Not Knowing

Everyday I secretly wished you were there & when you were I played it off like I didn't care, but when you weren't I was broken inside. I now know what you mean, I wish I could tell you, I wish you knew, but then again not knowing how you feel guarantees me a spot in this "friendship" or whatever we have. It guarantees that nothing will change & that everything will stay the same. But I kind of want to take that chance & see how you really feel about me, but if you don't care for me it would break me. At the same time not knowing is killing me, but what can I say & what can I do? All i can do is sit around & wait around until you see it & feel it too.