KIVRIEL'S POV
"Saan kayo pumunta kahapon? we didn't see you around."
I was taken aback by Lian's question.
The events of yesterday are still vivid in my mind, lingering in every part of my body.
Today is our last day here, so we're making the most of it.
I glanced towards the sea, where Allyna and the others were enjoying themselves swimming, habang kaming mag pipinsan ay umiinom dito sa may buhangin, along with Roxas.
"So means narinig mo pag sesex ni Crisly at ni Janelle?"
"AGREE! tumigas ba daliri mo sa robust ha Roxas?!"
"Dapat matuwa ka samin."
"Hinigop ko pa kalahati nong water dispenser para effective eh."
Namula naman ako sa mga pinagsasabi nila.
so they put the fucking robust in the water dispenser then.
Lalo naman napakunot ang noo ni Crisly sa pinagsasabi nila.
"Pinagsasabi n'yo? nag date kami kahapon no."
"Sus sinong nilo---- wehhh? seryoso?" naniniguradong tanong ni Lian.
"If wala kayo rito kahapon then who the hell drunk the wat-"
Sabay sabay na naman sila tumingin sa'kin.
"Allyna's limping" Lian said while squinting her eyes towards me.
"FUCK LEW!" Sigaw naman ni Quin.
"You fucke-."
Tinakpan ko naman ang bunganga ni Kyll at sinamaan s'ya ng tingin.
"Close that fucking mouth of yours, you dumbass!" Hasik ko habang pulang pula, tininignan lang nila ako ng nakakaloko habang umiiling.
1 year later......................
ALLYNA'S POV
I sighed to myself, I know I overboard na naman dahil sa sobrang inis ko sa kaniya but I can't help if she's being too stubborn.
Kivriel can be really hardheaded sometimes, I already told her na don't drive her bike pag gabi na but she doesn't listen.
We're here in Janelle's and Crisly's house to celebrate their first wedding anniversary.
Hindi kami mag kasabay pumunta rito dahil she have a meeting kanina.
Kivriel pulled out from college along with her cousins because she said she already wanted to handle their business.
At first, I was confused because how could she handle it when she doesn't have a degree, but her parents said they'll manage it.
It's hard at first especially since hindi na kami araw-araw magkasama, but after 2 or 3 months, we decided to live together. So, I'm basically living in her apartment right now.
Napatingin naman ako sa kaniya na busy makipagdaldalan kasama sila Lian, umiinom sila.
Maraming changes sa loob ng isang taon lalo na kay Kivriel, she matured but yet gets really playful but madalas pa rin na intimidate ako sa pagiging seryoso niya.
Our eyes met but I looked away.
Naiinis pa rin ako na naguguilty, we had a fight kanina, I told her na mag pahatid na lang sa driver n'ya pag punta rito pero nag drive pa rin s'ya mag solo.
I don't understand her, she really hates riding a car til now, minsan napipilitan s'ya kasi hindi naman pwedeng mag motor parati pero pinapairal pa rin n'ya katigasan ng ulo n'ya.
I shrugged it off, I'll talk to her na lang later when we get home.
Nakipagdaldalan na lang ako kala Ainnie.
"So when is the wedding?" tanong ni Ainnie sa akin.
"Atat ka, hindi pa nga ako tapos mag-aral," sagot ko sa kanya.
They all sighed at my response.
"Hindi na ba sumasakit ang ulo mo? You said before na there's a time na you're having a deja vu and about sa weird dreams mo na you had a car accident, may mga ganon scenario pa rin ba?" tanong sa akin ng girlfriend ni Crisly.
Since we were discharged from the hospital, naging casual na lang din kami nila sa mga instructors namin lalo na sa mga ganitong events pero pag nasa university kami we still address them as a professor.
Napaisip naman ako sa tanong niya.
"There's a time lalo na if about kay Riel, she did stuff sometimes that triggered something to the back of my brain pero aside from that, wala na masyado."
They all nodded as a response.
"Kayo? wala pa ba kayong plano?" tanong ko sa kanila.
"Hanggang magkakasama sa kalokohan ‘yang magpipinsan na ‘yan, no," sagot ni Eia.
"Agree, duda pa ako sa pagkatao ni Caizen," dagdag ni Jewel.
Napatawa naman kami sa sinabi ng dalawa.
Those two are chic magnets, I mean lahat sila but unlike Quin, Riel, and Lian, Caizen and Kyll can be unintentionally flirty towards other girls kaya parati rin nilang pinag-aawayan.
Matagal-tagal pa kami magkwentuhan, we decided to check our girlfriends kasi pare-parehas silang nawala sa may living room.
We saw them in the pool already fooling around and doing stupid stuff.
Pero wala si Kivriel and Lian doon so I decided to look for them kasi it's getting late at gusto ko na rin umuwi.
I saw them in the backyard, they're talking seriously while sitting on the bench and sipping their beer.
tamo ‘tong taong ‘to, she's going to drive later tas umiinom.
I was about to approach them when I stopped in my tracks upon hearing Lian's question.
"Wala pa rin ba siyang naaalala? It's been a year, sabi ng doctor last time na mabilis na lang din niyang ma-regain ang memories niya."
Napailing naman si Kivriel.
"Wala, I don't know, sometimes I purposely do stuff na it'll trigger our past but no effect, sasakit lang ulo n'ya kaya I don't bother at all." Kivriel answered, I can feel the frustration and longing to her voice.
"Let her be na lang, Lew at least your relationship is going strong now." Lian comforted her and tapped her back.
"Yes, but sometimes it can be really hard. I want to tell her about our past, and there are times na nadudulas ako kaya minsan I wish na hindi na lang din ako nakakaala para hindi ganun kahirap."
"Plus, ito pa ang pinag-aawayan namin ngayon, about driving my motorcycle instead of riding a car. How can I explain to her na I really feel odd riding a car if all I remember is when we got into an accident making her forget stuff?"
"Hindi nawawala yung takot ko at trauma pag sasakay ng kotse kaya ang hirap din minsan, pare. Pero I've been trying to overcome it kasi hindi naman talaga pwedeng mag-motor lang ako nang mag-motor."
There's something that struck me when I heard what she said, kaya tumakbo ako sa comfort room.
I looked at myself in the mirror, all the words Kivriel said were repeated in my mind.
Forgotten memories?
Past?
Accident?
So all those memories from the dreams of having a car accident are true?
And just like that, all my memories from the past rushed through my brain.
"Oh my god." Napatakip ako sa bibig nang marealize ko kung ano talaga ang nangyari.
Water built up in my eyes, tears fell down.
Every tear that fell down is equivalent to all those forgotten memories.
I stayed inside the comfort room for a few minutes, crying my eyes out.
I knew they might look for me soon, so I started fixing myself.
May narinig naman akong kumatok.
"Kitten? Are you there?"
My heart raced when I recognized my girlfriend's voice.
"Y-yeah, just a minute, love," I replied.
I checked myself again in the mirror, it was obvious I had been crying, and I knew Kivriel would notice.
I slowly opened the door and peeked, sakto naman nakaharap si Riel sa may pinto.
"H-hi." I greeted and smiled shakily.
Napakunot naman ang noo n'ya sa inasta ko.
She gently pushed the door and entered.
"What took you so long—wait, why are your eyes swollen? Were you crying? Is it about earlier? When I rode my motorcycle here? I'm sorry, love, if it upset you. Manong wasn't feeling well, so I drove by myself to get here. I promise it'll be the last time. I'm sorr—"
I didn't let her finish and kissed her.
She started blubbering again.
I love that about her.
She knows how to apologize and admit when she's wrong, and she does everything para mawala ang inis ko sa kaniya.
I encircled my arms around her neck, and she held my waist, but I pulled away from the kiss before it could go to something more intimate.
"Shhhhhh, love, I'm not mad, okay? It's just... it's just that..."
"It's like what?" She asked, looking confused.
"Marry me?" I said cutely and leaned in so our lips were only inches apart.
She was stunned by what I said at tumikal sa pag kakayakap sa'kin.
"Seriously, Allyna? First, you asked me to be your girlfriend while we were wearing our hospital clothes, and now you're asking me to marry you in a comfort room? Seriously?" She asked me in disbelief.
"So, you don't want to marry me?" I asked, pretending to be offended.
bibigay din ‘to.
"It's not like that, kitten, but allow me to propose to you in a way that shows effort and how special you are."
Nag kunyare pa rin akong galit at lalabas na sana ng Cr.
"Okay okay, I'll marry you, don't be mad na." she stopped me and hugged me from behind.
success, sabi na eh bibigay din HAHAHAHAHAH
I smiled to myself and faced her, smiling widely.
"Payag ka na?" I asked her.
Tumango naman siya.
"Remember your dream wedding? You want the venue in Korea, right? Kasi maganda yung place don, but ang totoo naghihintay ka lang na baka sumulpot si Jennie Kim para pigilan ka at sa kanya magpakasal, diba?"
"Cool, you remember that—" Nanlaki naman ang mata niya.
"Wait, what? You remember that?"
"You remember everything?"
"Our past?"
"Your past?"
"Lahat, as in lahat?"
She asked in disbelief, and I just nodded.
Hindi na naman siya mapakali kaya hinila ko ulit siya para halikan, causing us to close our eyes and enjoy the kiss.
"Calm down, love. Yes, I remember everything, so right now I'm asking you to marry me." I husked after pulling away from our kiss.
I looked at her, and she still had her eyes closed, with a visible smile on her lips.
"Open your eyes, love," I softly said.
When she opened her eyes, the tears were visible, and I smiled too.
Because even though her eyes were glistening with tears, I knew to myself that they were tears of joy.
My Riel sacrificed and did very well taking care of me, and was very patient with me since she regained her memories.
I know that, I feel it, and I'm very thankful for that.
I'm very thankful for her, for her whole existence.
I'm very thankful to her for loving me.
There are so many girls who deserve her more than I do, but I'm glad that I'm the one she loves.
"I love you, Allyna. I love you so much. Thank you, thank you."
"You don't have any idea how happy I'm feeling right now." she said emotionally and kissed me again.
We shared a passionate kiss, and she pulled away.
She looked straight into my eyes and said,
"I will always be mesmerized by you."
And I'm grateful that she's mesmerized by me, more than I am by her entire being.
I'm Allyna Ciesh Monroe, soon to be Allyna Ciesh Mercer, and I'm thankful for the opportunity to share my stories with all of you.
Loving someone of the same gender might be seen as a sin or strange by some people out there, but it's not our fault to feel this way. Yes, it may be deemed unethical by others, but if being ethical means sacrificing our happiness just to please them, I'd rather live on another planet—one without judgment. Always remember, loving with full gentleness and without hurting anyone is not a sin. Live, laugh, and love whoever you want!