I'm Only Human

The answers I could never tell you.

Because I can't stop, because I'm too fucking selfish to just let go.
Because I miss my friend, because I miss the fact that at one point you wouldn't let me push you away. Because I miss how much you seemed to understand me.
Because you don't need me the way I need you.
Because I'm fucking selfish.
Because you make me feel better when I want nothing more than to just slit my wrists and die.
Because I don't want to put that pressure on you.
Because my depression shouldn't be yours too.
Because I lost a piece of me when you left.
Because I'm not good for you.
It could be one or all of these reasons, but it doesn't excuse the way I tried to rope you back.
Just know I'm here for you if you need me.