My head bounds like an absolute bitch.
I want to walk away from all
.I want to walk among the grass
without stepping on dog shit.
I want to lay down in the dirt
I want to jump into a dark abyss
called the ocean.
I want it to swallow me whole and never spit me out.
I want it to close around me, protecting and drowning my already dead body.
When I die, bury me with flowers.
Bury me in the ocean.
Drop my ashes into it and let the fish eat it.
I want to disappear.
Let no one have a piece of me when I die.
If you don't want me alive,
why would you want to have the ash of my burnt and deceased corpse?