"roger, i'm cold" i say trying to grab the blanket, but before i could grab it he turns around and wraps his warm, big arms around me
these past couple days rogers been at my house, or ive been at his, i've been missing school just for him
i slowly fell back asleep, his light snoring helps me sleep a lot.
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"aubreyy" i can hear roger trying to wake me up "no" i say putting my arm on my eyes "get up" he says shaking me
"why" i say turning around "because" he says wrapping his arm around me "later" i say snuggling into him
before i could do anything i was on the floor
"fuck you" i say standing up "when?" he asks "sick." i say struggling to put my sock on
"oh yeah, you got a phone call like an hour ago" roger says "fuck." i say rushing out of the room
"hello?" i say after a couple of rings "is roger there?" john asks "oh hi deaky, yes he is" i say
"send him here quickly." john says "oh, alright" i say "go see fred and mary we'll be there soon" he tells me "okay, see you deaks." i say hanging up
"roger!" i yell "what did i do now?" he says walking into the room "deaky wants you, sounded urgent" i say walking up to him "but were hanging out!" he says "he said you guys will come see me at freds" i say looking at him as he groans
"get ready pretty boy." i say kissing him on the cheek and walking to my room
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i knocked on the door "come in!" i hear freddie "bad timing?" i say walking in seeing mary most likely naked under the blanket shes covered up with sitting on the couch with freddie leaning over her
"not at all!" freddie says as i sit down beside mary
"got tired of rog?" freddie asks "no, he just needed to go somewhere." i say missing my dirty blonde already
"someone misses him" mary says as her and freddie look at me smirking
"can i tell you guys something?" i ask as they nod "i think i like him." i say
"woo! called it" mary says as freddie looks at me "quite obviously" he says as i laugh
before i could say anything we heard a knock and the door opened
"phones off the hook." roger says putting it back on the hook with a girl walking behind him with brian and deaky
"this is crystal." he says looking at us "cheryl!" she says correcting him
when i heard that i looked at mary and freddie hurt
"we'll talk about it later." freddie says sitting down in between me and mary "wheres your loo?" cheryl asks mary "oh just down the hall" mary says trying to cover herself up
brian and deaky sat on the other couch opening some champagne or whatever while roger was grabbing glass cups
"come on in, make yourselves at home" freddie says wrapping his arm around mary
"hello mary," brian says "hows your dad?" he says still struggling to open the bottle "yeah pretty well thanks." she says
"whats going on brian?" freddie asks "well if you answered your phone you would know already." brian says
"this isn't really a good time guys." freddie says "john reid called today. he has a little tour in mind for us." brian says
"its not little brian." roger says not even looking at me "he's booked us a tour of america." he says
even with his glasses on i could tell her wasn't looking at me
"the albums hit the charts in the U.S!" roger explains
"oh yes!" freddie says sitting up as he looks at me and mary "yes!" he says as they all look at eachother smiling
"yes!" freddie says again as they all start laughing and form a group hug
"it's happening!" i hear brian say as i look at mary
"christ mary! is that.." i say grabbing her hand that has a ring on it
"i'll tell you about it later" she says smiling at me as i gasp
"mary!" i say squealing, then cheryl comes out
"i better get going." i say hugging mary
"fred" i say as he turns to look at me "i'm gonna head out, if i was in the right condition i would've stayed but i cant, i'm really proud of you though." i say putting on my coat
"so soon? we just got here" deaky says as him and freddie walk towards me
"its because of her" freddie says to deaky in a low voice as john turns to look at cheryl
"oh." he says as freddie hugs me
"i'm proud of you fred." i say into the hug tearing up, my voice shaky "i'm sorry bree." he says looking at me
"don't worry about me, today is YOUR day!" i say as he gives me a worried smile
"i'm sorry we shouldn't have picked her up" deaky says hugging me "its okay, really." i say into the hug "i'm proud of you, my bestfriend." i say letting go and looking up at him "hangout tomorrow?" i ask as he nods his head
him and freddie went back and sat down as i opened the door
"roger." i say turning around before i shut the door
he finally looked at me "your stuff will be outside my apartment door, if it isn't some homeless guy is getting lucky today." i say smiling
as i shut the door i could hear him calling out to me
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as i got home i grabbed all of rogers stuff
i found his shirt that i wore to bed every night, it smelt like him.
"keep." i struggled to say as i grabbed the rest of his stuff
i put it outside my door, i looked down at all of his stuff sitting there, i slowly shut the door as i burst out into tears
again? i think to myself as i shut all my curtains and lights as i lay on my couch
sleep it off. i think to myself as i close my eyes
the pain will go away soon. i say as i slowly drift away
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i woke up to purring on my stomach "little one." i whisper smiling to myself before i remember the events from earlier
i sighed and closed my eyes again before i could hear hurried knocking on my door
i got up slowly and walked towards the door, opening it slowly
john and roger
"you brought him?" i say to john "i'm sorry" he mouthed "aubrey-" roger tried saying as i cut him off
"no, luckily your shit is still there, you can take it and go hang out with that slut of yours." i say looking at all of his stuff on the ground
"why is your apartment so dark?" john says looking behind me
"before i ran away, when i was sad i would lay in a dark room to calm myself down." i say smiling at john
"come in." i say to john letting him move past me, hearing him turning on a lamp or something behind me
"come on!" roger says "he's my ride!" he says looking at john "walk home." i say closing the door as he stops it with his foot
"hear me out?" he says looking at me "5 minutes." i say opening the door and walking out, standing in the hallway with him
"gosh, your mascara is smudge-"
"time is ticking." i say looking at him
"fine, i brought cheryl because i don't know about something." he says "and whats that?" i say crossing my arms
"do you even like me?" he asks as i freeze
"roger, i've liked you for the longest time, obviously the feelings werent mutual," i say rolling my eyes "if you liked me back there wouldn't be another woman, it would only be me." i say grabbing the door nob
"wait!" he says grabbing my hand "i brought her because i like you too, and i thought you wouldn't like me back so i brought her. i'm sorry aubrey adams. i really am." he says looking at me, i could tell he's been crying "your the best thing that has ever happened to me. and i don't want to lose you, i have tour and i can't go to tour with the only woman i want mad at me over my stupid decisions."
"roger, my dream when i was younger was to get away from that shithole, but now that i'm older," i say pausing
"i got a new dream." i say as i tippy toe
"and your my new dream." i say kissing him on the lips
"i'll see you soon so we can talk properly." i say opening my door as he stood there frozen
"bye roger." i say shutting the door as i go and sit beside john
"what the fuck."
yeah so i would've got them to talk it out better but i'm half asleep because its 6 in the morning, next chapter will be better hopefully.