*Next Morning*
I woke up asleep on Ashton. I grabbed my phone from my pocket to check the time when I noticed I had a text,
"It was me. I saw what you've been doing, I know now why you've been so distant from us all, can we talk in the morning. Don't worry I won't tell the others if you don't want me to.
Love Calum."
it was then that I pulled up my sleeve and looked at my arm it was wrapped in a bandage. I got up off the couch and walked down to Calum's room flicking a quick reply back to his message on my way. I walked into Calum's room and noticed him still sleeping soundly so I sat against his bedroom wall and scrolled through my Tumblr to freaked out to be freaking out he wasn't meant to find this out not so soon. How could you be such a dumb fucker? I looked down at my phone realizing it was only 2:25am I decided to not wake up Calum and instead climb in bed with him and give him a hug in an effort to try and cheer me up. I woke again at 6:00am and quietly whispered Calum's name in his ear and touched his shoulder until he woke up.
"What time is it?" Calum asked in his morning voice
"6:02 in the morning." I replied
"LUKE!" he shouted giving me a fright
"um... yeah?"
"My text did you read it?" uh dumb question Calum why else would I be here?
"Check you're phone."
I looked over at Calum's phone and saw my reply "Fuck! :( Do I have to?"
He turned to look at me,
"Yes." was his only response.
"Please don't tell the boys, it was just once I've never done it before. I wasn't thinking I'm sorry Cal. How did you know anyway?"
"It's okay I won't tell, and how did I know? When you were asleep on Ashton he fell asleep on me and he dropped his arm onto yours and i noticed you flinch and move his arm so I looked to see what the deal was, it broke my heart Lukey." He replied concern obvious in his voice.
"I'm sooo sorry Cal I didn't mean to hurt you." I replied trying to hold in the tears.
He must've noticed because he hugged me tight and didn't let me go until we woke up again. It was 8:27 when I woke up in Calum's bed. Calum was gone and I wondered why I was in his bed that's when it all came back to me and I realized I had to get out of here and get to my tree but how was I going to get out without the boys noticing? I'll just walk out the door straight past them. Yeah cause that will work you idiot. As I walked out the door Michael asked me where I was going I told him there was some things I had to grab from the shop. I already had my wallet in my pant pocket so I decided I'd just buy a new toothbrush and a new bubblegum flavoured toothpaste. I walked down to the park originally wearing a few bracelets and my hoodie, but when I got to the park and hopped on one of the swings it got really hot, I decided to push up my sleeves so that they were just below my elbows. Some kids arrived at the park no more than ten, they saw my cuts up my left arm and gave me a dirty smirk and started calling me an 'attention seeker' and a 'gay faggot emo' one of them came right up to me and was about to slap my cuts when I stood up now towering over the three children. The one that was about to hit my arm taking a step closer to me and went to punch my but I dodged it and punched back, I just kept punching and punching, I knew what I was doing but I just couldn't stop myself. I suddenly realized what I was doing. I ran. I ran straight past the shop all the way home, I ran through the door and into Calum's room. It was then I realized that I was crying and I pulled out my phone and texted Calum.
To: Cal
"Can you please come to your room?
Lukey"
A few seconds later Calum walks through the door, he took one look at me and ran straight to me and held me in a hug, I just melted into him. Once I calmed my sobs into hiccups I told him everything that just happened
"Oh, Luke. Shh it's okay Lukey it wasn't your fault, they never should have done that to you."
"Thanks Cal."
With that I pulled my sleeves down again and went into the lounge. I hesitantly walked in hiding behind Calum.
"Hey Luke." I heard Ashton say very delicately.
Michael was in the kitchen as usual you could never keep him away from that fridge.
"HEY LUKE WANT ME TO GET YOU SOMETHING TO EAT!" He yelled so that I could hear him.
"Just an Apple please?" I said more like a question. YOU CAN'T FUCKING EAT THAT YOU IDIOT!!
As I was eating my apple Calum said that I should go to bed and if I wanted to I could sleep in his bed with him again tonight and he'll be up soon. I decided that I would sleep with Calum again he made me feel safe not in relationship way but he just has that caring personality. before I went to bed I went into my room to get my pajamas and to weigh myself. I striped off my clothes and weighed myself 86.9kg fuck you're such a fat pig!! I decided to throw up the apple I just ate and weigh myself again 86.6kg... better but I still had a long way to go. I quickly wrapped up the scales and put on my pajamas. I stashed the scales back under my bed and go into Calum's room and climb under his covers leaving room for him to climb in too.
*Calum's P.O.V.*
"Hey, guys?" I ask the other two.
"Yes." they reply at the same time a bit creepily.
I think we should have a room pairing change up, you know it's been a while. You two sleep together and I'll sleep with Luke?"
"Sure, whatever dude." Michael replied ,
"Okay Bud." Ashton said half focused on the TV.
With that I went to bed, when I got to my bedroom I saw Luke curled up in my bed I quietly climbed in with him hugging him close to me rubbing circles on his back.