Guys I've not wrote for ages and for that I am sorry but I have a good reason.
My medication has doubled and my life is getting worse by the second. I feel my only options left are to run away or self harm again. I'm now about 6ish months clean of self harm and I still have to look at my scars which are now luckily white but they hold black stories.
The worst is a scar on my middle arm saying "unwanted" which everyone still calls me and I haven't told anyone about this until now because I know that most of you will never know me.
I have already wrote a note for if I run away but I will only do so if the social services take me away from my parents.
I'm seeing the court for children in the holidays and they are coming for a house inspection and if they believe that after meeting my mom and decide she is no good for me I will be taken from her and put into a care home where I will stay till I'm 18.
Please pray for me so I don't get put into a home guys. I love you all so much bye.