Abhimanyu pov-
2 weeks later ....
I came back home after a tiring day .....
I have been over working myself to keep myself engaged.
My personal life is fucked up but I have my responsibility and duties to be fulfilled.
I just can't sit back and cry ....over my personal matter .
On the top of that the polling has started and it's a tight schedule.
I was in the kitchen drinking water when I heard the familiar anklet sound and turned to find her .
When did she came back from her Daadi's house .
Yeah she left 2 weeks back when we had that confrontation to her Daadi's house stating that she is giving me space .
When I said space It didn't mean that she needed to leave .
It feels like we are strangers again .
We have come back to level zero .
Go and freshnup.....I will reheat your food ....she said , although I wanted to oppose as I am angry over her , this time for going away but I am exhausted.
I just left to the room and a bath and wore my vest and shorts ..
She was waiting for me on the dining table and I took my seat and started having my food .
She sat beside me as I had my food .
How was your day ....she asked and I looked at her for a moment and nodded.
We get back to our room and I walked to the balcony to smoke as usual. I have become a habitual smoker in the past 2 weeks .
I was about to light the cigarette but she snatched it from me and I glared at her .
I don't like it .....she said .
So , am I asking you to smoke....I asked and she rolled her eyes....the audacity I see .
I don't like it when you smoke and you know that ....She said .
Har cheej tumhare hisaab se nahi hogi ....samjhi na .....I said taking out another cigarette from the packet.
Har cheej.....huh ...mere hisaab se toh kuch nahi hota hai .....it's you who decides everything......she said with a chuckle.
I sat on the chair puffing the cigarette and she stood near the railing looking at me .
I looked at her and our eyes met .....none of us tried to break the intense contact.
Kya chahiye......I asked taking another puff still looking into her eyes .
Sab kuch .....she demanded.
Badi farz ki baate karte hai .....toh nibhaye apna pati hone ka farz....she said making me sigh.
Tum khud gai thi chod k mujhe .....mene nahi kaha tha jaane ko .....I said and she huffed.
Jaane ko nahi kaha par roka bhi nahi tha ....Na koi phone Kiya ....na khabhi ye dekhne aaye ki mei thik hu ki nahi .......She said with moist eyes.
Mene nahi Kiya toh tumhe bhi nahi Kiya .....I said throwing the ciagrette away .
Things are not working out between us. Mujhe nahi lagta humara rishta aage bhad paayega .....we are stuck at a point and I couldn't see a way ahead.......
It's better if we get a divorce......she said making me clench my jaw .
I glared at hard and she looked away wiping her tears .
Don't test my patience Mishika.......And make one thing clear in your head ......There won't be any Divorce...so it's useless to even think about it .....I said getting up from the chair and was about to walk inside the room but she grabbed my hand .
Kyu ....kyu nahi denge divorce . Paas aau toh space chaiye ...chali jaau toh chod k kyu gai .....chahte kya hai aap .
Mei asse hi rahu humesha ...... just because of one mistake you are punishing me like I have comitted a sin .
I never forced you to love me .....mei khus thi na jese bhi cheeje chal Rahi thi humare beech .......kab mene aapse kaha ki mujhe pyar karo ....Confess Karo .....haan ...
I didn't put any obligations over you .....Toh mere saath kyu asa kar rahe hai aap .....
Space chaiye tha ......de diya space ....I didn't showed you my face for 2 weeks .....
Now what.......she asked while crying.
I sat back on the chair and pulled her in my lap .
She tried to get away but I held her on her place ..
Stop crying first ....I said wipping her tears and she pushed my hands away .
I waited for her to calm down and she did after few minutes.
I am sorry......I said and she looked at me angrily.
I don't want your sorry.....sorry se kisi ka dukh Kam nahi hota .....she said .
Toh kese Kam hota hai dukh vo bata do .....kuki at this point I am not able to understand anything or come to any conclusion.
All I know is you can go away from me and I won't let you even if you want to .....iske aage Jo tu bolegi ....I will do it......I said and she looked at me ...
Let's start from the start....okay ....she said and I nodded .
What am I to you ......she asked me .
Wife.....I said simply and she glared at me making me chuckle.
Mujhe nahi karni baat ....you are not serious....she said trying to get up and I held her back .
What you want to listen......I asked her .
The truth....let's be clear on everything for once and for all ....she said and I took a deep breath..
You are a hope to me ....I said intertwining my finger with her .
A hope that one day everything will be normal....a hope that we will have our cute little family...a hope that I will be healed ....a hope to a happy future......I said and she looked at me dumbfound.
Why didn't you tell me this earlier.....She whispered.
You never asked ....I said caressing her palm .
Am I not your responsibility........She asked making me sigh .
I have responsibilities towards you ....it's not you because of responsibility......
I don't know if it's that difficult to understand......ek insaan ki traf humare farz hote hai ....farz ki vajah se insaan nahi hota ......I said and she blinked.
Toh kya farz hai aapka .....she asked me .
To keep you happy ...to keep maa happy ....to protect our family....to fulfill your needs .....to be your shield......to ensure that you all are safe .....to make sure that you all feel cared for...... I said and a tear escaped her eye.
Ye sab farz hai ....she asked and I nodded.
Toh Mera bhi kuch farz hoga aapke according.....She asked and I nodded.
Ofcourse hai ...to do the same for me and our family.....I said and she chuckled .
Are you still hurt with me ...She asked and I nodded.
But it's not because of that case thing ....I said and she frowned.
It's because you left me .....mene tumhe gusse mei kuch bol diya ....I vented out on you and you left ...... wasn't it your responsibility to held me that time ....you should have been there ....you must have provided me the shoulder to cry on ....
Mene bola space chaiye toh tum mujhe chod k chali jaaogi ......I said and she shook her head .
Are you still in love __ she trailed off and I laid my head on the back rest .
It's not a yes or No question you know........I loved her madly is a fact .....she betrayed me is another harsh truth......
My heart shattered is my painful past .....but I am trying to get out of it.. trying to give another chance to myself ...is my reality.....
Now it depends upon you how you take it ....but that's what I am going through.
Cheeje black and white nahi hoti hai .....there are phases and I am in one of those phase too......I said and she nodded.
Why you chose to come close to me ......is it because I asked for a normal married and you were doing it to fulfill my wish and your responsibilities......She asked .
I didn't forced myself to do anything.....it was not an obligation.....I just went with the flow.....Did I ever made you feel it's fake .....I asked and she shook her head .
I told you that I like you and you told me the same too ......I was attracted to you....I had desires for you and you possessed the same too...and the fact that we are husband and wife allowed me act on it and you approved of it too.....
Beside that it played a huge role in emotional closeness and I didn't find it wrong ......I said and she laid her head on my chest .
What you exactly felt when I confessed my feelings for you .....she asked .
I felt special and more responsible towards you ....the urge to protect you and keep you safe intesified.....I said and she chuckled..
Itna pareshan kyu ho gye the .....ek dum se kya ho Gaya tha ......she asked cupping my cheek .
I don't know....when I got to know about Pooja's parents and all the money things....It came as a huge shock .....
And I couldn't digest the fact that you knew everything and still didn't disclosed it to me ........what they did shocked me but what you did hurt me .....
Vo toh kar sakte hai ....but tu nahi kar sakti mere saath asa .....They are not responsible for me but you are accountable for my hurt ......I said and she sniffed.
I am sorry.......She said and I pulled her closer in my embrace.
Any more questions.....jo bhi hai .....aaj puch le .....and end it here only ......iske baad there is no place of mistrust and all the doubts.... atleast not regarding our relationship and me going back to someone else ....
Haan koi nai mili toh vo baad mei dekh lenge ....I said and she looked at me in shock ..
Kya matlab nai mili toh .....She asked me narrowing her eyes and I just shrugged.
Koi Nai purani nahi chalegi ......you are mine and that's another fact and reality of your life .....mei keep it clear in your mind ....she said in a warning tone making me laugh .
I was just joking Little Rose ......I said and she burst out crying......
You didn't call me little Rose all this while ......she said while sobbing.
I am sorry again ...... I said.
Sorry se kuch nahi hota .....she said making me smile..
Kya karna hai phir .....I asked ..
Pata nai ......think it yourself....sab mei nahi bolungi.........she said snuggling into my neck .
When I didn't do anything for a few minutes she looked me angrily.
Kiss Karo mujhe ....itna nahi samjh aata ......she demanded making me grin .
The next moment I was kissing her hungrily grabbing her face in my palms..
Yo_u smell _ like cigarette.....she said in between the kiss but I don't care about it today ......
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Finally things got settled down ....
For a moment even I was stressed how to sort out their problems.
Both were hurt .....both seemed right .....
Hence both need to apologies 🙃...
And Abhimanyu's defination of Farz also needs to be clarified....pata nahi kon si dictionary padh k aaya hai ye aadmi .....🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧🤭🤭🤭🤭🤭🤭.
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