The things I desperately wanted
By those memories I'm still haunted
I worked hard day and night
I thought that was my only light
But when I finally got what I wished for
Felt like I couldn't care anymore
The scenario of excitement I expected to feel
Was way too far from the real
I was lifeless, devoid of any emotion
Like how a river is before it meets the ocean
I should be over the moon
Though I'm sure it won't happen anytime soon
It's like every single joy is sucked out of me
It isn't for the world to see
They don't know my inner turmoil
They don't see my constant toil
Only I know how hard I work in silence
It's just the sound of my outcomes that sirens
They overshadow my restless nights of efforts
Insincere praises they blurt
I'm tired of this repeated cycle
But they've already put on me,this title.
And now it's too late to stop
So this facade I cannot drop.
~bangtannieforlife