Song - Daddy's issues by The nbhd
" You ask me what I'm thinking about,
I tell you that I'm thinking about "
Scarlett White
"I'm here, standing in front of my house, thinking whether to go in or come back later, but what would I be doing outside at this time of night? I'm hesitating between going to Zach's house or a friend's. I have to face this, I don't think it should be that bad, right?
A sigh escapes my lips and I gather the courage to open the door. The warm light from the living room makes my entrance into the house more than evident. My hands sweat around the house keys I have with me.
"You're here, sweetheart." My mom is the first to greet me.
I don't know why I'm so nervous, I take another shaky sigh from my lips and approach my mom to receive her kiss on my cheek. I smile slightly and walk towards the stairs in search of my room and lock myself in there until tomorrow, it's the only thing I can do after all.
"Are you hungry? I'll cook something for dinner," my mom asks as she goes up the stairs.
"No thanks, I ate at work," I quickly respond so I can go to my room without running into my idiot stepfather.
3 more seconds and I'll be in my room safe and sound.
"It doesn't matter, although it comforts me that my mom is here at home, it doesn't make me nervous about David. He's a psychotic piece of shit and fucking crazy.
''You're going to have dinner with your mother.'' My breath catches in my throat when I hear the voice of the monster I didn't want to see, and much less hear it.
I look at David near the door of my room, making it even harder to get out of this mess. His eyes were bloodshot, looking at me with that disdain on his face before me.
I may love my mom, but I will never forgive her for having to live my life more miserably for having this man in my life.
''I'm not hungry,''I reply dryly, my steps automatically slow down to keep a decent enough distance without wanting to be near him.
David laughs bitterly and walks towards me, which makes me panic, not knowing what his next move will be.
'Well, then swallow it, doll,' his voice echoes down the hallway, scaring me."
I feel so powerless in front of him.
I hate feeling this way.
Sometimes I tend to be stupid like this morning, I lose my temper and say things that would be better left unsaid. But I can't help it, living this nightmare for years has worn my patience even thinner. But thanks to opening my damn mouth, I feel like a damn mouse in front of the this bastard.
I should have come later.
I let out a sigh from my lips and respond with a "fine," knowing it wasn't wise to confront him since this time I didn't have a chance to escape from him.
The word "doll" coming from his disgusting voice also makes me feel like a damn object, which I also hate. Who does he think he is to call me by such a nickname? Ever since I can remember, he always disturbed me.
Just his presence disturbed me.
I approach my door and open it, the feeling of the handle in my sweaty hand as I slide it to the side. I look one last time at David with that creepy little smile crossing his face with those damn yellow teeth.
What the hell, mom? You still kiss him?
As I said, love is blind.
A sigh escapes my body when I'm in my room. My back pressed against the door looking at my completely tidy room.
This won't last a week.
I take off my clothes and get into the shower minutes later. The good thing about all this is that I have my own bathroom, I actually begged my mom to have it mine. Since this bathroom also connects to my mom and David's room. but that door doesn't open since this bathroom is now mine. There is another bathroom in the hallway than theirs.
I couldn't stand sharing a bathroom with my stepdad anymore, I had the chance to have my own since I got my period so that made things easier.
The hot water travels through my body feeling all my tense muscles relax instantly. I take my gel soap and rub it all over my body. Abnormal's favorite part of coming home was that he could have a leisurely shower without rushing.
I take all my time in the shower until I turn off the water pen and get out of the shower. My towel hugged my body and I saw myself in the mirror, my eyes only showed how tired they were, but a happy part of me was that there would be no school tomorrow.
Although my happiness goes away for a few seconds when I remember that I have to go to work early tomorrow even though that meant I would earn tips from customers.
I do my facial routine and brush my teeth. When I finish doing all the bathroom routines I come out with my towel still wrapped around my entire body.
My heart jumps out of my body when I see David with the open door to my room looking at me up and down.
"What the hell!?" I exclaim loudly putting my arms around my body feeling even more vulnerable than I was previously with him.
"I came to tell you to leave the room to have dinner with your mother." David answers me, but my fear and disgust are the only things he can perceive on my face when I yell at him.
"Get out of my room!"
This has to be a fucking joke.
He closes but still not taking his eyes off me. My body crawls and I can feel my eyes fill with tears from how vulnerable I felt.
How dare you look at me so brazenly?
My trembling feet head to my door, and I lock my room. Why was I so foolish and left the door open?
This was my fault.
I go to my closet and search for what I need for comfortable sleepwear, my hands still shaking from the shock. Does my mom even know I screamed with a horrified sound because of what happened?
I hope she does.
As I finish putting on my long pajama pants, I quickly grab my brush to detangle my scalp and leave the room. The last thing on my mind now is food because of what just happened.
When I get to the kitchen, I see my mom with a smile on her face; she had made lasagna, it smelled good. I can't remember the last time I ate her lasagna.
"Honey, come, the food is getting cold." My mom calls me, and I approach her.
Disappointed that she didn't ask me anything about my scream from a few minutes ago. Literally her damn boyfriend looked at me almost half naked. I won't let this go.
When I sit at the table the two start to eat, David was in front of me eating as if nothing had happened.
"Did you know that your fucking disgusting boyfriend looked at me half naked and walked into my room without knocking?" I tell my mom abruptly.
The anger I felt was going to blind me.
"Wait, what? Is that why you screamed? David told me you were only screaming because you had fallen and he had helped you." My mom responds calmly.
Oh, this did cross the line.
"What the fuck? What kind of sick person are you?" I look at David with contempt. "Mom, if you know me, you know that I will never let myself be touched by him, you know that the one I would ask for help is you." My voice was noticeably hurt.
He's a fucking nutcase, why does he think he would ask him for help?
"Marriene" David's authoritarian voice makes my mother jump from her seat and look at my stepfather, David's eyes look at her with an expression of complete threat on his face.
"I'm sorry, love, but David told me a different story." My mom responds a few seconds later, looking at me with pleading eyes to stop and stay quiet.
She's crazy if I'm going to let this go.
"So who do you decide to believe? Him or me?" I asked my mom, making disappointment sound in my voice.
This will hurt.
"Why don't you shut fucking mouth, you little bitch?" David responds before my mom could respond.
"Mom answer," I demand, my voice ringing loudly across this table as I keep my eyes glued to David's.
Again before my mom responded, David with his hand takes the tablecloth from the table and drags it off the table making all our plates with freshly cooked food go with the tablecloth. He made a mess on the floor.
A shocked scream from my mother leaves her lips as my eyes widen at the mess David had made.
"Starve bitches and clean up this fucking mess," David says as he walks out of the kitchen and out of the house.
"I told you to stay quiet." My mom scolds me minutes after David leaves.
"And I told you to answer who you would choose to believe." I get up from my seat and run towards the stairs letting the tears fall from my eyes, refusing to let my mom see me cry like a damn baby.
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Woww, little family drama already. I wanted to show you what Scarlett's life is like in more detail.
I can't wait to show you Harry's life!!
Chao -Bloom