We are advised grief is normal
but I wish it didn't exist, sometimes
I wish I didn't feel the need to squint my eyes
every time I try to remember you
since it has been so long
only photographs are proof of our love now
my thoughts had replaced your voice
and your clothes now smell normal
not like your usual floral perfume
That will always be engraved
so young yet so much pain
remembering their words trying to comfort me
it never worked
now all I feel is humiliation
when I let them through
let them be seen
hopefully, they haven't noticed
think to myself
I've been successful so far
not the closest being has heard a peep out of me
although it might even help
to get help
be free, once again
like it used to be when your presence wasn't just a memory
part of me wants to remember you
even through all the grief that comes with
I don't wish your voice to keep fading
day by day a whisper so faint
a gust of wind would knock it over
until you are just linked to me by blood
remembrance from the old
hopefully, I won't forget
even with all the emotions that your love comes with
hopefully, I'll figure it out one day
while I still remember you.