I Don't Know Yet

you can still laugh

I am not sure if I am liking how life is turning out to be
Some parts I adore, it's like living every hour in a second,
But that's alone for those parts,
There are other times when I sit and think about if  there are people who hate me?
And sometimes I try to hate them back,
But I would rather defend their hatred for me 100 times than hate him once.
There are times when I am with my best friend and I laugh so hard my stomach hurts,
I make silly jokes and laugh at even sillier ones but when life feels like it's not normal anymore or maybe it never was.
I still stand there
And
I think, it's okay you can still live,
more over you can still laugh.