I don't know if it's just my jealousy talking, but there's something about Hwang Bora that makes me feel a bit weird towards her. And it looks like it's only me who can see it, because my friends seem to have warmed up to her faster than I expected, even faster than how they all become close with Rina.
It's only been a day, but they're all acting real close with her now.
"You have the same earrings as Yumi. So cute!" Jiwoo squealed happily, and I was a bit shocked, but smiled nevertheless. Why did she buy the same earrings as mine after asking about it yesterday? Nah. I'm just being bitter and annoying. I really need to be nicer. Besides, it's not like I'm the only person who's allowed to have these pair of earrings.
"I wore it better though! I make it look expensive, meanwhile Yumi... Kidding!" Bora joked before giggling, and I could only fake laugh alongside my friends, since I don't really like her jokes. Maybe it's just me, but her jokes since earlier felt like she was making fun of me. I'm not that sensitive, but I'm also not dumb when someone's outwardly being mean to me.
I glanced at Bora's smiling face as she's busy talking with Shotaro, and I can't help but think that maybe I'm the problem. She looks really nice, and she looks really innocent too. There's no way that there's hidden intentions in whatever she's saying and doing, right?
"Why did you even make her come here? I don't like her," Wonbin suddenly blurted out next to me, and I was shocked because he wasn't the type to judge, rather he's one of the nicest in our friend group.
Maybe it's not just my jealousy talking after all. Because even Wonbin noticed that something's up.
"What makes you say that? She's nice." I argued, but Wonbin just rolled his eyes at me before turning his attention to his phone again.
"She reminds me of Anton's cheater ex. She's acting too nice and smiling like an angel while saying mean things to you. I'm not blind, Yumi. That girl is targeting you from the start." Wonbin argued back, and I wasn't able to say anything back because I still need to have more evidence to prove whatever me and Wonbin were talking about.
Besides, it's been just a day that Bora's with us. She has other friends too, so she might go to them tomorrow or even later.
That's what I thought.
And that's what I secretly wanted.
It's been a week now, but Bora has still been hanging out with us. And for the first time, Wonbin isn't together with us girls because he made it evident that he doesn't like our new company. I've been trying my best to have him be close to her, but he's Wonbin, if he doesn't like someone, even breathing the same air as that person will become a huge issue for him.
That's why he's been hanging out with Eunseok right now, instead of us like what he normally does.
"Anton! I listened to your tracks last night, and all of it were so good! You really need to release them soon, since I'm sure many people will tune in," I told Anton as soon as he reached our spot. He was smiling from ear to ear while listening to me talk about his songs that I can't help but smile after all my rambling too.
"I'm so proud of how much you improved, Anton. You're really the best at what you do," I told him once more, since I really am telling the truth. Anton really is the best in everything he wants to do. May it be swimming, playing the cello or producing songs.
He's that freaking gifted.
"My favorite would be the one with the cello background sounds! It was you playing, right?" I excitedly asked, and I saw Anton nodding, still with a huge smile on his face.
"Praise me more, yuyu. It feels nice hearing it from you." Anton whispered, and he already has a teasing smile plastered on his lips, making me realize that I've already praised him more than enough. This guy really knows how to ruin a good mood.
"You've barely started, but your head's already getting big." I scolded him in a joking manner, and Anton could only laugh out loud.
"Since you gave my songs a chance, can I read your works too? If it's alright with you." I was shocked by his question. I don't really like the idea of any of my friends reading my poems or novels or even short stories. It's kinda weird, and I'm scared of what their reactions could be.
But, maybe letting Anton read them wouldn't be a bad idea, right?
"Sure, I'll send you a link later." I told him.
"Thanks, yuyu. I can't wait to read them, since of course, I'm the inspo for the male leads." Anton teased again, making me groan because my joke is being used against me now. This guy really is an older brother, with how he's teasing me, it's like he's made to make fun of those younger than him. Poor Andy.
"Hi, guys!" I was shocked when Bora once again found her way between me and Anton by sliding in the middle. She was too close, so I moved away again to give her more space. I also saw Anton doing the same, but he still has a friendly smile on his face to greet Bora who was currently looking at him.
"Anton, I can't wait to see you later. Should we head to the resto together?" Bora asked excitedly, and I got extremely curious after hearing what she just said. Resto? Together? What is the meaning of this?
"I'm not sure about that, my dad said that I should head home first so that I can change before going there. I'm sorry, Bora." Anton answered, and I fought the urge to react when Bora pouted and whined.
"But I wanna go with you. Maybe I can come with you first at your house. Is that alright?" Bora asked in a cute way, and I can see Wonbin in the corner acting like he was going to throw up from what he just witnessed.
"I guess so. But, I'll be driving with Yumi later since we're in the same street. Is that okay with you, Yumi?" No. That's what I wanted to say in front of Anton and Bora, but of course I had to smile and say the exact opposite.
"It's fine." I answered shortly, but a smile was still on my face to cover up my bitterness. Ever since Bora started hanging out with us, she keeps on doing this, I don't know if she's doing it on purpose, or she's just really dense.
"Driving who? I'm driving my sister, Anton." I heard Sungchan, who was only able to come to our usual hang out spot 30 minutes late than the rest of us since he just got out of a meeting with his team.
"Shut up, Sungchan." I can't help but blurt out since he's only making it easier for both Bora and Anton to be alone together. Wait. Why am I acting this way? I really need to stop acting so immature every time I get jealous, it's not cute at all.
"Hi! I'm Hwang Bora. It's nice to finally meet the famous Jung Sungchan." Even before I can introduce Bora to my older brother, she was already shaking his hand. Well, that's fine then, makes my life easier without the need to open my mouth.
"Hi, I didn't know we had a new recruit here." Sungchan joked, and I saw Bora giggling before hitting his arm playfull, making me raise an eyebrow. I even heard Anton who's beside me chuckling, so I glanced at him, confused.
"You're being adorable right now, yuyu." That's what Anton said, before looking at his laptop again, while I just excused myself to go to the girls while Bora and my brother were still busy talking.
"Girlie, you need to make her stop coming here. I can already sense it. She's a two faced bitch." I was shocked when those were the words that came out of Dohee's mouth as soon as I was in front of them.
"I don't really like the idea of hating girls, but there's something about Bora that isn't sitting right with me. Her jokes and how she talks about you is weird." This time it was Rina. The women supporter. The feminist. She said that, which means something really is weird with Bora.
So, it wasn't just me and Wonbin then.
"And it looks like she has a tiny bit of crush on Anton. I saw it in her eyes, Yumi." Jiwoo told me with a serious tone.
"We acted nice to her to see what she's up to, and I can already assume it's up to no good. She's kinda badmouthing you a lot, but would brush it off by smiling and acting innocent. I don't like her, at all. We need her to stop coming here," Dohee explained, and this time I couldn't help but agree with them.
"Why is she targeting me though? Shouldn't she thank me because I was kind to her?" I can't help but ask them.
"We don't know the exact reason, that's why we need her gone before she does something bad."
"She told us earlier that it's weird we're friends with someone like you and her tone was weird, I swear! But she brushed it off by saying it's just a joke. I'm telling you, she's bad news." Rina explained, and I can't help but feel kinda offended by what they told me.
Why am I always hated while the people around me are praised and loved? Which I'm grateful that my friends are loved, but I'm also really trying my best to be likeable by acting less of a bitch, but I guess it can't be helped at all for people to not like me.
"She asked us what's up between you and Anton, and I said that you 2 are in love with each other jokingly, and that made Bora look like she's about to kill someone. I'm telling you, girl. That Bora girl likes Anton, and she secretly hates you because you're close to him. That's my theory." Dohee explained and she acted as if she just figured out the whole puzzle, while Jiwoo and Rina could only agree to whatever her theory was.
"No, that can't be. Why would she even hate me? She looks way better than me, heck, I'm sure she can even pull Anton faster than I can if she tries." I denied, because I am still hoping that maybe this was all just a misunderstanding. I really hate conflicts.
"Just be careful around her, okay? I don't want you to get hurt." Jiwoo reminded me, and she sounded so concern, so I gave her a smile and a nod to assure her that I'll be careful.
"What are we gonna do now if she still keeps on hanging out with us?" I asked, curious, because it looks like they all also don't like Bora anymore. Wonbin would be freaking thrilled.
"What's the best way to deal with a two-faced bitch? Be a bitch as well." Rina answered proudly, causing Dohee to laugh, she's even clapping her hand, while Jiwoo on the other hand just shook her head, not even trying to stop Rina anymore with whatever her plan is because she's already done with them.
"Just don't let Bora's jokes get to you, okay? You are our precious friend, and nothing will ever change that." Jiwoo reminded me, a gentle smile on her face, making me get up before giving her a hug. I really love Jiwoo's words, she's like the older sister I never had even though we're only a year apart, she's so mature and such a motherly figure with how warm and kindhearted she is.
"Thanks, Jiwoo. You're the best, don't tell the others that." I joked, and I heard her chuckling after.
Hours went by, and it was finally time to go home after a long day at uni. And I was really glad that Sungchan was once again called for a meeting, and thus, I'll be riding with Anton instead of him.
Sungchan was sulking before leaving me with Anton, while I just stuck my tongue out at him.
Ha! I won!
But I celebrated too soon. When we reached Anton's car in the parking lot, both me and Bora aimed for the passenger seat. I thought she'd give up, but I was shocked by what she said.
"Are you his girlfriend or something? No, right? So gimme the passenger seat," she ordered. And she was smiling innocently while saying those things.
I just smiled, before stepping back. I don't want any conflict. It's better to let her have her way than have her throwing a tantrum here, since she seems like the type to get angry when she doesn't get what she wants.
"Oh," I heard Anton muttering when she saw that it was Bora who was in the passenger seat, he even glanced at me worriedly, but I just gave him a smile to assure him that it's alright. It's not like I even have the sole right on his passenger seat.
And what Bora said earlier struck me a little. She's right. I'm not Anton's girlfriend, so I have to remind myself that I literally have no freaking right to be acting so immature right now. So what if Bora likes Anton as well? It's not like I can stop her from liking him. And again, it'll all be up to Anton on who he'll choose.
I'm just his admirer after all.
"I can't wait to see Aunt again. She's so perfect, I wish I have a mom like her." Bora started a conversation, so I listened. I really wasn't aware that they already know each other's family beforehand. I guess Anton really is famous among other students, I just keep on forgetting about it because we've always been together.
"Do you remember when Andy spilt the drink on you? That was so funny, can't wait to see him again."
"Yeah, the brat didn't even say sorry to me and straight up started laughing. You even joined him!" Anton couldn't help but laugh alongside Bora after Bora brought up a memory.
"Oh, and remember this one time too when..." They kept on talking, and it was mostly about memories that I can't really join in since I don't know anything about it. So, I decided to just stay silent here in the back while the two were busy taking a trip down memory lane.
I watched the both of them, and I can't help but think that they kinda look good together. Bora is good looking, and just the type you'd want to protect with how adorable and tiny she is now that she's next to Anton who's a giant.
She really is like Anton's ex cheater girlfriend. Not that tall, not that short but have a good height difference with Anton, good at talking and initiating conversations, confident, adorable and really pretty. Literally Anton's type. That's why I can't help but feel jealous because I'm far from what Anton likes in a girl.
Maybe, confessing to Anton was a wrong move. If only I shut my mouth, then maybe I wouldn't be here right now watching him talk to a girl who's really close to his ideal type. I might be watching another love story unfold in front of me, and I might actually breakdown if that's what gonna happen.
I'm only human. I feel emotions. And despite hating this emotion called jealousy, I really can't help but feel it despite how petty and annoying I sound right now.
I can feel my heart sinking as I continue to watch them talk, and Anton was even busy looking at her at a red light. Why does he keep on staring at her? Why does he laugh so much at her jokes that aren't even that funny? Why can't he stare at me instead? God. I'm being so selfish right now for wishing that he'd only look at me.
I hate this feeling so much. This is bad. I am becoming selfish of someone who isn't even mine in the first place.
to be continued. . .
thoughts so far ??? ;)
yumi hates conflicts, but her writer loves them
im terribly sorry yumi HAHAHAHA