When I look up, Jungkook is sitting quietly at the end of the bed. I don't know how long he's been there.
"Hi," he says, his eyes glowing with compassion and concern.
"Hi."
"So, I'm going fishing with your dad, Mr. Bhuwakal and Bambam?" he asks.
I nod.
"Okay. Let's go eat. Let him sleep in peace."
I frown. I don't want to leave him.
"Lisa, he's in a coma. I've given our cell numbers to the nurses here. If there's any change, they'll call us. We'll eat, check into a hotel, rest up, then come back this evening."
The suite at the Heathman looks just as I remember it. How often have I thought about that first night and morning I spent with Jeon Jungkook, now my husband? I stand in the entrance to the suite, paralyzed. Jeez, it all started here.
"Home away from home," says Jungkook, his voice soft, putting my briefcase down beside one of the overstuffed couches.
"Do you want a shower? A bath? What do you need, Lisa?"
Jungkook gazes at me, and I know he's lost - my lost boy dealing with events beyond his control. He's been withdrawn and contemplative all afternoon. This is a situation he cannot manipulate and predict. This is real life in the raw, and he's kept himself from that for so long, he's exposed and helpless now. My sweet, sheltered Fifty Shades.
"A bath. I'd like a bath." I murmur, aware that keeping him busy will make him feel better, useful even. Oh, Jungkook - I'm numb and I'm cold and I'm scared, but I'm so glad you're here with me.
"Bath. Good. Yes." He strides into the bedroom and out of sight into the palatial bathroom. A few moments later, the roar of water gushing to fill the tub echoes from the room.
Finally, I galvanize myself to follow him into the bedroom. I'm dismayed to see several bags from Nordstrom on the bed. Jungkook reenters, sleeves rolled up, tie and jacket discarded.
"I sent Taylor to get some things. Nightwear. You know," he says, eyeing me warily.
Of course he did. I nod my approval. Where is Taylor?
"Oh, Lisa," Jungkook murmurs. "I've not seen you like this. You're normally so brave and strong."
I don't know what to say. I merely gaze wide-eyed at him. I have nothing, nothing to give right now. I think I'm in shock. I wrap my arms around myself, trying to keep the pervading cold at bay, even though I know it's a fruitless task as this cold comes from within. Jungkook pulls me into his arms.
"Baby, he's alive. His vital signs are good. We just have to be patient," he murmurs. "Come." Releasing me, he takes my hand and leads me into the bathroom. Gently, he slips my jacket off my shoulders and places it on the bathroom chair, then turning back, he undoes the buttons on my shirt.
The water is deliciously warm and fragrant, the smell of lotus blossom heavy in the warm, sultry air of the bathroom. I lie between Jungkook's legs, my back to his front, my feet resting on top of his. We're both quiet and introspective, and I'm finally feeling warm. Intermittently Jungkook kisses my hair as I absentmindedly pop the bubbles in the foam. His arm is wrapped around my shoulders.
"You didn't get into the bath with Leila, did you? That time you bathed her?" I ask. He stiffens and snorts, his hand tightening on my shoulder where it rests.
"Um . . . No." He sounds astounded.
"I thought so. Good."
He tugs gently at my hair knotted in a crude bun, tilting my head around so he can see my face. "Why do you ask?"
I shrug. "Morbid curiosity. I don't know . . . seeing her this week."
His face hardens. "I see. Less of the morbid." His tone is reproachful.
"How long are you going to support her?
"Until she's on her feet. I don't know." He shrugs. "Why?"
"Are there others?"
"Others?"
"Exes who you support."
"There was one, yes. No longer though."
"Oh?"
"She was studying to be a doctor. She's qualified now and has someone else."
"Another Dominant?"
"Yes."
"Leila says you have two of her paintings," I whisper.
"I used to. I didn't really care for them. They had technical merit, but they were too colorful for me. I think Jimin has them. As we know, he has no taste."
I giggle, and he wraps his other arm around me, sloshing water over the side of the bath.
"That's better," he whispers and kisses my temple.
"He's marrying my best friend."
"Then I'd better shut my mouth," he says.
I feel more relaxed after our bath. Wrapped in my soft Heathman robe, I gaze at the various bags on the bed. Jeez, this must be more than nightwear. Tentatively, I peek into one. A pair of jeans and a pale blue hooded sweatshirt, my size. Holy cow . . . Taylor's bought a whole weekend's worth of clothes, and he knows what I like. I smile, remembering this is not the first time he's shopped for clothes for me when I was at the Heathman.
"Apart from harassing me at Claytons, have you ever actually gone into a store and just bought stuff?"
"Harassing you?"
"Yes. Harassing me."
"You were flustered, if I recall. And that young boy was all over you. What was his name?"
"Paul."
"One of your many admirers."
I roll my eyes at him, and he smiles a relieved, genuine smile and kisses me.
"There's my girl," he whispers. "Get dressed. I don't want you getting cold again."
"Ready," I murmur. Jungkook is working on the Mac in the study area of the suite. He's dressed in black jeans and a gray cable-knit sweater, and I'm wearing the jeans, the hoodie, and a white T-shirt.
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