im always told i have a big personality. i have 2 of them. one is loud, big and playful. the other one is quiet, loner and organized. normally i have the 2nd one at school as the "weird/quiet kid". i cant help it though. ever since elementary ive changed because of being bullied. everytime i go to school i change instantly to loud to quiet and if i do either of them i would still be bullied. if im loud ill be considered childish. if im quiet im considered weird. i cant control which personality it is. thats why i want everything to go back when i wasnt insecure, thinking i have to act perfect so i dont mess anything up. bullying and people close dying affected me a lot. i have 2 personalities, i think down on myself, low self-esteem, having to act like im so great to act like i dont hate myself. my intestines hurt. i wish i had one personality that im able to control.
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