I always take the mystery away
Always explaining myself
To everyone I see, encounter and love
I want them not to presume I am not good enough
I want them to see me a perfect, clear and an honest one
I want them to not get me wrong,
that's not what I meant I always repeat and sing along
I want to reverse, alter and erase every
not okay thought about me in the head of others
I get scared, anxious, stressed if someone knew my human side i keep hidden inside
I can't make a mistake that might scare them away
I want them to chew words of you are
good, smart and say yes all the time
I Want other people's opinion of me be
clear and doesn't trigger the unease, the fears and tears
I care about other people's opinion of me!
I want to unhide and read their minds
What do they think, I always ask!
I should obey, play and say okay!
Boundaries I never set or showed my Crossroads
Yes, sure, of course a Symphony i composed
Forgetting to choose myself, because the
fear of losing people is deep and smeared
Acting my character is not an option in this parallel world
Because people's opinion of me matters
In the Brisk of wanting to say no, scream and Deluge everyone with hate
I keep the puppy face, of an obedient girl
I let their words of judgment, and harshfull critics find their way to my mind
Let their hate sink deep in my heart
My confidence was buried I don't know where
But when my respect was touched and scratched
The shadow of confidence loomed over my shoulders Putting my head over
It was then when I learned I don't need to care!
it is then when i learned pain deliver glory!
Shine bright as much as your soul desires to be seen!