Everyone is sitting in the hospital waiting room. Grey gave them all the day off to go and see you for the "last time". Or at least before they unplug you.
"Alright you can now go in and see her. The room is small so if only a couple at a time." The doctor says the everyone.
"Let's just going one at a time. Give ourselves a personal moment with her." John says from behind Bailey
"Yeah. I'll go first. Give you guys a warning what you'll be seeing." Grey says. And everyone nods in agreement.
Grey walks into the room and the door shuts softly behind him. As he looks towards you lying in bed his stomach turns. He's seen brutal crime scenes but nothing could prepare him for this. See wires and nozzles hooked up to you. Seeing a friend hooked up to all of this and near death is something no one could prepare anyone for.
He sits at the chair next to you and clear his throat quietly. "You know l/n? I never thought in all my days of know you, which was a lot, that you go out like this." He pauses and chuckles a bit. "And I don't think you'd be too happy know you're going out like this. You would want to go like mid crime scene and very dramatic fight scene" he pauses again holding back and tears. "Just like you told me about. On your first day. You worked hard. You made the station proud. You made the station a better place by just being there. It'll take some getting used. That you may never come back. Or I guess you will never come back." He slowly finishes his sentence before it finally feels real. He stays silent the rest of the time he's in there just holding your hand that at least 3 wire surrounding it. "I wish this never happened happens y/n. I'm gonna miss you." He smiles again but loose tears fall. "I'm gonna miss you like crazy." He lets go of your hand and walks to the door.
As grey opens the door everyone looks up at him. "Who's next?" He asks
Everyone looks at each other before Nyla stands up. "I will." She says walking over to the door. Grey pats her shoulder.
"She doesn't look too good." He whispers in her ear. Nyla nods and continues into the room.
Walking and seeing the same this grey did. Wires and cords running all over you and tubes and nozzles to help your breathe. Nyla looks closer and see bruises and cuts.
"Oh y/n." She says sitting next to you. "You promised you'd come back alive." She pauses "I can't help but think it's my fault. I told you about the case. And I didn't check in after you missed your check in. I'm so sorry." Nyla bows her head down. "The station is a mess without you. Quite literally." She laughs a bit. "Smitty won't vacuum up his mess in the break room. We all thought 'oh y/n will do it'" Nyla pauses. "But you weren't there. You arnt there. You're here in this dreadful room. Your lucky you don't have to look at it all day. It is way too boring." Nyla pauses letting everything sink in. "Well, you've done good l/n. You can rest now." Nyla finishes before walking to the door.
She walks out into the hallway and makes her way to her seat.
The next person to get up is Tim. It took Lucy to convince him that you would want to see him. He walks to through the doorway and closes it behind him. He looks towards your bed and sees all the cords and tubes.
"L/n. I'm so sorry." He says as he scoots the chair to the bed. "I told you to go. I told you to go! I let you go! You didn't want to you but I told you to! I should have know. I shouldn't have let you go.!" He starts ranting. He pauses for a good while as he thinks. "I want you to be ok. I need you to be okay. I won't be able to live with myself if you die because I let you go and I shot you." He cringes slightly at the thought of him shooting you. "I shot you." He suspects mainly to himself. "I shot you and now you going to die." Everything seems to suddenly hit him. He realizes what has happened and what he did. "I'm so sorry y/n! I just- I just need you. You are my best friend. I can't let you go. I can't let you die. I need you."
Tim sits next you in silence for a few minutes before getting up and walking out. Tim goes and sits by Lucy who rubs his back lightly.
John and Bailey decide to go together as Bailey didn't want to see you alone. As you come into Brie of Bailey she pauses and covers her mouth. "John. She looks terrible." She says holding back tears. "I can't. I don't want to see her like this."
"Bailey it might be your only chance to see her again. We can brave through this together." John says as he walks with Bailey to your bed.
Neither of them said much. Just being in the room gave the satisfaction Bailey needed to know that you were entirely dead. John wrapped his arm around her shoulder as they both cried. Bailey more than John.
"So does this mean no more late night gossip with her?" Bailey asks John as she holds back more tears.
"Probably. Which is fine since you guys kicked me out of the house every time." He says slightly laughing.
"Hey." Bailey smacks his arm. "Y/n had good tea on everyone at the station. I'm gonna miss her so much."
"So am I."
Both Bailey and John walk back to the waiting room. Lucy was up pacing back and forth.
"Lucy sit down please. You're making me sick." Tim's says grabbing Lucy's arm.
"No! Y/n is in there practically dead. I don't want to lose her." Lucy says as John and Bailey sit down.
"Then go in and see her." Tim's says
"Does she look bad?" Lucy asks Tim
"She doesn't look great." He says
Lucy walks into your room and sits in the chair next to the bed. " Tim was right. You don't look good." She grabs you hand and holds onto it as she cried. "I was there. I saw you get shot. I saw the people you were working with." She takes a breath. "They weren't good people." She pauses again to take a breath. "You can't leave us. We need you. Jackson John and I need you. We learn so much from you" Lucy says before just sitting with you. Soon the door slowly opens as Jackson walks in.
"I didn't want to see her without you. Or alone" he says as he pulls over a chair next to Lucy.
Lucy lays her head on Jackson shoulder. "I'm gonna miss her."
" you and me both." Jackson says "you know y/n was the one who taught me to have dog treats on me at all times."
"She taught me to be a good undercover cop. We are barely not rookies and I've already got to go on a few cases because of her."
"She was like a TO for everyone at the station." Jackson says standing up to look at you closer. "I'm really going to miss her."
Jackson helps Lucy out of her chair before they both walk back to where everyone was. Everyone stays quiet before the doctor came back out.
"Has everyone gotten the chance to go in there that wanted to?"
Everyone looks around as Angela. "Lopez go see her." Grey says to Angela
"I don't think I want to. I feel like once I do that means she really is gone." She says looking at her feet.
"Angela go see her. You and her were partners. You would want her to think you forgot about her." Grey says convincing her
"Alright." She says getting up and walking to the door. She walks in but instead of sitting she decided to stand.
"Y/n why did you have to go on to undercover work. You should have been a detective like me." Angela says grabbing your hand. " I miss the days we got to spend together. The academy especially. All the times we messed with Tim while we were rookies. I miss that. And I'm going to miss you." She grabs the chair and sits down. Still holding onto your hand. She sits like that for a few minutes before a machine hooked up to you starts beeping. Angles stands up out of her chair and runs to the hallway to call the doctor. The run in and surround you trying to figure out what is wrong.
"Angela what happened?" Tim asks as he walks next to her
"I don't know." She says
After what felt like days it was only an hour the doctor comes out to everyone in the waiting room.
"You all are her for y/n l/n correct?" He asks looking at grey
"Every one of us." Grey reply's
The doctor looks at his clipboard then back at everyone. "One of the tubes supplying y/n with oxygen to help her breath stopped working. It took away all of her airflow for 10 minutes. And by the time we fixed y/n was already deceased."
The doctor stands there as everyone is in shock. Grey stands up and walks out of the hospital. Tim follows shortly after. John and Bailey stay sitting comforting each other. Lucy stars at the wall as she contemplates what just happened.
Angela stands up to go find Tim. She walks to the side of the hospital and finds both tim and grey. She sits down at the small table with them.
"This is hard especially for you two so if you need some time off I get it." Grey says seeing Angela.
"She wasn't supposed to die yet." Tim says
"She was never supposed to die." Angela says back
A few dats pass and everyone is back at the station and working. Grey walks out of his office and into the roll call room with the whole station behind him.
As everyone sits down he stands up in the from. "If you were unaware of the recent events that took place this week you wouldn't know that one of our own has passed away. Y/n l/n dies this week after being in a coma for a few weeks. If we could all a black strip to our her death."
Everyone but the black strip over their badge. "I know this is hard for everyone. And it will be for a few days. Y/n was a great asset to our team and a great friend to everyone. But I need everyone to do their best this week. Do good and catch the bad guys." Grey says before walking back to his office and everyone goes to work.