(A/N: so if you heard the Yvonne rumours you will get this... I'm very very sad and I think I'm gonna right out how I think Spencer will find out. If she doesn't turn out this way then whatever... But yeah.)
Spencer's POV:
Toby frantically searches for his keys.
"Your boss won't be mad if you're 5 minutes late, babe." I say, chuckling. His boss was the same age as him and was pretty chill.
"I.. I know. I'm panicking for nothing." He says... I could tell he was still frantic.
I shrug it off...
"Oh, here they are." He says, finding them on top of the bookshelf.
He puts on his shoes quickly.
"Bye." I say.
He leaves, not saying a word.
I sigh and put down my coffee.
I do not wanna have to do this... But Toby is hiding something and I'm gonna follow him.
I get up quickly, grab my keys, and walk out.
I see him pulling out of the driveway from behind a bush.
I get into my car and follow him, staying a little behind.
I park down the street from him and he walks into a hotel. A nice one.
I feel like I know where this is leading but I shake the horrible thought of him cheating out of my head.
I walk in and realize I don't have a way of getting in.
I hear him ask for room "114".
I keep that in mind.
I get some cash and pay for a room for the night. I don't go to my room and find room 114.
It was hard.. But I found it.
I put my ear against the door.
"That's because you never watch or go to movies with me." I hear a girls voice say.
My heart drops.
"That's not entirely true." I hear Toby say. "I'm stuck with spencer most of the time..." He says.
I feel like I could cry.
".. Why don't you just leave her?" She asks, roughly.
He sighs. "I... She has a mental illness and I've hurt her a few times already... I'm just waiting until she spaces away from me" he says.
"Promise?" She asks seductively.
"Promise." Toby says, even more romantically.
I hear some kissing noises and a moan.
I suddenly begin bawling... And they hear.
I slide to the ground and move against the wall.
I feel to weak to stand...
I try when they come out but I just... I feel paralyzed.
I feel embarrassed... I feel ashamed... And I feel doubt.
Toby's face goes pale.
"Spencer..." He says softly.
I suddenly get the strength to stand up... And I slap him across the face.
"I trusted you!" I yell.
He doesnt talk.
I then run away.
I run out of the hotel and into my car.
I run my hands though my hair.
I see him running after me.
"SPENCER!" He yells.
I drive away.
I speed away.
I go to our house and get some clothes before leaving.
I drive to the motel we had our first kiss at.
I curl up in a ball in my seat.
"I JUST WANNA DIE!" I cry.
Why doesn't anyone love me?
I thought he was my safe place to land...
I gave him everything...
What did I do wrong? I haven't ever hurt him like this... Sure, I've been a little bitchy but felt terrible afterwards.
Did he ever love me the way I loved him or was it just an act?
I suddenly start driving.
I don't know where I'm driving... Until I get there.
It a cliff. I could finally end it.
End the pain.
I get out of my car and walk close to the edge, my toes dangling off.
I then begin to take a step back, feeling crazy.
I could have a life without him...
I am about to completely turn away when I feel the cliff break off.
I trip, but grab something.
I can't see what it is because there's dirt in my eyes... But I wipe it away and quickly realize it is a root that is about to give out.
I scratch at the ground and feel grass.
I then feel sudden dirt... It's about to give out again.
"HELP!!!" I cry.
I feel it giving out even more.
I then feel like I'm flying... No... I'm falling for like 3 seconds.
Then I start skidding along the dirt.
I look back and see blood skidded across the rocks.
I feel my eyes get heavy.
I feel all the stress melt away and the pain of blood loss is numbed.
It suddenly stops.
I lay there, feeling everything go numb.
Then... I look to my right.
I see rosewood.
"Bitches..." I say, then look to my left.
I see a hiker.
"Help..." I whisper, holding onto that last bit of hope that I could live.
But you know what they say about hope... It breeds eternal misery.
I died before the ambulance could get me...
But I wanted it to happen... I wanted it to end.
Toby's POV:
I push Yvonne away and follow Spencer outside.
I see her drive away...
I get into my car and follow her, but end up losing her.
I think for a few minutes and decide to check the house.
Things are slightly moved around in our room, and the shirt she took from me on our first kiss is gone... Along with all of her socks.
I sigh, and lay down on her side of the bed.
Why was I so stupid?
I just used Yvonne for sex... Spencer and I had sex but it wasn't hot. It was more lovey dovey and all I wanted was hot sex.
It turned into something much worse.
I told Yvonne lies... I told her I would leave Spencer and one day me and her would get married... Just for sex.
I begin sobbing into the pillow that still smelt like her.
I grabbed a picture of us... She was on my back and we were so happy.
I scoot onto my side and place the picture on hers.
She will never come back to me... She ran away. All that's left of her is the clothes that will one day stop smelling like her.
One day... She will be gone.
I hear the phone ring and jump up to get it.
"Hello?" I ask, hoping its Spencer.
"Mr cavanaugh?" A woman asks.
"Uh... Yeah." I say.
"We regret to inform you that Spencer is dead. They believe it was suicide but they are investigating and-" I hang up and drop the phone.
I lay down on the floor and cry.
Suicide.
I made her kill herself.
She's gone... And she's not coming back. I can't chase after her... I can't do shit about this.
Shes gone... And I just can't handle that.