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Chapter 11:
Jake's P.O.V
I left Felix after we were caught by that group of girls; it reminded me I that I had things to do. I quickly ran into one of the girls that were watching Felix and I in the classroom before, I think her name was Havana? I don't know— I quickly grabbed her arm and pulled her to me, causing her to gasp,
"What the hell do you think you're doing?" She growled, mixed between anger and confusion. Don't worry, I'd act like that if someone treated me like this too. I sighed and let go of her,
"Sorry, it is Havana isn't it?" The girl growled and crossed her arms over her chest and replied with an icy voice,
"It's Hannah, not Havana. Now, what the hell do you want?" I sighed and looked around,
"I need you to look after Felix, I have some things to do." The girl smiled and nodded, her attitude doing a complete one-eighty.
"Sure." My eyes widened and I gasped. I actually didn't think it would be this easy to get someone one Felix's side.
"Are you for real?" Hannah nodded at me before turning and began walking away, but I stopped her. I wanted more secure answers, I couldn't simply trust her.
"Why are you helping me?" The girl— Hannah smiled again,
"Because I knew in your heart that you aren't a bad guy and you and Felix together are cute." I blushed and covered my face with my hands as the girl turned around and walked away to class. Um— that was both weird and awesome as all hell, but now I have things I need to get done. I groaned throwing my head back, turning around and running down the hall to the front office. The person at the desk looked at me oddly before getting up and walking over to me.
"What can I do you for you, young man?" I sighed and handed a note over. I so hope she falls for this. If I can get another obstacle out of the way, my life will be a million times easier, and this girl is the worst of the worst.
"Can you please call Ellen O'Donnell to here? I need to talk to her, and I am not able to talk to her at any time other than this." The woman frowned and her odd look at me growing.
"What is this for? Is she your girlfriend?" I gagged and bent over actually trying not to vomit. Of course, I seem to like her boyfriend. I stood back up the feeling of vomiting gone for now,
"Oh fuck no! That chick is fucking crazy and is crazy in love with my boyfriend." The woman gasped and smiled at me, holding up a finger as she walked over to the microphone that sets off the PA system.
"Can Ellen O'Donnell please come to the front office, Ellen O'Donnell to the front office?" the woman smiled at me and walked back over to me,
"So you're the boy that everyone is talking about. Jake Riles the boy in love with Felix Ferne but used to bully him. I know who you are now; I can't believe I didn't get that before? By gosh am I a bit stupid, I can't believe I couldn't remember who you were. Sorry, I'm Meg; I used to help Felix when you used to beat him up. I used to be a bit of a medic here." I nodded taking it in.
"Yeah well, I don't bully people anymore. I was useless and mean three months ago, but Felix changed that." Meg nodded and was about to talk again when Ellen walked into the front office. I sighed and turned to face her, the smile she had on her face faded and turned into a scowl as she looked at me,
"What the fuck are you doing here?" I sighed and walked over to her, the urge to slap her growing. Now was not the time to fight her physically, we both know I'll win that one. No, this, right here right now. Was a battle of the wits, and I don't have any plans on backing down from this girl anytime soon!
"Riles seriously don't be a dick and tell me why you pulled me from class?!" Ellen's voice rose as she asked her question and I frowned growling,
"I want you to leave Felix alone. If you don't, I will call the cops on you." Ellen gasped at me as if I accused her of trashing the school and leaving it in such a mess, the cops would have to deal with it.
"Well, I'll call the cops on you if you don't leave Felix alone." I scoffed, what the hell does this chick think she is?
"On what terms?" I asked and this caused Ellen to smirk. Why does she think she had the upper hand?
"Stalking and assault, I'll tell the cops how you followed us home every day and you would stand outside of Felix's house, and before we arrived at school the next day, you would beat him." I rolled my eyes. This was in the past, we know now that Felix would vouch for me, he always will since I will always be by his side.
"Then what sort of friend would that make you for ditching him?" Ellen frowned and growled. The remark hitting her dead centre.
"Just leave me and Felix alone. I had him first, you don't know how to care for him!" I scoffed. I am wasting every second of my life think about him, yet I can't come to think that it's an actual waste because those thoughts are about Felix.
"Please, I get the feeling I know about the same amount about him as you do," Ellen smirked. She kept on thinking she has a one up on me, but she doesn't. I refuse to believe that she will.
"Do you know about his scars?" I nodded and Ellen frowned. I know all too well about those scars since I helped to create a couple of them, although I shouldn't be proud of that.
"You're going to have to do better than that," Ellen growled again and smirked,
"His eating," I raised an eyebrow,
"I think you mean lack of it." Ellen makes this annoyed, sad, pissed off face and stormed out of the room. Meg behind me laughed at Ellen's face as I stood there slouched with a smug grin on my face. Finally, now Felix and I can be together in peace.
"That was bloody awesome kid! How did you know that would work?" I shrugged turning to face Meg.
"I just guesstimated," As the word guesstimated left my mouth, Meg looked at me weirded out.
"'Guesstamated'?" I nodded and smiled,
"But of course." Meg rolled her eyes and turned to the bench in front of her, and began writing something. Oh god, I so hope it's not her number— that would just be awkward.
"You're going to need this if you don't want a detention." I furrowed my brows and walked over to the bench to see a piece of paper being held out to me,
"It's a late pass. Have a good day Jake." I smiled surprisingly, taking the paper from her hand and walking out of the front office happily. I guess everything is finally looking up of Felix and I. We can finally be together without having to worry about Ellen. I guess now we just have to worry about everyone else in this bloody town.
As I arrived at the classroom, I saw the girl from this morning sitting next to Felix. They were laughing together; well I guess everyone was having their own conversations since Bates wasn't in the room. I shrugged and walked in, causing the whole room to go quiet and turn to face me. I sighed and didn't care since they more than likely thought I was Bates, but when they all turned to Hannah and Felix I frowned. They all thought I was going to get pissed off. I frowned and walked over to the pair who was smiling. Felix's smile was bigger than Hannah's because I get the feeling if Hannah were to smile any bigger her glasses would fall off her face.
"Hey Jake, Ellen fucked off part way through class and hasn't come back. She was a bit of a pest when we got here and the class started, but after she had to go to the office she didn't return we were fine. Then Bates left and you walked in pretty much right after, so no one fucked with us after that." I shrugged a smile on my face. Hannah then got up out of her seat and moved into the open one in front of it.
"What are you moving for?" Hannah sighed and rolled her eyes,
"Men— I'm letting you sit next to your boyfriend because I'm not a bitch trying to steal him from you, no matter how cute he is." Hannah's words caused my gothic boy to blush and bury his face in his arms on the table. I smiled and sat down in the seat next to him, pulling him upwards and into my arms where we then sat with my arms around his waist.
Felix's hands were sitting comfortably on my hands, holding them slightly. Hannah awed at the sight of us, a smile on her face,
"So I take it Felix is the Uke." Felix and I both froze— what in god's name is a Uke?! I turned to Felix who had a scared look on his face,
"Um— Hannah why do you know what a Uke is?" Felix asked which then caused me to look at Felix oddly,
"You make that seem like you know what a Uke is Felix," I muttered into his ear causing him to blush and try and pull away, but he wasn't going anywhere on my account.
"Yeah Felix, I'm a fangirl so it's fine for me to know what a Uke is. But the fact that you know weirds me out." Felix sighed, his blush growing.
"I just— I accidentally came across it when I was reading a book. It was a normal book, but the girl's best friend was gay and he was talking about it— I don't really know anything and I don't want to know anything! I only know what a Uke and Seme is because of that book! I swear to god!" I laughed lightly, scared about what a Uke and Seme is— I had never heard the words, and now I feel like I have to search them up. But at the same time, I don't want to because I don't want to know what the outcome will be.
"I hope everyone behaved while I was gone. Sorry for having to leave," Bates had walked back into the classroom causing everyone to fall silent and turn to face the front,
"Thank god," Muttered Felix causing me to lean forward to his ear,
"What is it?" Felix blushed again,
"That conversation was really fucking awkward, I'm just glad it's over." I nodded and smiled in agreement,
"True that." I then turned to the front and listened for the next twenty minutes until class ended with the bell, and Bates saying something about biology tomorrow.
I sighed and stood up slowly once nearly everyone in the room had left. There were only about four other people aside from Hannah, Felix, Bates and I. Hannah was babbling on about some anime she was watching the other night, while Felix was just standing there,
"Are you okay?" I asked not wanting Felix to be upset about anything. Felix looked up to me and nodded,
"Yeah— sorry I just wasn't thinking." I scoffed joking and nudged him pulling him close for a quick peck,
"That's fine. Just one day you'll have to tell me what you're thinking about so I can think about it too." Felix laughed and pushed me,
"I may love you, but you are not going to pick at my brain for an answer as to what I want or how I work." I shrugged and smirked,
"I never said anything about that— I guess I know what you were thinking about now," Felix growled and punched me lightly in the chest as we started to walk out of the room. Hannah then turned to talk to us,
"I'm going to go hang out with my friends, I'll see you later yeah?" Both Felix and I nodded as Hannah ran off. I turned to Felix a smile on my face,
"Where do you want to go?" Felix shrugged,
"I don't really have a place in mind, all I want is to be alone with you." I blushed and smiled at him. I don't know who blushes more, me or Felix.
"How about the back of the school, no one really hangs out back there." Felix smiled and nodded,
"Yeah sounds good." I smiled at him as we began on our way to the back of the school. Maybe this will be the perfect time to tell him something important. I've never told anyone, except for Dad, but I don't think he was listening— that and he was probably too drunk to remember, or too entranced with his footy game.
I knew everything bad about Felix; well I think I do, so he should know the bad stuff about me. I know I can trust him, I love him and he loves me so it should be easy to tell him— or is it the other way around. It's easier to tell a stranger your problems than someone you love— but I always hated therapy so I guess it doesn't matter. Unless, if you can't talk to a stranger about your issues, then talk to someone you love and trust who you know won't judge you because they have problems of their own.
I smiled and saw that Felix and I were nearing the back of the school, surrounded by no one. My smiled grew but it faded slightly as a couple of words fell out of my mouth,
"Felix, when we get to the back of the school, I have something I need to tell you. Is that okay?" Felix frowned at me and nodded his pace speeding up slightly. I get the feeling he wants to know what I have to say.
"Yeah, that's fine. Is everything okay?" I nodded but the frown remained on my face,
"Everything's fine right now. That's all the matters." When I said that, I was more talking about my mental state— but Felix doesn't know about that yet. We then turned the corner so the two of us were hidden behind the school. Finally, I can have some alone time with him. No fangirls, no crazy girls, no bullies, just us.
"What was it you wanted to tell me?" I sighed and pulled Felix away from me slightly. How was I going to do this? The only person who knows is basically Mum. Shit— this is going to be really hard.
"Felix— you know how you have your anorexia and kinda anxiety?" Felix nodded slowly, fear building in his eyes. Did he think I was going to break up with him?! I gasped and pulled him into a hug.
"It's not anything like that Felix, it's about me." I kissed the top of his head hard and then rested my cheek on his head.
Felix's P.O.V
What is going on with Jake? I'm so scared right now; he brought up my stuff and it made me think he was going to break up with me for it. I knew it was going to happen eventually but I had just hoped that day wouldn't come so soon.
"Felix— I don't know how to say this, but I have d—" He was then cut off as Mike ran through behind, obviously running from Trent and Dylan. Are they seriously still terrorising him? I turned back to Jake, who had a look of anger on his face,
"Sorry, what were you going to tell me?" I sighed and looked around again, hoping to not get interrupted but that wasn't going to happen since Sam suddenly came bounding around the corner at a fast pace screaming out Jake's name. Jake growled and sighed pulling away from me slightly.
"What the hell is going on Sam?" asked Jake, venom laced in his voice. Wow— obviously what he wants to tell me is important.
"I need help." I looked at Sam confused,
"What do you need help with?" Right now I just wanted Sam gone so Jake can tell me what's wrong. Sam sighed and leant over a bit,
"I kinda invited Andy to help me study at my place, alone, tonight with no one home— what the hell did I do!" I jumped at Sam's outburst. He actually thought he would get somewhere with that nerd by inviting him for a study date. I sighed and rubbed my temples a headache forming.
"Okay Sam, don't worry about anything I will handle it. Now, will you please fuck off, Jake and I have something we need to talk about." Sam calmed down and nodded at me,
"Sorry guys, I'll leave now." Jake nodded his hands in fists as Sam walked off and away from behind the school. Jake then turned back to me and relaxed, a smile crossing his face. I returned the smile,
"What was it you wanted to tell me?" Jake sighed, the smile leaving his face slightly.
"It's not— I um— I used to— no— I have depression." I gasped and grabbed his hands,
"Why the fuck didn't you tell me?" I growled annoyed that he kept something so big from me. Jake sighed and pulled me into a hug.
"I didn't want you to hate me for not telling you. But then I knew if I didn't tell you anytime soon you were going to be even madder at me for keeping it from you for so long." I sighed and returned the hug tightly. This information— it's hard to process, shit I didn't know Jake had it this bad.
I pulled away from Jake's body and leant up pulling him down pressing my lips to his. Jake returned the kiss immediately pushing harder. I smirked and walked backwards so I was against the wall. Now, this is what I like about us, no matter what we still kiss.