Chapter Nineteen ~ Lightless Star
~Baekhyun's Point of View~
I took her hands, but her eyes wondered away from me. I kissed her cheeks in front of everyone in the neighborhood, who knew I was dating her sister. I put my arms around her shoulders, but she didn't even look at me in the eye once. I pulled on her, and kissed her on the lips. She kissed me back, very intensely, as her kiss pushes me back against the wall. Slowly, tears came down her cheeks as she pulled away from me. She looked away, avoiding me, and pushed me away. I hugged her from the back, and pouted. "Where's that beautiful smile of yours?" I questioned.
She turned to face me, as she continues to cry. My heart aches so much. I wiped her tears away, whispering to her that everything will be okay, but she continuously shakes her head. One hand covers her mouth, and the other pushing me away, as more tears fill her eyes. I took her hands, and held them close to my heart, close enough for her to feel my heart beat.
"Do you realize that when I'm with you, this heart beats a bit faster. Because when you smile, I can smile. When you cry, my heart breaks into thousands and millions of pieces. Cry all you want now, don't hold them in, you'll feel much better." I mentioned. "After, give me your most beautiful smile ever, okay?"
I hugged her, as we both looked up into the sky. "Do you know that you're the best thing that has happened to me? No one can be perfect, but somehow you seem so flawless to me. I don't know what it is, but I want to do everything for you. No matter how hard, I want to stay by your side forever. Lately, I've been doing something that has been hurting you so much, but you've been showing me the most caring side of you. You continuously worry about me, and constantly think about how to help me. You believe in me, you trust me so much. To find someone so understanding like you is just impossible. Remember all the times when we got detention for skipping school after lunch? We ate ice cream together, then ran to our jobs. We slowly saved money up, to find someone to help us find more information about your parents. A lot of those people we looked for tricked us, they looked down on us because we were children and still young, but I had you, who thought I was some hero. All these years, we had each other, I don't want to ever lose you. I'll be very careful to never break your heart, or upset you. I don't want you to leave me ever. I really really like you. You know what I mean right? Just remember I'll always be here for you" I confessed.
Is that a lie? When clearly it's l-ove.. I don't just like her a lot, I really l-o..ve her. I hugged her tighter, and shut my eyes tight, at the thought of discomfort. It must be really hard for her, I really want to know what Ja told her about her parents.. is it really that serious? The look in her eyes scares me, and worries me so much. I've never seen such pain in her eyes ever, not even after those countless nightmares, I've never seen that look in her eyes.
"In advance, I'm sorry.. I can't tell you why, but please don't ask. You're dating ChinHee for some reason, you didn't tell me, and I respected that you couldn't. Respect me please, and don't ask. I'll be fine soon, I won't cry, don't worry about me." I apologized. "I'm fine, really I am. Let's go somewhere, so I can forget about everything. Let's choose something new to try, let's not go to those old places we use to go." I continued.
~My Point of View~
I don't want to go anywhere where we've been to, it'll only bring all the memories we had here, it'll only make me tear up more, and miss him even more. Maybe I can hold in those tears, and force a smile, or maybe Baekhyun's charms can really make me smile. The hugs me gave me were so heartwarming, I really wanted to smile, but his words were so sweet. I was afraid I'd miss them too much, when I'm away from him. I held his hands, as we walked into a restaurant. I looked on the side, as it portrayed pictures of their customers. At the far end, I saw a picture of my mom, my dad, and I when I was a baby. My eyes tingled, as tears started to form again. I pointed at my mom and my dad, their smiles were so beautiful, no wonder Baekhyun says my smile makes him smile. My beautiful smile comes from my parents.
I asked the owner of this restaurant, whom just seemed to pass by, about the picture. He told me that this restaurant was their favorite restaurant, and that they would come here almost everyday. I looked at the walls, the tables, and the seats. Everything does seem familiar, even the smell. I closed my eyes for a minute, and pictured myself as the little baby my mom held in her arms.
"Perhaps, are you the baby girl in this picture?" The owner asked, as he looked into my eyes with worry.
I nodded, and requested to keep this picture. He agreed, and gave me a tight hug. He wished me good luck, good wealth, good health, and all happiness. His face turned from happiness to sorrow. Does everyone know about my parents death? It must have affected so many people around, not just me. I never realized that.
"Thank you, I hope you can always be happy and may good things come your way. Thank you for always being so true to my parents, and posting this picture here. I bet they are so thankful, and are watching over us up in heaven." I marveled, then put a hand over my mouth, as I tried to hold in my tears.
"You've grown to be so positive, and such a beautiful, smart girl. If only they could see their beautiful daughter. You bring so many smiles, the way your parents once did. It'll mean a lot to us if you came here more often and visited them." He praised, pointing at the group of people, sitting at the corner. "They had all sorts of problems, but your parents helped them so much. They were so hurt, because they were unable to say thank you to them once before they left. They just left so early.." He added.
I hugged him tight, as my tears came running down. Today is such a depressing day.. I want to come here everyday, and even sleep here all night. I bet it'll feel a lot more like home. I'll be around people who understand my pain, and we can cry together. We can laugh together, and smile together as we share our memories with my parents. Too bad.. I really can't, Ja has already planned for my flight tonight, and I can't say no to her. I might never see these group of people ever again after tomorrow, including Baekhyun, I don't know when I will come back. It's according to Ja.. or.. according to my heart. Ja mentioned that I'll stay there as long as until my heart stops loving Baekhyun.. what if I never stop loving him? What if.. each day, I'm still loving him more and more? Does that mean I never get to see Baekhyun or my parent's friends? It's too early to say this, but the last thing I want to do before I die, is to spend days and nights with all these people, including Baekhyun. I still need to marry Baekhyun.. but if that's too much, at least I need to become is girlfriend..
I took the picture, and walked over to Baekhyun. I took a seat next to him, and leaned on his shoulders, as I stared at my family picture. It's the most precious picture I can ever hold in my hands. Even though I'm not as cute as other babies, I really love this picture more than anything. Baekhyun hugged me tight, and kissed me on the top of my head.
"I didn't mean to bring you to this restaurant.. If I knew it'll make you hurt even more.. then I.." He started.
"What are you saying..?" I interrupted him.
"Ja said you were crying in the morning, because she told you something about your parents. I wanted to bring you out, so you wouldn't have to think about them for a bit. I want you to be relaxed and happy.. but I failed.." He responded.
So that's the lie Ja told him.. he doesn't even know how much of my tears I cried today, was because of him, not my parents. But it's okay, at least I won't have to make up a lie to tell you, Baekhyun.
...To Be Continued~~~
Uhh so depressing!! Anyways~ thank you so much for reading! I hope you enjoy reading~ have a beautiful day(: