Y/N's POV
It's been about two weeks since I started truly recovering... I've been eating well, and tomorrow I'm starting work again, I've really missed Soobin, Yeonjun, Beomgyu, Taehyun and Kai... Tae's also been taking better care of himself, his cheeks are slowly getting fuller again and he doesn't tremble like he used to... we go for evening walks and talk openly about our feelings... in all honesty, everything we went through with Saemi brought the both of us so much closer than we were before... There were certain things I wasn't ready for yet, like being tangled up in bed... or having too many guests over at once... the latter was difficult to avoid since we always had family members and friends from both sides pouring in for visits... they wanted to send their condolences and all that, but honestly I wished they'd just leave us alone to heal on our own... I just needed Tae, he's all I need for now...
Tae's POV
We're both on our way out of this horrible stage of our lives... our therapist said that if we keep this up, we'll be able to live our lives better soon... I've noticed a huge improvement in my performance as well... no more shaking and voice cracks during live stages... and my breathing is going back to normal... some days Y/N and I would just sit on the couch and talk about Saemi, we've learned to think of her as an important chapter in our lives. She made us stronger and brought us closer together... some days we'd cry together, but that's part of healing right? Most of our memories of Y/N being pregnant with Saemi were happy ones... those are the ones we're going to hold on to... Saemi's room is just the same... some days I would sit on the floor and cry there so that Y/N wouldn't see me... I knew she wouldn't find me there because she refused to set foot in the room... Mom (Mindy) also suggested that we clean that room out and turn it into something else, she said it'd only hinder our healing to kept full with Saemi's things... so I told Y/N that I we should donate all of Saemi's stuff to a nearby orphanage and turn the room into a study... I brought the idea up while we were at work but she said we'd further discuss it at home...
Y/N's POV
Tae wants to turn Saemi's room into a study, but I personally have other plans for the room... I'll have to discuss it with him later though... besides that, I've been enjoying work... the first day I got back the boys (TXT) ran up to me and asked me why I've been gone for so long and where Saemi was... I had to explain it in a gentle way that they could understand... they gave me hugs and tried to console me... I really did miss them... after all that we got straight into work, and they were doing so well... I'm sure they'll be able to debut soon...
Timeskip at home
Tae and I sat together in the dining room at the table... we were eating dinner, made by me, I've recently enrolled in cooking classes... I seem to be the youngest one there, I mean not many 20-year-olds are married and have a husband to look after...
Tae: *takes a bite of the food* where did you order this from? It's really good... *continues to eat*
Y/N: is it that good? *takes a bite* mmm... it is good... I made it Love...
Tae: you made it? Nah...
Y/N: hey *playfully whacks his arm* I really did...
Tae: wow... *pecks your lips* how is that possible...
Y/N: I've been taking cooking classes lately...
Tae: *takes another bite* oh, so that's why you've been coming home late recently... why didn't you tell me?
Y/N: I wanted it to be a surprise...
Tae: *smiles* well, I am definitely surprised
We both enjoyed our dinner and talked before we went to the room... Tae was sitting on his side of the bed with his glasses on while reading a book about mental wellbeing... he always looks so cute with his specs
Y/N: I'm going to take a shower ok...
Tae: mmm *still reading his book*
I had a thoughtful shower, I was still pondering on about Saemi's room... Tae had already showered so when I came out I sat next to him on the bed and said I wanted to talk to him...
Y/N: Tae? Can we speak for a bit...
Tae: *takes off his glasses and places them along with his book on the nightstand* sure love... is something bothering you?
Y/N: well, I suppose you could say that... it's about Saemi's room
Tae: sure, let's hear what you have in mind...
Y/N: well... firstly I know we discussed during lunch that you want to donate Saemi's things and turn her room into a study...
Tae: yeah?
Y/N: but, what if we need that room... just the way it is I mean...
Tae: What? What do you mean...
Y/N: I know we're just starting to recover, and I might be asking for a bit much... but are you ready to try... again?
Tae's POV
I couldn't believe my ears, I wasn't 100% sure that I knew what she was hinting at, but I had a pretty good idea...
Tae: For kids? Try for kids?
She nodded sheepishly... Saemi was unexpected, and I thought we'd be much older when we plan to have kids... I'm not complaining, but I'm not quite sure of my feelings on the topic... it's a bit sudden... so I took her hands in mine, they were resting in her lap... I looked her in the eyes and gave her a sincere answer...
Tae: Y/N, I definitely want kids, there's no doubt, but don't you want to wait a bit more... don't you feel it's a bit soon...
She looked a bit disappointed...
Y/N: uhm... it is a bit soon I suppose... but I realised, during the time that I was pregnant, that I really wouldn't mind being a young mom... and seeing you be so protective and the way you took care of me even when you were just barely holding on yourself, I realised that you would be an amazing dad... I'd never want anyone else to father my kids...
When she said that I felt my heart melt... was I really that good? I think the only thing holding me back was the fact that I over considered my age, I already knew that Y/N would be a great mom, I mean she's great with TXT, but I wasn't so sure of myself... could I really take care of a baby? I know that a father is essential in a kid's life and that made me scared to mess up...
Tae: Y/N, do you really think I could be a good dad?
Y/N: *nods your head* you'd make a terrific dad, Tae...
Tae: Ok, then... maybe give it a few months, just take some time to get your health 100 % and do things you couldn't while you were pregnant, cause 9 months is a long time... let's go to theme parks and things like that... and don't worry.... I'll get you pregnant as soon as we're both ready *boops your nose with his finger*
Y/N: *giggles* stop being weird *gets under the covers*
Tae: I'm not being weird... *chuckles*
Y/N: so we're going to keep Saemi's room the way it is?
Tae: mmm, for now... we'll change it a bit later, I mean... I don't want our future kid to grow up in a room that was made for Saemi...
Y/N: mmm, let's do that later then...
We've had a rough first year of marriage... we had those 2 weeks of our honeymoon, then the 8 months that Y/N carried Saemi and the 2 months it's taken to recover from the pain Saemi left us with... we got married in February and it's already the end of December...my birthday is in 4 days...They say the 1st year of marriage is tough, but I don't think it's supposed to be as tough as ours was... the year really flew by, Y/N was pregnant during her 21st birthday so we just had a small party... we're now in December and it'll be our 1st anniversary as a married couple in 2 months...
Y/N's POV
It was Tae's 22nd Birthday 4 days later, and I threw a small house party for him... we just had the rest of the members, Clare and his parents over...I should let you know that Mrs Kim and I, or Eomma as I now call her, have become close... she's taught me how to cook all of Tae's favourite dishes and she visits often as well... she's actually like a mother to me and she treats me like her own daughter... The party was really fun... but when everyone went home I gave Tae his present... actually he's waited a while for me, I haven't really shared my body with him in a very very long time because of being pregnant and then depressed... he was hesitant at first, but he eventually relaxed and did what his heart desired... I really forgot how much I enjoyed this...
Tae's POV
It was our 1st Anniversary 2 months later, so I decided to surprise Y/N with a 1 week's trip to Switzerland, she absolutely loved it... she loves the cold weather and I have learned to love it too... when you're cold, the body heat of the one you love is really comforting, way more than a blanket could ever be... so we spent some time there and not too long after, we told everyone the news, "Y/N IS PREGNANT", we hadn't previously told anyone about our plans and so they were really shocked, some congratulated us, some judged us and some made their worries known... but it's okay, we're happy as long as we have each other... we can get over any obstacle because we've learnt how to handle pain and be there for each other...
Y/N and Tae's POV
Most couples would say that this is where their story ends, but for us, ours was only beginning... We've passed Our THEN, we're living Our NOW, and we can't wait to experience our FOREVER...
...THE END...
Or Should I Say
...THE BEGINNING...
Author's POV
Thank you for reading this book, unfortunately, it must come to an end... I do hope that you all have a sense of closure now that Tae and Y/N are happy once again... Don't forget to Comment and Vote... bye for now 🙂↕️