This is useless
I'm useless...
Those words never failed to appear on his mind whenever he would often visit the bay, as the deep sea is calm and the sky is clear with its radiant stars and full cycle moon howev the waves of his thoughts was not tamed, no matter how much the world is at peace or balanced, he was not.
And there he was again, on the same place at night on this old sturdy bridge just to get out from the reality
He hated himself, there was no sense of fulfillment, the relief he had once had was long gone for everything that was happening in his life just came crashing down like a tower.
He felt nothing, just empty.
Unwanted, belittled, abandoned and unloved.
If only there was a time that he could go back
He snickered, how pathetic...a twenty seven year old man just sulking his problems over the bridge, watching on his own reflection
It was never been easiy to recover over something you cared for..
"I'm sick of this..." he whispered in pain, trying not to make a scene, he could hardly keep it in
It felt like he was no longer living anymore
His hand gripped hard on the railing, tired eyes stared down at his own reflection..asking desperately for something, a sign, a warning, anything..
And somehow from that moment, if felt suffocatint, as if the waters wanted to get him closer, on the water.. his dead looking eyes was desperately trying to find the solution, if this is even the right thing
Afterall, he did so himself, that everything is meaningless isn't it?
"You know, jumping was never been the solution, right?"
He froze.
That was not his voice
But rather, it was soft and yet sharp
Turning around, the man yelped in surprised as he had realized, he was not alone
The voice came from a woman, just meters away from him, something from the way she presented herself felt so mysterious
Tall, fair complexion, her rosy cheeks and few freckles on her faice, her blue hair danced with the cold breeze
With those strickening Amber colored irises, also with a wary expression towards him, the moon's light shun on her figure, radiatiating a luminescence light
His eyes might have been toying, but...was she glowing?
How long has she been standing there?
Wait, did she heard him crying?
Her eyes relaxed as he backed away from the edge of the bridge
"I'm sorry, I must have ruined your mood, Miss.." the man regretfully looked away as she could tell that his eyes was puffed out from all the crying
However, the woman shook her head not even bothered.
"No, as a matter of fact, I just came on time..." she told him, leaving the man confused at her remark
"Time? Time for what?" He bluntly asked her
She did not say anything for a moment, pausing as her eyes focused back towards the sea
"You seemed lost.." she simply replied
"Oh no, I- ...my place was just a few blocks away-"
"I meant yourself.." she corrected, wrapping her black suit tighter on her shoulders "I could see it from your eyes, you're lost.."
And there was that silent, his mouth keep shut, wondered of how this mysterious woman was able to read him clearly
The silence of awkwardness filled him in, nervously pulling the hem of his black knitted scarf
"I guess I must have been that predictible.."
"Do you want to seek Happiness?" She asked with a sly smile before pursing her crimsom red lips
Happiness?
How can she, His happiness is no longer there with him
Eventhough no matter how much he tried to find it back again
It just all so felt impossible for him
Empty to reconciliate with the woman's question, the man could only stay silent, unable to say his answer
"That's all the answer I need..." she nodded in relief "you can't answer because you are still on the void of choosing..there is still hope for you..."
With her arms reaching out the small parchment she kept inside her suit, the woman silently handed it towards the man
"Please, do consider..." she told him with a smile
It was not just a parchment however, but rather, it resembles a business card written with intricate golden letters and coated with purple shade of color
Lunar dreams and Potions
Such an unusual name for a Business...
Is this some kind of fortune telling or something He wondered to himself
But why would he even bother..
God who knows, maybe the woman was just playing a stupid prank on his vulnerable state
But then again, why would he even bother?
Tired and
But as soon as his gaze shifted back towards the woman
She is no longer in front of him
Was this a trick? He thought to himself as he carefully looked around to say any sight of a blue haired woman hiding from somehwere, but the fact that were on a bridge was impossible for even a mere performer to execute their techniques over a difficult setting
It wasn't even a good thing of jumping down on the water either
He would have heard her splash if that is case
It really looks like she had vanished
Standing alone again on the bridge, the man questioned himself ahaim, if his loathing had caused him hallucinations over this peculiar encounter
He could only sighed sadly as he continued to glance black over the sea
As pair of blue glowing eyes glowed within the darkness, waiting for the right moment.