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APOV
"Don't say all those things! If they were true then you would love me, but you don't! Why don't you love me Christian!?" I shout.
I look up at him, anger, rejection and sadness emanating off me.
He pales and his eyes widen.
"I know what your mother did to you! I know that she's the reason that you don't think that you're worthy, but look at me! I was abused physically, verbally and sexually yet I can still love people! I can take in the love they give me! So why can't you!?" At this point I'm yelling.
Christian looks shocked at my outburst. His mouth keeps opening and closing.
This is probably the second time in his life that someone shouted at the intimidating, hotshot Christian Grey.
The first time was also by me after he hit me with that piece of shit you call a belt.
But I'm only telling him the truth.
Is it really so hard to love someone?
Or is it just hard to love me? Am I the problem?
"Ana...no" He's lost for words but he's also panicking.
"I...I... It's just... I don't know..." He looks down at his hands and I think that I see tears in his eyes. Is he about to cry?
"What don't you know Christian? Am I the problem? Do you love someone else? If you do then please just tell me! Because I love you Christian, and if you don't love me then look me in the eye and just say it and put me out of my misery." I'm crying again. He looks up at me, pain etched on his handsome face.
He takes my hands into his, looks me in the eyes and a tear flows down his face.
It pains me to see him like this. The man I love whom is strong, independent and self contained crying.
"My family always tell me that they love me, I just don't believe them. If my own mother didn't love me then how can strangers? I also never said this to anyone but...Ana...I love you, please come back to me. Seeing you like this...so hurt, I just want to take care of you. Hearing what you told me about your childhood is painful and it makes me angry, the guy that did this to you will pay. But please come back to me, I will never hit you again, the thought of anyone else having you is like a knife twisting in my dark soul."
My mouth drops open.
He loves me?
He loves me.
Oh my fucking world, Christian Grey loves me!
What an emotional chapter, I was literally crying while writing this.
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~ DayDreaming_Girl