Tw : mental anorexia
This book is dedicated to all people who have experienced similar things...
I'm running, I've Been trying to run for more than 40 minutes already.
« You are fat »
« You look like a cow »
« if you fall, you're going to ride don't worry »
These sentences and words are the remarks I grew up with.
I am an abnormal girl, in a front of people I pass for the smiling and very happy girl with enormous opposite, I'm sad, I would even say empty, I no longer before. I am enormously complex due to the different stages of my life.
Only, I don't show it....
My first complex arrived, when I went to my father's house on vacation because my mother had my custody, I heard him screaming on the phone about the latter : " go make her run around a lake this kids, put her several thicknesses, I want her to sweat, she lose weight because she is really huge" he found me fat.
Is this really the case ? Will he love me more if I lose some ? Will he be more present ?
I was 6 years old, and it was already the beginning of a story filled with both positive and negative emotions.