Adrienne
Wednesday, I was really geeked because I was finally off crutches but I still had a cast so I still had to like wobble around a bit. I will however be flying out to Houston this evening and for some reason, I couldn't stop replaying the conversation I had yesterday afternoon with Jessica.
"Do you think Kyrie would ever cheat on me?" I blurted out.
Zizi gave me her full attention. "What? Why would you even ask a question like that?"
"You can't be serious Adrienne" Lawrence chimed in.
"I don't know, like yesterday Jessica was talking to me about him and our relationship, and now I've been thinking it nonstop today"
"First of all I couldn't imagine Ky cheating on you because we all know he ain't stupid and second the way he treats you is beyond words to describe" Zizi spoke with frustration. "Cheating on you would never even cross his damn mind"
"That boy ain't bout to cheat on you and why you even discussing with that cross eye hoe about your relationship anyways?" Lawrence laughed, pulling my hair into a ponytail.
"Exactly, the damn assistant"
I couldn't help but laugh. "You guys are right, like why would I ask that type of question"
"Right, you know better than to ask dumb questions like that"
Adrienne, why are you even thinking about yesterday's conversation? That's unexpected for me to question something like that, and to let it bother my day.
*
"Pack all the stuff over there and place it in those two bags" I pointed to the two Louis Vuitton duffle bags that were placed on my bedroom floor.
Jessica nodded her head, before walking into my closet and getting my things ready. Right now it was six- fourteen and the flight to Houston was at eight, and I was even packed yet.
I had just came back from getting my hair done and I needed to take a shower, get dressed, and then get to LAX before eight. Jesus be a fence, please.
Without wasting time taking a shower, getting ready and getting my luggage's into the car; we were in at the airport in no time and up in the jet instantly.
Times like this I started missing being around my best friend, because I never like flying alone. Zizi stayed back in California because Josh was flying out to Oakland for the finals, and I guess she wanted to spend time with him. Lucky her.
Not to forget was in Oakland also preparing for the finals tomorrow. Everyone was in the same location, but me and I was really hoping that this wouldn't cause me to be here for more than two days.
"I advise you get some rest, because tomorrow will be busy" I told Jess, as I walked into my hotel suite.
For some reason that flight made me a bit tired and I was wanted to go to sleep, because tomorrow I knew I was going to be all over the place and had couldn't afford to be up all night.
***
"If only you could accept me for who I am" I balled my fist up, glancing down at the script. "For years, I've been who you wanted me to be"
It seemed like whenever I auditioned for a movie, I always put my all into it. That's where most people go wrong in acting, because they never give it their best and you can't be successful in screenplay if you're not going to give it your very best.
"I had to pretend about my true identity and nobody saw the real me"
"And scene" the director called out, walking over to me. "Very lovely Adrienne"
I stood up from my seat.
"We've never had anyone audition with a cast on their leg" he chuckled, adjusting his glasses. "Amazing performance though Miss. Adrienne. It blew me away"
I smiled, "Thank you. I'm very grateful for this opportunity"
"I should be thanking you, because it's not every day we get an amazing actress as yourself auditioning for us"
"That's really nice of you to say and I'm more than happy that this audition even came my way"
After chatting some more, I experienced a moment with paparazzi and then went out to have lunch. I wasn't that much hungry and feeling a bit worn out, I just wanted to get back to the hotel.
On the ride back to the hotel, I spoke to Kyrie and he was just so happy the entire phone call. His energy level was beyond anything and I guess it was excitement of playing in his first finals. When he's happy, then I will always be happy.
It was three in the afternoon, when I got back and I was ready to watch tonight's game which would start around six and I quickly removed the outfit I had on earlier and dressed in something more casual which was a pair of PINK sweatpants and a hoodie that Kyrie left over my house, that smelled just like him. I miss him.
I stood in the bathroom mirror, contemplating whether or not to remove my make up when my phone began to ring. It was plugged into the wall outlet, and I walked out unplugging it. I smiled to see my Queen 👑🌏❤️ shown on the screen, and answered quickly.
"Mommy" A huge smile plastered on my face.
"Hey baby, how are you doing?"
"I'm good, how are you?"
"Well I'm", she coughed hard, "I'm doing alright Adrienne"
Something was totally off in my mother's tone of voice. Normally when we talk to each other on the phone I'm used to an energetic spirit, and right now I was getting the complete opposite from her.
"Mommy what's wrong? You seem off"
"I'm not really dealing with a good mind frame right now" she admitted with her voice very hoarse.
"What do you mean? What happened?" I asked, getting concerned.
"You know I told you last week I was dealing with chest pain and you advised me to go visit a doctor, which is exactly what I did today"
"Okay, so what exactly did they say?"
"They said I had stage one breast cancer"
My phone was this close too dropping out of my hands. Did I really just hear my mom break down to me that she has breast cancer?
"Did you say breast cancer? How? When? Why?"
"Adrienne it's early and it isn't aggressive yet, so it can be treated"
"But mom cancer in general is a serious matter and you know we've lost two family members to it, which included your own child"
In my opinion cancer was a big deal. I've seen two relatives pass away from it. So it isn't really something i'm new to and wouldn't take serious, especially considering the fact that my own mother; the lady who raised me to become the independent woman that I am right now has it, doesn't put me at ease.
"I haven't said it wasn't serious. I just don't want you and Andrea panicking and making a big deal of the situation"
"But it is a big deal mommy and does Drea even know?"
"I know Adrienne but I don't want you to get overwhelmed and no, I definitely don't want you to tell her either. I'll let her know myself"
"How are you sounding so calm right now? Like this is something you don't take advantage of, it's your own life is on the line"
"Only thing we can do is have faith for successful treatment and prayers"
Tears were filling in my eyes, but I refused to let them fall. I was not about to let my emotions get the best of me right now because I needed to be strong for my mother and instead of thinking all the negative, I was going to allow the positive thoughts take control in my mind.
"Adrienne, baby girl do not cry. You are too strong for that"
"I'm not" I sniffed, using my knuckle to wipe my right eye.
"I love you and Drea dearly and I always will" she spoke with a soft voice.
"I love you too mom"
"Take care of yourself and have a wonderful day sweetie"
"You too and please keep me updated with the doctor"
"I will love"
"Ciao mommy" I weak smile stayed on my face.
"Bye baby" she ended the call, and I removed the phone from my ear.
I didn't know what to think at this moment because my mind was filled with too many mixed signals. The last time I was told someone close to me had cancer and after multiple surgeries and treatments, I never got to see that person again. So how would I be sure that the same thing wouldn't happen to my mother?
If I was to lose my mother, I don't know what I would do with my life. I'm the person who I am today because of my mother and everything I do is because of her. She was my queen, she was my rock, and she's my everything. I've already lost my father and brother, so I can't lose the number one person in my life.
At this moment all of me didn't want to be bothered for the rest of the afternoon and I just wanted to turn my phone completely off. Ignoring everything and everyone.
I can't take any more bad news.