Sometimes I see things clearly
I see them for what they are
And yet with the ones I know dearly
I'm hardly on a par
But this internal battle
From which I long to be free
Continues on, it tarries
For a long time within me
You called my name, I've come to you
Time, and time again
And now that I've grown used to that,
My heart gets used to pain
I hurt you, I know I do
But you won't let me leave
It hurts me to see you hurt
But I can't help you heal
Time alone will tell us all
If relaxation becomes better
Than failed attempts and measured tries
And pillows that get wetter
I'm not depressed, I know I'm not
But my sky is still grey
Sometimes it rains, and sometimes not,
While I'm still finding my way
"Keep your head up, it'll be okay."
Yeah, sure, no doubt about that
I try my best to be okay
Despite the chains of where I'm at
I've been with you for so long
It's time I let you go
But I look at you, and within me,
I wish to see you grow
But watching you hurts
Because I hurt you
But letting go hurts even more
Although my pain is you
I've tried this and I've tried that,
Until I fell out of luck
We're not giving up, we're all we've got
So, dear self, I guess we're stuck