(Feb/23/2024) [Friday, 8:09Pm]
... Well, I am definitely NOT going insane!
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Anyways. Um. So a few days ago I saw a very tall shadow figure outside and it looked about 8 or 7ft tall and it disappeared in a split second. I'll be honest. I have been having these really bad headaches and migraines, they hurt like hell, I have also been feeling a little more hungry then usual.. I think.
I feel tired. I feel very dizzy.. My memory is just shit at this point, can't remember shit. I'm honestly so done with this and everything.
I mean.. I think these.. intrusive thoughts are right.. maybe I should burn my house down.. or not. Idk.
I'll go to the park on Sunday and I'll bring my camera. (If I have the memory card by then) also, I almost forgot that, tomorrow on Saturday I have to do that.. "ritual" or summoning with Hydr0chl0r1c_ac1d
I kept drawing the operator symbol in class like crazy today and when I ate Reese's candy when I came back home from school. I started to feel like throwing up little.. At this point.. Hydr0chl0r1c_ac1d idk if I'm going insane or not.. But, I think that maybe I am losing my mind.
Today, Brianna and her little friend "Siehara?" (I'm not sure if that's how you spell that name) but anyways. Brianna was brushing her.. long black hair.. bro my intrusive thoughts were going crazy.
She sits in front of me so she sometimes puts her head back and her hair gets on my desk and I get annoyed. Anyways, so Brianna was brushing her long hair and I literally gave her an annoyed stare (because I hate her guts) and (I thought: "Stupid Brianna.. stop brushing your fucking hair. Bro it's not like it's going to fucking become knotted if you don't brush it every 10 minutes-") then, i had a very sadistic thought.. i started to think of myself holding Brianna's decapitated head and I stared at Brianna, I tried not to smile but, I couldn't help it. (I thought: "you know what... Actually keep brushing your hair.. that way, I can hold your head tightly and swing it around!")
Yeah, I'm definitely going insane... :D
Also, I have been rather.. sadistic or acting very weird these few days. Not sure why. (I wonder why-) welp. I don't give a damn, don't give a shit.. at this point I'm acting like habit-