I woke up feeling the effects of last night all too well.
What a fucking idiot I was.
I want to take a walk today, get out the house for a bit, and maybe avoid getting into more trouble.
Maybe Jung Kook will want to come? Rita said he likes doing things like that.
We sat down for breakfast, and I just felt so awkward.
No one was really talking, and I couldn't help but feel it was because of me.
I finished eating and looked around the room, and thought now would be a good time to ask Jung Kook about going out..
"Ohh, Jung Kook! I wanted to ask you something."
He looked over at me and cocked his head to the side.
"Uh.. Did you want to go for a walk with me today?" I nervously asked him, realising that asking him so openly in front of everyone was probably not the best way.
He looked around the table at the others and they said nothing.
There was not even the slightest hint that he would accept my offer.
He then got up from the table, and glanced back at me.
"You don't have to, I just thought it would be nice to hang out." I grimaced at him, hopefully diffusing the awkwardness and not make it so he feels obliged to accept.
He lets out a small hum and nods, then moves off and walks out the room.
I look to Namjoon quirking my brow and he smiles at me.
"That's a yes." He smirks, and I felt myself blush from not understanding his nuances.
I get up from the table and then headed to my room to get changed.
As I came down again, Jung Kook is sat waiting for me with his jacket in hand.
I go to the doorway to slip my boots on, and he gets up as well, stopping opposite me in the small space of the porch.
He stood looking down at me, and while I looked up and smiled, his blank expression turned into a subtle smile.
He stepped into his shoes and slipped his arms through his trench coat, all while maintaining eye contact.
He is incredibly handsome, and his mysterious aura is so captivating.
I feel his hand touch my waist, and then he opens the door, gently pushing me in front of him.
I feel excitement at being out with him, running off ahead towards the opening of the forest.
I look into it, hesitant of what could be in there, but then he walks off ahead of me, turning back to look at me with a smirk.
I picked up a stick and flicked another one that was on the floor towards him.
He looked down at it, and when he looked at me again, I had stood in a fighting stance, encouraging him to duel.
He broke out into a wide smile and picked it up.
This is the first time I have seen him smile like that. He should do it more often.
He ran to me with his baton and I giggled as I dodged his swing, swiping him with it instead.
He raised his eyebrows at me, like he was surprised and impressed, and I just couldn't help but puff up my chest as I showed off my skills.
Dad and I used to do this all the time, so I have a bit of a knack when it comes to sword fighting.
I couldn't help but wonder why he trained me to do such a thing, but with what's been happening as of late, it is becoming clearer.
He threw his stick on the floor and ran at me full pelt, making me drop mine and try to escape him.
He's quick, I'll give him that.
He picked me up and spun me around, making me laugh the most I have in a good while, and he dropped me on the grass.
He laid next to me and took my hand, holding it out above him to study the lines in my palm.
"Why don't you speak, Jung Kook?" I whispered to him, making him turn to face me with a worried look.
"Can you write?" I question, and he shakes his head at me.
"Can I try something?"
He hesitates.
"I just want to see if I can communicate with you.. In other ways." I smile at him, hoping he will trust me.
He nods, which prompts me to straddle myself over him.
He very obviously didn't expect me to make such a move on him, but I just smirked back at how flustered he looked.
"Relax." I mouthed, Taking his hands under my skirt to touch my bare thighs.
I leant over him and placed my hands either side of his head, then rested my forehead against his.
He closed his eyes, and I did the same.
I just saw darkness.
"LEAVE!" A voice screeched at me, making me jump off him and create some distance between us.
I stared back at Jung Kook and he looked scared.
"What.. Who.." I tried to speak, but I just couldn't make sense of it.
"Was that you?" I quiz him, and he grimaces at me, giving me a half yes, half no answer.
I move closer to him and he holds his hands out to stop me.
"Please let me." I urged.
I don't know what I want to do, but something is telling me I need to do it again.
I took his hands and placed them on my head.
I could feel his energy.
It was dark, but I knew it wasn't all him.
He's scared of it, but I know he is able to control it, much like how Yoongi says I can.
It's a strong energy, but not enough to hurt me. That I know for sure.
As he held me, I slowly took my hands to his head.
I was back in the darkness, but there was a small light in the distance.
"YOU DON'T BELONG HERE!" The voice bellowed at me.
"You are not the one who makes that decision." I calmly speak back.
"YOU DARE UNDERMINE ME?! I WILL KILL YOU."
"You are not the one in control. You are the one to be controlled."
"I AM IN CONTROL. THIS MIND IS WEAK." The voice hisses again, and I feel Jung Kook shaking as he holds me.
"NO. YOU ARE NOT. THIS MIND IS STRONGER THAN YOU." I defy this energy, and I suddenly feel Jung Kooks hand move down to grip my throat.
"I AM STRONGER THAN YOU." I snap back at it, and his grip suddenly weakens slightly.
"THE OWNER OF THIS BODY CONTROLS YOU." I scream back at it, and the darkness gradually becomes less suffocating.
I pull away from Jung Kook, and he looks at me with tears in his eyes.
He then leans in to hug me tight. I hope I took some of his pain away.
He pulled away from me, but then cocked his head, almost like he could sense something.
We suddenly had two men on horseback approach us, fully kitted out with weapons.
"What are you two doing alone in the forest?" One of them asks. I couldn't recognise their uniforms, but it was some kind of militia. Jung Kook looked petrified. Maybe these are from the East?
"We are just resting. Can I help you? Are you looking for someone?" I smile, and the men stare at me with narrow eyes.
"We are looking for a house."
"There's only abandoned houses in this area. We like going in them to find ghosts!" I squeak, and one of the men rolls their eyes at my childlike response.
"There could be bears in this area. Maybe run home to your parents houses now." He wafts us along, and we both smile and nod to them.
They went the opposite way luckily, and as we cut through another clearing, we found a large barn style building.
I began to walk towards it, but noticed Jung Kook was more reluctant.
"It'll be fine." I smile, encouraging him to join me.
We peak through the window, and I notice someone inside.
He doesn't see me, but he is dancing around in the space.
He was captivating, almost elvish looking, but has a free spirited look about him.
I could stand and watch him all day, but Jung Kook looked uncomfortable with the ogling.
I felt drawn to him, so made the decision to enter the building.
He was humming and prancing around pretty sensually, but as he noticed he was no longer alone, he turned and met eyes with me.
He giggles and comes up to me, biting his lip, then takes my hand in his to dance with him.
He's ethereal. This reminds me of Jimin dancing, but this man had no darkness in him. I didn't feel in danger at all, just free.
The man then closed the gap between us and kissed me.
I stared back at him, surprised, but then he just runs off out the door.
As he leaves, I look at Jung Kook confused.
"Who was that? He's so handsome!" I exasperate, and Jung Kook just wafts his hand at me to shut me up.
I think he knows him.
"Is someone jealous?" I tease him, and he widens his eyes at my call out.
I giggle at his bashful state, then take his hand to leave.
The sun had already hit its peak, so no doubt when we get back it'll be late afternoon.
I don't fancy missing dinner today.