy, expecially me" Zak said wiping a tear from my cheek
I got up slowly
"We'll be downstairs" Zak said getting up
They left to give me some privacy to get changed. I brushed by extremely knotted up hair and then put on some gray sweatpants, a long black t-shirt, and some black flip-flops. I then headed to my living room
"There's our fabulous Candy!" Aaron said
"You look good Candy..." Billy said
"Even if it's a t-shirt and sweatpants" Nick said
I tried smiling but I couldn't do it
"Thanks guys" I mumbled
"Ready Candy?" Zak asked
"Not really"
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Me and Zak arrived at the doctors office like in 15 minutes. I just sat there and stared at the floor and Zak was rubbing my back soothingly. The door opened
"Ms. Wilson?"
Zak got up and took my hand to help me up. We were led to an examination room
"The doctor will be with you shortly"
"Thank you" Zak said
I sat on the exam table and Zak took a seat on the doctors stool.
"So Ms. Wilson..." he started in a 'doctor' voice
I just looked at him with no emotion
"You don't have to say it Candy... I know I would suck as a doctor"
"You never know until you try"
we looked over at where that voice came from and saw a female doctor standing at the door with a smile.
"My names Dr. Saunders and you must be..." she looked at her folder, "Candice Wilson?"
I just nodded. She then closed the door and Zak got off the stool and sat in a chair next to me
"So tell me Candice, what brings you in here today?" She asked sitting on the stool
I looked over at Zak
"Candy, honey...You've got to tell her I'm not your body..." Zak said looking at me and then to Dr. Saunders, "This is the first actual time she's been out of bed for the past couple of weeks"
Dr. Saunders wrote that down in the folder and looked at some papers and her expression saddend
"I see..." she then looked back up and towards me, "Candice can you tell me what your feeling?"
I finally opened my mouth to speak
"I just want to stay in bed and forget about the world...I don't want to do anything, that includes eating...And I feel like I'm not even here, I feel like I'm a zombie or something"
Dr. Saunders nodded and wrote something down in the file and started writing on the perscription pad
"It sounds like you're headed towards a major depression mode, which I understand..." she then ripped off the piece of paper and handed it to me, "I'm going to perscribe you to an anti-depressant called Cymbalta...So you should bounce back to your normal self in a couple of days...Do you two have any questions?"
I shook my head and Zak said
"I think we're good"
"Alright, and if you need me for anything else just contact me"
"Thank you Dr. Saunders" Zak said politely
She smiled and left the room.
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We finally got back to my place after we went to the pharmacy and picked up the Cymbalta. Zak was reading the instructions
"You're suppose to take only one in a 24 hour period"
He then handed me the bottle and I opened it while he got me a glass of water. I took the pill and layed on the couch
"Zak?"
"Hmm?" he asked rubbing my feet
"Thank you for helping me out"
"Candy, I'd do anything for you...You don't need to thank me"
I started dosing off and I felt Zak put a blanket on me and kiss my forehead. After that I don't know what happend.
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It's been about a week since the doctor visit and I felt like my old self again. And there's only a week left the wedding, I was so excited.
"Are you excited for your wedding or are you nervous?" Morgan asked as she handed me a cup of coffee and sat down next to me
"I'm excited but I'm alittle nervous"
"There's nothing to be nervous about sis, Zak loves you...He wouldn't leave you hanging"
"Yeah, you're right"
"So what are you doing tonight?"
"I was going to out out with the guys"
"You still need to have your bacholorette party"
"We can have that a couple of days before the wedding...me and Zak discussed that"
"Oh, I'll start planning right now"
"Morgan don't make it big...it's going to be a little party...Let me say it again incase you missed it little"
"Alright, I've got it"
I looked at my phone '7:46pm'
"I've got to get going so I can be ready when Zak picks me up"
"Ok, I'll see you later" She said kissing my cheek
I then left her house and went home. When I got home I got ready and once 8 O'clock hit Zak was at my door
"Ready?" he asked as soon as I opened the door
"Yep"
We piled into his car and headed off to some club.
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About 45 minutes later we arrived at the strip and finally found a parking spot.
"It's packed tonight, more that it usually is" I said holding Zak's hand
"I know...probably a whole bunch of tourists and birthdays"
We sat on the bench outside of the club waiting for Aaron and Nick
"You did tell them the time and place right?"
"Yeah, they should be here soon"
We waited for 15 minutes and they finally showed up.
"Hey guys" Nick said
"Hey Nick...Hey Aaron" I said hugging them
"Ready to party? It'll be your last one as a non-married couple" Aaron said
"I'm ready" I said
We all entered the building and we saw Billy Djing
"I didn't know he was doing this tonight" I said loudly
"We did" Zak said
"That means the whole crews here huh?"
"Exactly" Nick and Aaron said
We found a booth and Zak got our drinks and passed them out. The music died down and Billy picked up the microphone
"Everybody having a good time?"
The crowd went nuts
"I would like to inform you all that my buddies Zak and Candy, which are right over there, they are getting married next week...So let's give them some applause"
The crowd went nuts again with hollars, whistles, and claps. Billy started playing the music loud again. Me and Zak got up and danced to a few songs, then me and Nick, and last but not least me and Aaron. When me and Aaron were done dancing we sat down at the booth.
"You look like your wore out Candy" Zak said
"I am and I'm thirsty"
"I'll go get you something" he said and went to the bar
"I take it your having fun?" Nick asked
"Fun? I'm having a blast...I don't remember the last time that I've had so much fun"
"I bet I know" Aaron said smirking
"Aaron, that's not what I mean" I said smacking him playfully
he just laughed. About 5 minutes past and Zak still didn't come back so I got up
"Where ya goin' Candy?" Nick asked
"To find Zak, he should've been back by now"
I walked over to the bar and saw a line. I scanned through the line but didn't see him so I went to the other side of the bar and there was a shorter line and my breath caught in my throat
Is he really... I thought
There he was lip locked with his ex, Christine, and he had a few drinks in his hand. My eyes started to water from hurt and rage. The music died down again and I yelled
"ZAK WHAT HELL ARE YOU DOING?!"
That's when the whole place went completely silent. They broke apart and Christine smirked at me and Zak started towards me but I backed away and went outside. A few seconds later Zak was next to me outside
"Candy, It's not what it looked like"
"Really? Could've fooled me"
"Will you let me explain?"
"Explain what? That you got caught by your fiance with your ex?"
"Candy it's not like that" he said, he was starting to get irritated
"You know for someone that says that there in love with me, you're sure not showing it now"
"CANDY! WILL YOU LET ME FU**ING TALK FOR A SECOND?"
"Why would I want to here your excuses?"
he then lost it
"You know what Candy, think what you want to think, maybe I wouldn't be drinking so much if you wouldn't have miscarried, it's your fault!"
It felt like someone just stabbed me in my heart and was twisting the blade
"ZAK!" Nick and Aaron yelled angerly
"Why are you talking to her that way? It's NOT her fault" Nick asked crossing his arms and glaring at Zak
"You think it's my fault?" I said with a shaky voice and my eyes burning
"Candy I-"
"No Zak..." I then went to him
"Candy -"
"I don't want to hear it..." I grabbed the ring off my finger and shoved it in Zak's chest, "It's obvious that you don't love me and you still love Christine, so give her that and you two can live happily ever after"
"But Candy-"
"It's Candice to you, you've lost that right"
A cab pulled up
"Bye Aaron and Nick, I'll see you guys later" I got into the cab, told him the directions to my house and we took off.
When I got home I took the spare key from the flower pot, locked all windows and doors, disconnected the house phone, and shut off my cell phone. I knew that Zak would be here at any moment and I didn't want to see or him him. I went upstairs, kicked off my shoes and fell on the bed. As soon as I hit the bed headlights shined in my window and pretty soon I heard a knock on the front door
Keep knocking, I'm not answering I thought
"Candy please open the door" I heard him say desperately
That made my heartache but I stayed put. After 15 minutes of him beging he finally left and I cried uncontrolably until I fell asleep.