Sam
"Hey wake up..HELP!"
bullshit
I pushed my palm in her chest and start doing a CPR
I leaned and listen to her nose if she's breathing
fuck
"Mon wake up.."
I pushed my palm repeatedly and after I chin her up and leaned to her mouth and open it
I blow in her mouth pinning my lips on her and pump her chest again
"HELP! FUCK WAKE UP.!"
*cough
bigla syang napaubo ng tubig na marami
Oh thanks god
Pinatagilid ko sya agad
after that, I laid beside her
I can hear our deep breathing synching together
*Snif
"Sam."
I heard her but I didn't look at her
stupid
"Why?" she asked
I felt her hand running up in my chest up in my neck and caressed my cheeks
she's trying to turn my head but she's too week to even pull my head
I remove her hand and sit up
"Hey come on it's freezing." I tried to pulled her up
umiling sya
"I lost my energy.." she whispered
she look lifeless
I took a deep breath
I get up and snake my arm in her neck and thighs pulling her up and carry her
"urhh."
"Hug my neck." I said
she hugged my neck and when her face touches my neck
I feel the electrifying feeling run through my system
and it got worst because of her heavy breathing
"Shh you're crying since you woke up."
she's too weak to talk back
I wanted to laugh
she saved me even she's not a swimmer
kaya kong hindi huminga sa tubig ng 2 mins and 30 seconds, and I'm planning to drown myself after, but she ruined it
she actually save me
but
she put herself in danger
stupid kid
"Oh gosh what happened?" the nurse approach me
"I already called a doctor." I said
she nodded and let us in
"Where a- we?" she asked weakly
"clinic."
I put her on the chair and lock the restroom
I turned on the hot shower at napapikit sya dahil dun
"We need to change our clothes."
"I have n-"
"I have extra." I said
she nodded
I start unbuttoning her polo uniform and I don't know why my hands are shaking
"Why would you do that?"
I didn't answer
when I finally remove her uniform I suddenly stunned because of her sexiness
she's only wearing a brazier and underwear
she sit properly and try to unclasped her bra but I stop her
I don't know why I feel so tensed
she rolled her eyes and do what she wants
the nurse knock and I open the door, she gave me two towels and clothes white shirts and white shorts
I put the clothes on top of the sink and look at mon
tsk, tsk, tsk
she have a nice boobs bigger than mine
I took a deep breath and go closer
I turned off the shower and squeeze the excess water on her hair and place the towel on her head after
"are you okay?" she asked
"I'm fine."
"I thought-" she's stop and was about to cry but I held her face and stared at her coldly
"Don't." pikon na sabi ko "Kaya mo na bang tumayo?"
"Feeling dizzy." she said
hays
I dried her body except the..
"You're not going to remove your underwear?" I asked her
she look away
"How about I will change it? the nurse gave us disposable underwear, pipikit ako promise."
__________
"Just let her sleep, 2 hours is enough to restore her energy."
"Thank you doc."
the doctor gave her med incase she feel stomache
Mon is already sleeping
what if when she jump, I'm already dead?
stupid
no one is going to save her
what happened at the pool is like a nightmare
I almost reveal myself to alex and he force his hand on mine while we're making out
I pushed him and he gets mad and tried to rip my skirt
'I said stop!' I yelled at him
'fuck sam.. why you're not letting me touch you huh?' he yelled frustratedly
I breathing heavily
'I am breaking up with you." I whispered
'WHAT? I THOUGHT YOU LOVE ME!" He rush towards me and grab my shoulder
'Alex-'
I pushed him
'may iba kana ba kaya ka nakikipag break sakin?'
kitang kita ko ang sakit sa mga mata nya pero kasi kung ipagpapatuloy ko pa tong relasyon namin.. paulit ulit lang ang mga bagay na pagtatalunan namin
'I'm so tired for everything, I need to focus on my studies.' I said and tried not to cry
ayoko na darating ang araw na madiskubre nya kung ano ako
siguradong mandidiri sya sakin
when he left me at the pool area my tears fell like a water fall
the pain in my chest is too strong to handle, I really love him
he's my first boyfriend
I questioned everything..
Why I need to live this way?
I look at myself at the water and I'm really look like a girl my heart, my body, my personality, my hobbies
the only problem is my willy
we have money to fix my problem but mom, dad, and grandpa, are going to kill me if I change my sex gender
I jumped into the water and deep down my body
parang gusto ko nalang mawala
__________
Mon
When I woke up at the clinic there's no sam beside me
the nurse said umuwi na daw
I received a message from Mosco earlier and she's worried sick and rush to go back here in school
Mama and papa already know what happened
Tumawag ang nurse sa cellphone ko at si mosco ang natawagan, ang sabi nahulog daw ako sa pool at buti nalang napadaan si Sam at nakita akong nalulunod
Tss. what a fucking liar!
"My God Monica.."
pagpasok ko palang ng bahay sinalubong ako agad ng yakap ni mama
"Pano kaba nahulog ah? pano kung walang nakakita sayo huhu ang bunso ko.."
"Mama I'm finally okay shh."
hinagod ko ang likod nito dahil umiiyak na sya
"Bakit kaba nahulog?" baritonong tanong ni papa
napatingin ako kay papa pero pumukaw sakin ang masamang tingin ni mosco sa likod ni papa
"Nahulog kaba talaga? O may nambully sayo?" malamig na tanong ni mosco
Nagulat si papa sa tanong ni mosco
"Bakit mosco my nambubully ba sa kapatid mo dun?" galit na tanong nito
"Wala pa, naamaze lang talaga ako dahil sa school namin walang indoor pool, nadulas po ako at nahulog."
"Talaga bah?"
"Opo pa.."
he sighed and go towards me and hugged me too
"Becareful next time what if samian is not there? hayss."
Mom let go of me and sit on the couch
"We have a business meeting with the Chankimha next week, come with us we're going to thank samian for saving you."
she said
woah
really?
isasama ako?
_____
The days goes by and samian is always avoiding me in school
I always seen her studying at the library that's why I always studying there too
whenever I'm trying to approach her she just staring at me and like asking me why I am talking to her
I know it's weird because I'm Mosco's sister
and the idea that she hate mosco it's normal that she don't want to talk to me too
Rana said that she is so busy catching up on her requirements that every subject teacher has assigned to her
My day is incomplete without seeing her, and it frustrates me whenever I don't see her.
"Oh samian where the hell are you again.." I blurted out
I'm here at the library but she's not here
"Hoy, Malala kana girl." yuki said and clap her hand Infront of my eyes
"hindi mo ba sya nakita?" tanong ko
"Hmm hindi.. hala ka monica obsession na tawag dyan, dapat crush crush lang."
I take a deep breath and look so down
sa Wednesday pa ang business meeting ng parents ko sakanila eh monday palang ngayon
Saturday and Sunday parang parusa na nga sakin eh
hindi narin masyadong nakakapag update si rana dahil paulut ulit lang ang nakikita nya
'She's busy studying mon.'
hays
"My god mom I would never cut my hair, I don't wanna see grandpa anymore."
Napatalon ako ng makita si Sam na kakapasok lang ng Library at may kausap ito sa phone
I can't help myself but to smile
"Ayieee birthday mo?"
I look at yuki and signalling her to keep quiet
"Mom I said I don't want to." I heard sam said feeling exhausted
I frowned
she sit on the chair far away from us and bowed her head at the table
I get up and look at yuki
"would you mind if I-"
"Sure.." she said and get up
"Where are you going.?" I asked her
"Hmm Canteen."
I nodded and chuckled
when yuki already leave I walk towards sam
My excitement is possessing my body
God mon... Act normal
"Ehem." I cleared my throat
Sam Look up at me and frowned
I sit Infront of her
"hmm hi? how are you?"
"Do you think short hair fits on me?" she asked
napanganga ako bigla dahil sa tanong nya
I smiled
"Hmm I don't know? but your hair right now is looks good on you."
her eyes enlightened
"You seem so stress, are you alright sam?"
umiling sya
"You supposed to hate me, I lied to the nurse."
I ignored what she said
"Maybe you hated my sister but I hope you let me to be your friend.. Sam I really, really like you... ahm to be my friend."
umiling iling sya
"Cute." she said
"Huh?"
"You're to obvious kid, you like me and I wanna say sorry, I don't like lesbian."
para akong binuhusan ng malamig na tubig sa sinabi nya
"I'm not a lesbian.."
"Then what?"
"I'm straight Sam I like boys."
her expression suddenly change she look down and look so sad
"Sorry, I know no one's gonna like me."
"Huh? No, I mean, I like boys before but yes Sam I do like you." mabilis na wika ko
she look up at bigla nalang natawa
"Tss. I got you easily."
Huh?
baliw..
"Bitch.!" I hissed angrily
"So you really like me? for real?" she asked again
"Nevermind." I get up and walk fast away from her
Fuck her
"Hey." rinig ko
She followed me?
"Mon."
No, Nagtatampo ako
hays kapal talaga ng mukha ko
Nagtatampo sa wala
"If you're not a lesbian why do you like me?"
"Not anymore."
"Hey stop walking too fast."
I ignored her
"You're too young, how old are you?" humarap ako bigla sakanya kaya nabangga mukha ko sa dibdib nya
"Opps."
damn
"15 turning 16 on December." I said and I feel my cheeks is burning right now
"Ohh I thought you're more younger, I'm turning 17 on August."
"I know."
"huh?"
"nothing."
she crossed her arms Infront of me
"Why are you running?"
"You pissed me off." I rolled my eyes on her
she chuckled
"Hmm if you really want to be my friend, help me with my term paper-"
I raised my one eyebrow
"This is my last requirement, and your requirement too if you really want me to be your friend."
I examine her face
using her wise ways on me huh?
Tss.
she's dealing with the devil..
"Hmm okay."
her eyes widened
"That fast?"
I smirked.