hands cold and clammy, knee bouncing up and down, nail being bitten down by his teeth and gaze nailed to the ground. anyone could tell jisung was nervous.
it came as a shock to him. why wouldn't it? the man he had never expected to see again was in a hospital room across from him while he waited on the uncomfortable hospital bench next to his sister.
he felt a hand squeeze his shoulder, and the familiar voice of his sister saying, "he'll be fine."
but park hyesu didn't realise that wasn't what had jisung worried. it was seeing his father again.
'he can die for all i care' he found himself thinking at some point.
the man had gotten a sharp blow to the head, resulting in a traumatic brain injury according to a nurse. he was at great risk of losing his life. jisung didn't flinch at the thought.
he wasn't sure what to feel about the guy who ruined the memories that were supposed to be precious and cherished. one thing was for sure, though. jisung hated his father and he would let him know of that today.
today. his birthday.
what a perfect day for reliving all your previous trauma when life only started to get better.
he wasn't even sure if it was still hia birthday anymore, having sat at the benches for hours.
he was lost in his thoughts but brought back by the vibration of his phone in his pocket. deciding to take a break from his brain, he opened the text from seorin.
rin🎀💕
jisung?
are you there?
yeah im here
thank god
I was getting worried
how are you feeling?
im sorry for not texting earlier
im feeling
idk
do you wanna talk
about it?
tbh i dont even wanna
see him but at the same time
i wanna go yell at him for
ruining my childhood
i wanna tell him i hate him but
at the same time i just
wanna keep him away from me
whatever you feel
like is best for you, go
for it
you're clearly hesitant
about seeing him again rn
you're contemplating it
and thats completely
understandable
give it some time
maybe you'll sort out your
emotions and come
to a conclusion abt seeing
him or not?
the doctors said he might
wake up in a week or two after
surgery if he doesn't die
they'll let us see him
after surgery today too but he'll be asleep
ykw seorin
i wanna see him
maybe its just hope that
he's changed
what's holding me back is the fear
that he hasn't.
the person I've become now is
the person he didn't want me to
become
he'd be so disappointed
listen my love
the person that you are
right now is the person
that so many people,
including me and especially
me, love and cherish.
your achievements aren't
what you'll be remembered for
jisung
you're an amazing person
if he's disappointed in you
for being a good person
then that's on him
you're the most brave
and kind person I've ever met
idk what to say to that
I'd kiss you if you were here
wait til i get home
I'll wait for you then <3
wait no
don't wait for me
it's late
go to sleep
jisung you're
probably more tired
than me
you should be the one
getting rest
i would but my sister
just fell asleep and i should
stay up just incase yk
hm
but
no buts sh
wait a doctor's here
good luck ji
i stand by what i said
you're an amazing person
no matter what you decide
to do, you got this ❤️
sent 1:57 am
stood outside the room were the two park siblings. just five minutes ago, the younger was informed that they could go see their father.
they were both reluctant, ofcourse they were. they hadn't seen the man for years. and even though he'd be asleep, they were both cautious and nervous.
jisung took deep breaths and faced his sister, "I don't wanna see him."
her expression didn't waver, as if she expected it. hyesu only nodded, "i understand. I'm.. gonna go in. you can go and wait for me in the car. I'll only be a while."
the amount of relief jisung felt as he walked to the parking lot of the hospital was indescribable. he didn't care much if his sister wanted to see their father or not but for himself, he felt a great weight of decision lifted off his shoulders.
seorin was right. he needed to sort out his thoughts and emotions more clearly before he saw his father. he knew he wouldn't be able to control himself and god knew what he would do if he saw the dreaded man.
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rooftop fighters
jisung 🙀
hi guys
mark
dude are you
okay?
jisung 🙀
couldn't be better
me and noona
stopped to get some
food
would you guys like
something?
chenle
OH GET ME CURLY
FRIES PLEASE
also if you're getting
snacks, get me some
kimbap
heejin
chenle wtf
be a little respectful of
the guy atleast
jisung 🙀
oh no lmao its
okay i feel great
altho i felt like i was
gonna throw up at
the hospital
seorin
wait you're on your way back?
jisung 🙀
didn't i tell you
to sleep?
also do you want
something to eat?
seorin
yes and no thank you
chenle forced me to stay
awake and watch reality
tv with him
jisung 🙀
wtf lele
mark
there's no way he's
offended at chenle
not letting rin get some
sleep and not
offended at chenle being
shameless
chenle
hey
jisung said he was great
and yk its true because if
he wasn't he'd say it
straight away bcs he likes
venting to us
jisung 🙀
true
hence i didn't mind
yeonjun
YPPOOOO
HWEY GIYSS
I JUST GOR HOMW
FEOM A FRATPARTY
heejin
oh my god
i pray for soobin
everyday
chenle
the fact we can not
have a serious chapter
without even an ounce
of goof is wild
seorin
frrrr
this book is just unhinged atp
mark
guys i was serious
about that therapist
do you want me to
book an appointment?
yasuko
yeonjun
OPPAAQQQAA
😩😩😩😩😩
heejin
not one normal
day here istg
🪐
helloooo
chapters are gonna be very delayed and late now bcs exams 😭💔 so many.. so many exams 😞
excuse any spelling errors. I'm too lazy to check grammar or spelling fr.
promised nostril reveal;
take a good look, pookies