We laid in bed facing each other. Harry's hand caressed the side of my face softly as silence surrounded us. None of us found it necessary to say anything. However, on the inside, I kept debating between keeping my eyes open and get lost in the green orbs that displayed a large range of emotion, and closing my eyes, giving in to the sensation of his finger brushing against my skin.
I decided on the latter, as it was so rare for him to be this delicate and loving in his touch. It was a wonderful thing to be touched by Harry in such way. He said it himself, he wasn't good with words, but overtime I had discovered that his best way to communicate was physically, through his touch.
It was a sensation that I could easily get addicted to, if I wasn't already. His affection was pouring in and I would, without a doubt, willingly drown in it, forget about everything and give into it, but I knew I couldn't. I knew that I had to keep my head above it all. So I opened my eyes, hoping that it would bring me back, but instead, as I thought I would, I got lost in his eyes.
Eye contact is a dangerous thing, but oh so wonderful. I could stare into his beautiful green eyes all day. Especially when he was letting his guard down. Only then, was I able to rationalize my love for him, and explain why I kept holding on so badly. It wasn't pity, it wasn't because I owed it to our many years of friendship, but for many other things. In his eyes, I saw the Harry I fell in love with; charming, kind-hearted, sensitive, quiet and anxious. These were traits that made him who he was. A beautiful broken boy.
"You ok?" he asked, worry taking over his features.
I blinked a couple times and hummed, before getting a little closer than I was before. Harry's reaction was immediate, his arms enclosed me and as my hands went behind his neck and into his curls, one of his went to my hips and the other into my hair.
"I'm ok," I replied once we were settled in the right position.
I felt him smile against my temple before he kissed it softly.
"I like that," I said, the words out of my mouth before I could stop them.
"What do you like?" He mumbled as his fingers softly scraped my scalp.
I closed my eyes and nuzzled his neck, stiffening a moan, because God, I really really liked that. "Hmm. That."
Harry chuckled before kissing my temple again and repeated the movement of his fingers against my scalp. "I like that too," he whispered before holding me tighter.
It wasn't long before his lips started to move down to my neck, leaving occasional bite marks. He stopped his descent once he reached my shoulder. He hovered over my clavicle, small puff of breath travelling along my skin before he went a little lower. My fingers tightened their grip around Harry's curls as his lips skimmed the top of my breast and went in between towards his ultimate goal.
I completely surrendered to him and let his lips travel across my stomach and my hips. Unlike other times, Harry decided that this time he wasn't going to tease me. So as he pressed a kiss on my hip bone and went further down, it only took a second before every single muscles I had tensed and my back arched.
His name left my mouth in breathless moans, while his tongue spelled out everything he wanted to say, but couldn't bring himself to. My heels dug into my mattress as pure bliss over took my senses, because if there was one thing that Harry was good at, this was it.
Barely ten minutes later, I was laying on my back, my breaths uneven, and Harry was making his way up, kissing my skin in his way.
As he reached up and was finally level to my face, he wiped out the corners of his mouth. "Did you like that too?" He asked, a cheeky smile on his lips with his dimples in full display.
I giggled before leaning in and pressing my lips against his. "I did, it was very nice, thank you," I replied as I put my head back against the pillow.
"You're welcome," he said, his voice having an undertone of amusement in it.
He laid back down next to me, his left arm laying across my stomach and his hand softly squeezing my right hip. He looked at me while I tried to even my breathing and pressed his lips softly on my cheek.
"Are we ok?" He asked. His voice sounded casual, but as I turned my head and met his eyes, I knew he was nothing but.
"Yeah, we are," I tried to reassure him before taking his hand in mine.
It worked, partially, because his body was still tense. "You still want to try?"
This time I turned my body fully. Our intertwined hands fell between us but I didn't let go. His eyes moved quickly, alternating between mine nervously, searching for his answer.
"Of course I still want to try," I said as I squeezed his hand.
He released a heavy sigh, clearly relieved by my answer. "Because I know that so far I'm doing terribly, and I would understand if you decided that I wasn't worth it."
I stopped him from saying more. "You are worth it, Harry."
He looked at me and I could see that he didn't fully believe me, but didn't want to talk about it more. So instead, he leaned in a pressed his lips against mine delicately, giving me a few chaste kisses.
"I'll get better at this," he promised. "I just need a little more time."
I smiled, allowing myself to believe him. "You've already done so much, I know we'll get there."
The words seemed to be enough for him to let go of his worries for now. His hand squeezed mine, a silent way to thank me for my support and soon enough, his beautiful smile was back on his face.
"You know..." he said, mischief taking over his feature. "You were delicious, and eating you out was fun and all, but I'm actually getting really hungry."
I let out a loud laugh before my free hand pushed his chest playfully. I often scolded him when he made such crude remarks, but never actually meant it and Harry knew it. He knew how much I loved it when he was this vulgarly honest. It both turned me on and made me laugh.
"You're the worst," I commented before pulling the covers away from my body. "Come on, let's go eat something."
I heard him snicker, satisfied with the reaction he had gotten, before he pulled the cover off of his body as well. We both gathered our clothes and put them on before heading to the kitchen.
As we made our way, the sound of rattling pans echoed through the halls. I came to a full stop, which made Harry collide with me. Thankfully, his hands came around my waist and prevented me from falling.
"What is it?" he asked, his eyebrow furrowed in confusion.
I turned around, suddenly extremely nervous. "Wendy is up," I stated, keeping it short.
His frown deepened. "And?" He turned me around to get a full look of my face. He looked at me so intensely, trying to find the answer while I debated what I could say that wouldn't hurt his feelings.
"And I haven't told her about us," I bit my lower lip and hunched my shoulders.
I knew that this small detail would hit him like a ton of brick. Me, not telling my roommate, one of my best friend, someone I told everything to, about us was like saying that I didn't believe in us.
He flinched slightly, and I knew had made the right assumptions. He was wrong to think this way, I did believe in us, I believed that we could be so good together. Me not telling Wendy wasn't a sign of the contrary, just a misfortunate set of events. After all it had only been a few days, but I knew that in Harry's mind it didn't matter.
"Harry, I-" I tried to explain it to him so that he wouldn't take it the way he was, but he didn't give me the time to explain that he was letting go of me and sighing deeply.
"Doesn't matter. I guess this is going to be interesting."
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This is shorter than usual and a bit of a filler, but this week I focused on planning the next few chapters before the end of the first part. If my calculations are correct (lol) there should be 2 or 3 chapters left before I put this book on hold.
I am going on a holiday towards the end of July (I'm visiting Brussels & Amsterdam, hit me up if you're from there) and I think it would be a perfect timing to end the first part right before I leave. It would give me time to enjoy my holiday and plan out the rest of the story.
During the small hiatus, I will still be very active here and on Twitter (K_xrry), so if you have questions or whatever, write to me :)
BACK TO BUSINESS. I know that not much happened here, but did you still enjoy it ?
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