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Shehnaaz's pov
I saw my baba after so long....I am already burdened under so many emotions that I really want someone to hold me n console me.....
n here I saw my baba
first thing come into my mind was he will give me warmth for which I am craving for....I want to share all my hidden worries wid him...he used to console me when I was a kid .. hugging me... caressing my hairs...I still remember he didn't eat food if I skipped my meals......
offcourse he is my baba n I think every girls father's treated like this...wid all love n care wid there childs....
I suddenly feel urge raised in me for his protection n I ran n hug him
I utter whatever come in my heart
Shehnaaz:- apne sath le chalo baba
I said this because now this city is suffocating me....plus I don't have any place to stay here
I want my family back.....may they can help me suppress my feelings for sidharth
as soon as possible I wanted to leave from here
I can bear any pain but his hollow eyes for me will kill my soul.....his words are still ringing in my head....
" I lost my shehnaaz"...." you r not one wid I fallen in love" " I am sorry that I kiss you"
this words gives sharp needles piercing pain in my heart
I slowly broke the hug n look at my hero...coz I still believe he will help me in this situation
Raghu :- tu yaha kaise
his emotionless words made me stood at my place
meeti :- mausaji wo aj hi aai hai yaha....
my father look towards Kunal n then meeti
Raghu :- tu chal yaha se
n he grab my wrist harshly.....
pulling me outside the house he utter in his angry tone
I get shocked at first coz he never used that tone on me....
Raghu :- tere bare m Kunal ji ko sach pata lag gaya toh wo meeti k liye accha nahi hoga...kisne kaha yaha aane k liye Haan
he is meeting me after 6 months n this is what he speak
Shehnaaz:- b..baba unhe pata hai sab aur m ab wo..baccha nahi raha wo ..mera
Raghu :- muze nahi Jan na kya hua tere sath....tu mar chuki hai aisa kaha hai tha humne sabse...iska matlab tu mar chuki hai shehnaaz hamare liye
Shehnaaz:- baba lekin mera wo baccha....jis liye mene ghar choda wo faisla liya ab wo nahi raha baba...muze apke sath aana hai....m app logo k sath rehna chahti hu...meri choti behen...maa aap...phele k jaise....m thak gayi hu yaha ab...sath le chaliye
I utter holding tears in my eyes n look towards him wid hope
but he broke me down more....
Raghu :- aj teri jo bhi halat hai usse ye nahi badal jayega ki...tu wow paap kr chuki hai jisko krne se phele ek ladki sau bar sochti hai... tune wo ghar apni marzi se choda tha.. aur ab uske darwaje tere liye hamesha band rahenge ....kis muh se leke jau tumhe waha..logo ko kehne dekho meri beti jo bhag gayi thi aur mene kaha tha ki mar gayi hai wo aj waps aa gai firse hamare bich rehne....kya asar padega teri beheno p tera....wo bhi teri tarah bhaaghi banegi...logo k tane sunne milenge agar unhe pata laga ki tu thakuron k sath ....kehte hue bhi sharam aa rahi hai
Shehnaaz: baba lekin
Raghu :- tu yaha nahi rahegi...jiske bhi sath thi inte dono se ussi k pass ja ...meeti k ghar m zeher mat ghol...ek ehsan kr ab aur badnam mat kr....
n he joined his palms infront of me n I take few steps back
again my hopes shattered
but here I realised whenever this world hurts me only Sidharth have power to heal me.....only he cares for me....only he loves me...only he treats me so well....baki sabhi n ab tak itna hurt Kiya hai ki kabhi kabhi lagta hai ye log bhi Sidharth jaise q nahi ho sakte.....jis tarah wo meri care krta hai koi aur q nahi dikha sakta wahi care....jaise wo meri izzat krta hai....bilkul shehzadion ki tarah rakhta hai....mere har nakhre ko utatha hai waise koi q nahi kr pata.....sirf usko hi q m acchi lagti hu aur baki duniya q muze bar bar hurt krti hai.....
I look my father's face wid holding pain
Shehnaaz:- m waha nahi Jana chati baba...mere rehne ki koi jagah nahi hai...tarah kha k hi sahi muze apne....
Raghu :- ab pachta ke kya fayda ye tab sochna chaiye tha jab humne kaha tha uss bacche ko girane k liye....toh aj sab sahi hota
Shehnaaz:- nahi hota ...aap sbadi Kara dete na meri uss mukhiya ji ke bete se...
Raghu :- shadi krke khush rehti
Shehnaaz:- fir jab varsha ki shadi ho rahi thi tab aap q itne dukhi the.....
n my father's eyes widen
Raghu :- kaise pata laga tumhe
Shehnaaz:- aai thi m waha baba bas apse mil nahi payi....
Raghu :- accha hua samne nahi aai warna mar dete mukhiya ji zuth bolne k zurm m....aur ek bata du...varsha tere se choti hai isliye m.dukhi tha uss din...lekin bhagwan ki kripa hui teri maa ki kisi saheli n usko paiso Koi madat ki aur wo humne unhe de diye....jo
Shehnaaz:- jo mere saude k the....haina
I feel hurt listening his words but now I want to clear evrything
Shehnaaz:- chup q ho gaye baba....agar ghar se nahi nikalti toh aj meri uss gatiya insaan se shadi ho jati haina...
Raghu :- ghatiya nahi hai wo log izzatdar hai....ha thode bahot Kami hai kisme nahi hoti
Shehnaaz:- nahi hoti baba...m janti hu ek insaan ko jisme koi kami nahi hai....
Raghu :- ye kosna Naya natak shuru kiya hai tune.....kahi koi Naya ladka toh nahi fasa liya
Shehnaaz:- laugh loudly
apne aap fas gaya wo bechara.....
Raghu : dekh chori bachpan se bahot lad se rakha qki
Shehnaaz:- ek din muze bechna tha haina....
kitne acche se dikhawa kiya na apne aur maa ne k abhi bhi muze aise lagta hai ki aap dono mere maa baba ho....kaash wo pyar sach hota baba
Raghu :- teri maa ne jo kiya wo galat tha lekin muze uss shadi koi burai nahi dikhi thi Shehnaz....tu samj nahi payegi qki nadan hai...nadani m hi aake tune Mumbai aane ka faisla kiya hai...ab nadani m kisi aur ka Ghar barbad mat kr....chali ja yahse..
meeti aur Kunal ki acche hai isliye tumhe Jane nahi denge lekin tum janti ho tumari Massi ko pata laga toh wo meeti pe gussa hongi teri harkaton k waise sab nafarat krte hai ab tuzse Shehnaaz...
aj mil gayi ...lekin aj ke bad apna chehra bhi mat dikhana....
n after saying this he left from there
n saw his back saying loudly to my heart that
I again expected from wrong person
I realised I my whole life the only thing happened wid me good is Sidharth
there is no single person who love me like him.....
I got only betrayal from everyone....my step mother....father then sukesh
only he heal me where my whole life was piece of broken glass
but poor fate....I can't be his....I silently wish that why he didn't meet me before sukesh....if I supposed to made mistake then why that not happened wid sidharth at least he would not cheated me...the gem of person he is...he will never think to cheated me......but they said badluck can't be get changed....it already written that my heart will broken by sukesh thakur n that happened n may be coz of little deed my good luck have written Sidharth's presence
I suddenly feel so much respect raised in me for my man who have huge heart that he dare to fix my broken pieces of heart although I hurted him so much everytime he just try to heal me wid his love....now my respect for him is increased
I wipe my face n decided to left this place also.. right in this same moment
before I enter inside the room to collect my bag I feel meeti pull my wrist n stopped me....
meeti :- baith kuch bat krni hai
n I turned wid lowered gaze coz feeling ashamed....the moment I stepped here I am just creating scenes n making them embarassed coz of me
meeti :- kaha ja rahi hai
Shehnaaz:- kahi bhi....baba kehte hai k m Teri liye pareshani banugi.....jo ki m hu....sirf uske liye m angel thi zaruri nahi hai na ki har koi muze apna lucky charm hi samje.....duniya k liye m aj bhi wahi gatiya Shehnaaz hu...characterless aur wahi rahungi jab tak m mar nahi jati
Kunal :- aur uske liye
Shehnaaz:- uske liye....jaan hu m uski....wo bahot nazzon se rakhta tha muze jiju.....uske jaisa koi insaan nahi hai iss duniya m....itna accha hai ki mere sath sath mere gamo ko bhi apna liya tha usne....
Kunal :- toh fir q uske pass nahi ho tum
n I realised what u blunted out in my vulnerability state
Shehnaaz:- muze chalna chaiye....rat ho rahi hai na koi bus bhi nahi milegi....ap chod doge
meeti :- bat ko samj Shehnaaz...humne suna mausaji n kya kaha..tera sach jante hai fir bhi apnaya nahi....wo sab janta hai fir bhi jaan deta hai tumpe..tera sirf sidharth hai.....hume samj aaya lekin tu q nahi samjna chahti...mene aj dekha uski aakhon m wo pagalon ki tarah payr krta hai wo tuze....dikhta hi uski aakhon m ki wo sari hadon ke paar Jake tera khayal rakhega..... zindagi akele jina asan nahi hota tu kismatwali hai koi hai jo tuze chahta hai fir q tu uss khushi se muh mod rahi hai...isse tum dono ko taklif hogi
Kunal :- wo sahi keh rahi hai tumhe sidharth ke pass Jana chaiye....
Shehnaaz:- tu janti hai meeti kya hua aj
meeti :- wo sab uski bhabhi n kaha na tu Jake bata sidharth ko....uska hoga koi tareeka tuze samjane ka.... shayad sirf wo janta hai tere dard ko kam kaise Krna hai.....
Shehnaaz:- agar m gayi toh wo galat samj lega ki m usse pyar
Kunal :- toh tum nahi krti
Shehnaaz:- itna aasan nahi hai
log kya kahenge
meeti :- tere sabhi insecurities ka jawab sirf wo de sakta hai....kya pata usne pehle hi sab soch liya ho.....tu khud soch jo insaan apne bhai ka baccha lene k liye tuze uski duniya ke logon se apni biwi kehke milwata hai jo apne bhai k liye itna kuch kar gujar gaya ab jo wo tuzese pyar krta hai toh kya kuch nahi karega....tune kaha na wo bahot Manta hai tuze kya uska haq nahi teri bhi feelings Jan na....ek bar bat toh kar....agar solution na nikle toh fir krlena apni man ki....lekin yad rakh Shehnaaz pyar k bina zindagi nark ban jati hai....tune aj tak itna Saha hai kya tu deserve nahi krti ek acchi zindagi jina.....logo k bare m soch k faisla mat le....ye soch kya sidharth kabhi kuch galat hone dega tere sath
n her words directly hit on my heart....she is right....if I hide my insecurities then we both will suffer.....just now I got a reality check that no one will love me like him.....may I am mistaking to assume evrything according to me....that lady who throw me out of the house ...her words n act imprinted on my mind n soul so badly that I lost my ability to think sanely
I am planning to go back to my father's place leaving him for forever but when I realised that home is not mine anymore..they all are ashamed of me n the one which is his house always gives me my house vibes....n he knows all about my flaws n past but still loves me....
I get scaresd suddenly thinking what if I loose him now.....the way he go after saying me those words I got scared thinking what if he never forgive me
I hurriedly wipe my face n stand up ..I didn't do a mistake by trusting my boyfriend n slept wid him getting pregnant by him... that's his fault that he cheated on me...that his fault that he used me to drench his lust.....why would I face loneliness..pain.... heartbreak if I didn't do any mistake
apne past se mile hue dardon ki saja m mere aj ko q du.....mera aj mera sidharth h.....ek bar..sirf bar k liye usko sab batana chahti ki kya kya hua mere sath aur kya chal raha h mere andar....
Shehnaaz:- I ...want to meet him....kahi der na ho jaye
n meeti Kunal both smile looking at eachother
every love story have there own cupid's who help couple to be together n in my case they become my cupid n make me realise my mistake
Kunal :- I'll drop u come
I nod wid tears n hug meeti tightly...it's ok that she didn't help me when I ask help from her when I was pregnant back then she was also bounded by Massi n her rules at time...but whatever she did today is enough for me
we both broke the hug n I was about to take my stuff but my phn started to ring n it's kaushal
I get confused thinking why he call me but I realised may be also come to know about us...
I received it but floor beneath my foot slipped when I heard his words I didn't expect this at all
He says
" Shehnaaz just listen to me I know u to had fight but sidharth is in hospital plz come fast plz....he is serious laying on hospital bed"
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when he fall down in bathroom coz of that stunt he pulled... acting like maniac for his shehnaaz he literally risk his life....
the white foam comes out from corner of his lips.....
her absence make him so mad that he literally did idiotic thing....n ended up laying uncouncious on bathroom floor
the time passed n he still didn't got his consciousness back
later on there is knock on main door
it's kaushal who had arrived n didn't go at his place but come to meet sidharth first although he was so tired coz of hectic schedule n travelling twice in single day
kaushal :: Sidharth Bhai open the door
n he didn't get respond
he again call his name but same...there is no reply from inside
he gets scared for second... negative thoughts started to run in his mind....he hurriedly grab extra keys from watchmans cabin....he open the door wid shivering hands....he look here n there....
calling his name again n again
he check Sid's room n washroom first n when he open Shehnaaz's room door he found bathroom door is opened
n taking scared steps he peep inside n his eyes come out of socket watching sidharth in that state
he hurridly kneel down n grab his head placing it on his lap he patted his cheek n call his name loudly to wake him up but when he saw foam coming out of his mouth he feel his heart is stopped watching him
he splash water on his face but he still didn't show any response.....
holding his throbbing heart he called ambulance
Rishi batra aunty Pooja they all also come till the gate Rishi ask kaushal to that he will join but Rishi denied giving them hopes that he will be fine it's almost late neight he don't want to bother anyone
once they reached hospital he take out his phn n call Shehnaaz.....
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kaushal :- Dr plz help...he fell unconscious n holding this shampoo bottle he was intoxicated also n
Dr :- oh it's sucid* case we need to make papers first as it's important in suicid* we need to inform police also
kaushal :- I think u didn't identify him...he is sidharth thakur..... famous personality
n that Dr get shocked n nodding wid scared face he ask his nurse to get the room ready
they take him inside the room n kaushal sit outside holding his head
he never thought his friend will be so much in pain that he pulled this stunt
he feel I sanely sacred so he call n infrom Isha about this in which her reaction is also same.....he is so scared that he need someone to give him strength
after sometime Isha arrived early than Shehnaaz
n slap kaushal hardly
Isha :- tu tha na uske sath fir ye kaise hua Haan....
kaushal :- wo aa gaya tha Delhi se qki Shehnaaz
Isha :- ohh fuck that girl....what she did now
kaushal :- she come to know about his brothers truth from somewhere don't know who spread that Sid n sirf hum dono ko bataya tha pata nahi uske bhabhi tak kaise pahuchi ye bat...he got tensed thinking about her....n he arrange jet in emergency I don't know what happened here when I returned back I saw him on bathroom floor..he told me that they had fight n from his voice I understand something big happened between them
Isha :- why that girl affects him so much
kaushal :- he loves her...
Isha :- I know before he himself knows about it....
kaushal :- what
Isha :- yad hai tuze jab usne Hume bataya tha ki Shehnaaz bekasoor hai...uski koi galti nahi hai uss time uske aakhon m ronak dekhi thi mene ....he was acting mad that time only I guessed that he already started to feel for the same girl who is carrying his brothers child n also have big difference in family
m janti thi iss pagalpan ka anjam kya hai....tumhe m villain lagti thi na jo Shehnaaz sidharth ko alag dekhna chati thi....nahi ....m janti thi iss complicated rishte ka anjam....ishaq ek bimari hai aur m janti hu sidharth pyar aur nafrat dono shiddat se krta hai....I wish..I literally pray to god for him...ask this type of love for him always but not wid girl like Shehnaaz qki unka milna impossible hai
m janti thi wo iss dard se gujrega.....usne tuze bataya uski feelings m tabse janti hu jab wo khud nahi accept nahi kr pata Raha tha
n after saying n spilling out the truth she sitted wid thump sound holding her head.....she cried for her best friend
Isha :- agar mere dost ko kuch hua na m case karungi uss Shehnaaz pe tum dekh Lena....
kaushal wipe his forehead that have sweatbuds.....
but he lift his eyes when he saw Shehnaaz is running n coming towards them.... wiping her cheeks
n before Shehnaaz could react Isha while taking large steps move towards Shehnaaz n grab her Arms
but kaushal jump in between them protecting Shehnaaz
Shehnaaz who's face is all red n swollen coz of crying she stumbled on her feet watching Isha's angry face
she is so fucking scared after she come to know about Sidharth's state....that her legs are getting numb n she is loosing her balance now n there..her palms are turned cold n they are shivering coz of fear.....
Isha :- how dare u hurt him....sirf tumhari wajase wo yaha hai
kaushal :- Isha bilkul chup ho ja bacchi hai wo yar dari hui hai tu dekh nahi sakti
Isha :- ye dari hui hai....lekin wo Andar marne ki halat m hai uska kya....
kaushal :- thik ho jayega wo...but plz don't scold her we don't know what they have talked...let them handle this alone ye unka matter hai...
Isha :- tum side hato m janti hu m kya kr rahi hu
kaushal :- behave Isha sidharth ko pata chala tune Shehnaaz ko kuch kaha hai toh usko aur taklif hogi aur tu uska pagalpan nahi janti m.dekh chuka....
Shehnaaz mewl slowly from behind kaushal's back
Shehnaaz:- I...I..wan...want to...meet...meet him kaushal....plz
kaushal turned holding her both the hands he rub it gently
kaushal :- relax usko kuch nahi hoga.....
Shehnaaz:- ye sab...m...meri galati hai....sab
n she sob lowering down her gaze.....n she fall on her knees
Kunal n kaushal try to hold her but she continuously shed tears
n Isha also feel pain watching her gut wrenching cry
kaushal :- think wisely Shehnaaz usko kitna bura lagega jab dekhega tumhe aise....uske liye sambhalo tum janti ho usko pasand nahi tumhare assu....
she nod wiping her face hurridly like cute kid
she slowly stand up n move towards the door n watch him through galss hole....
unknowingly tear slipped out of her yes watching him wid wires n injections
she stand there without moving an inch for second looking his face continuously n cursed herself for more than thousand times
after some time Dr come out from ward n Shehnaz ask hurridly
Shehnaaz:- wo thik toh hai na....plz say he is fine
Dr :- relax he is fine now ...you can meet him after sometime
n she loose that breath which she is holding from don't know how long
Isha n kaushal also hug in relief....
Shehnaaz look towards his face again wid helplessness
when he was begging to her for love she denied or we can say lied now she is earning for his love n he is laying unconscious
once Dr left Shehnaaz didn't wait n enter inside the room
taking slow steps she sit on that one small sit beside his bed
she take his hand in her small n cold palm wid shivering of her hands she entangled there fingers
she touch his back of palm on her eyes n sob holding him
his touch n warmth gives her peace
she now rest her forehead beside his hand
after almost in early morning
listening someone's sobbing sound Sid's eyes get open slowly
that alcohol made his mind numb he close his eyes hurriedly feeling sharp room light rays entered in his eyes n he recall how he ended up here recalling how he is crying for her presence at home make his heart tighten
he slowly adjust his eyes wid lights n look towards her
he joined his eyebrows lifting his head little cursing himself
Sid :- fuck ab imagine bhi kar rahu usko.
awaz bhi sunai de rahi hai.....
shehnaaaaazzzzzz...ur killing me
he graon taking her name at last
n she lift her head up listening his sound
she get again nervous n hurriedly stand up her hands are badly shivering she try to touch his face
n he open his eyes again wid shock..... feeling her cold palms touch...
Sid :- sh... Shehnaaz baby....tu sachme
Shehnaaz is crying bitterly that her voice is Stuck in her throat....
Sid lay down back n sigh recalling whatever she said his head is again filled wid anger
Sid :- jab pyar nahi hai toh q ho yaha...chod do muze mere haal p
she try to speak trying to touch his face wid her shivering hands
shehnaaz :- u...are u .....I....
n watching her completely broken state he widen his eyes holding her hands wid his one palm....he sit straight little
Sid :- baby breath...relax...I am fine....m thik hu meri jaan.....
she nod in no while still biterrly crying feeling hard to breathe
Shehnaaz:- I...am sorry...it's coz of me....m bahot buri hu.... that's why evryone leaves me.....but u plz don't go ......tum kahi mat jana plz.....I am...mene....tumhe dard....I....feel....I am...so..meri wajase ....
her breathes get uneven
he hurridly pull her in his arms in tight grip
that hug was so needed for both of them... that's fucking soothing...like cold ointment on burning skin..he also craved for her smell like insanely n having her in his arms is like so peaceful thing for him
he can feel how loudly her heart is pounding in her chest he get scared for her... looking her state he understand that she is hell scared
he rub her back
Sid :- mera baccha calm down I am fine..m.sach keh raha hu....I am sorry meri wajase tu pareshan ho gayi....m thik hu baba...hey Shona are u listening me
wrapping her arms around his neck tightly she dig her face in his nape.....she sob n then kiss his whole face cupping his face she didn't left any corner of his face n he smile softly....she hug him again this tym tighter than before
Shehnaaz:- m dar gayi thi...
she utter in between her cries cute like kiddo
he entagled his fingers wid her.. rubbing thumb pad breaking hug he cup her cheek n pull her face closer to his face
Sid :- stop crying meri jaan u know I hate your tears...it's fucking hurting..m keh raha hu na I am fine....look at me....
n she lift her red n puffy eyes n bite her lower lip
still breathing unevenly
Sid :- tuck out her lower lip wid his thumb
darne wali koi bat h hi nahi...relax baccha why ur so scared Haan....kisine kuch kaha..did somebody made u cry shona..are u ok....how u come to know....baby tu kiske sath aai hai....tu kabse yaha hai...aur
he utter moving aside her hairs from face lovingly
Shehnaaz:- I..I call dr wait....u just got back ur counciousness wait
she break eye contact n about move
he hold her wrist n pulled her near to him again
they look in eachother's eyes for few seconds.... trying to drink pain through eyes
n he speak breaking ice
Sid :- my medicine is u...only u can cure me.....help me I am in pain meri jaan....plz
she didn't utter anything n without delaying she sit on his lap....n he hold her from waist tightly digging his face in her nape like kid trying to get his peace n warmth back..she get perfectly fitted on his lap
she kiss his neck slowly placing her soft lips on his blue coloured vein on his neck n he close his eyes slowly n she move her fingers in his hair locks
Shehnaaz:-i understand my mistake....tumse jada dusaron pe bharosa kiya.... I want to tell u everything that happened wid me... when u was not there wid me .....plz help me to get rid of my insecurities sidharth.....I am dieing now ...
Sid :- I will meri jaan....m sath hu tere hamesha....no insecurities will stop us to love eachother
n he take her flesh on nape in his mouth to kiss her hardly n calm his heart...he move aside her hairs from her neck n he rubbed his tip of nose to fill his nostrils wid her fragrance
he is acting like insane he knows but for this fregrance he was actually dieing for
Sid :- I miss you baby
n she kiss on his earlobe slowly
Shehnaaz:- I missed u too....
they tighten there hug at last
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