Tamia
"u straight" Jayden asked me and I nodded he eyed me before walking out the room
it's been 3 days after our lil fight and we ain't been talking fr, he don't even sleep in the bed wit me this man literally sleep in the guest room. he been staying home a lil more tho ig tryna prove he ain't cheating idc tbh
Idk part of me feel like I did take the situation to far but the other feel like I did wtf I did cus I felt played with in that moment and when you mad you don't think fr you just do shit outta anger and that's where allat hitting came from
I can admit I was wrong cus after the first warning when he said "hit me again imma punch you in yo shit on my son" I should've stopped but nah I kept going. Like I really made the situation worse.
we still ain't even talk about it and ts blowing me.
then von came and got vontae yesterday and said he ah bring him back when we get our house together cus he don't need to be around this toxic energy and i definitely feel him on that
My brother also explained to me that I was wrong too and he told me how. I just wanna talk about it. von said I need to hear Jayden out.
"Jayden" I called out
"what" he said popping up inna doorway with the meanest look on his face
"I love you" I said
"I love you too mia wtf u want" he said
"I wanna talk" I mumbled
"ion wanna talk rn" he simply said
"Jayden we ain't talk in 3 days. im tryna hear you out" I said
"ion gaf about you hearing me out nomo cus you gone be think whatchu want mia ion got time to keep explaining myself" he said
"so what we gone do Jayden if we ain't gone talk? break up" i asked confused
"did i say dat mia? yk dat breaking up shit dead asf ian going for it but ian finna keep tryna tell yo ass dat I ain't cheating bruh ts getting old and aggravating we been doing ts since we got tg" he stressed to me
"Jayden can u just work with me? Im sorry fr. Just tell me the truth tho that lying in my face shit ain't gone work" i said
"I am working witchu mia bruh. I told you ts old! I hit da lil bitch when vontae was first born me and quan. ts old idk why she talking about it" he said
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"Why yo head so fucked up" Jayden asked me
"wym" I asked passing the blunt
"why you so angry? why you don't trust nobody" he asked
"because don't nobody care about me but me and my siblings" i said truthfully
"my whole life its always been mia vs the world" I said
"my own momma don't even love me Jayden how df imma expect for somebody else to love me when growing up ian feel nun of ts. Idk wtf love is, never felt ts. only ppl that ever loved me unconditionally is my brother and sisters. Jayden i feel Lost like ion got nb. Im in the cold ass world with nobody. just me and my son" i said
"I can't trust nobody because after all i been through. My whole life been ah lie until i was 17 mfs wanna start telling me the truth about everything. Ian gone go into detail cus ts fed asf but still" i said
"why you think imma against u" he asked
"Ion feel like you against me, i feel like you tryna play with me and my heart" i said
"Why"
"because that's the Jayden i met" I shrugged
"u right"
"I shouldn't have showed you dat side of me. but at that time mia we was like best friends ian think we was gone get together Fr. We would tell each other shit because we wasn't together. We did the shit we did cus we was single. im not dat kinda nigga I keep telling you dat" he said
"If you don't hurt me I won't hurt you ever, im here to protect you. to fucking love you da right way. Ian here to fight witchu and argue all day ts tiring mia ong" he said
"like on my son I love you to death but how df imma love you right if you don't even trust me" he asked
"like damn wassup wit dat" he asked
"I letchu do you ain't it. I letchu go to true house, and yk ion even want chu over dey cus that nigga but I trust you bruh. I letchu go out without me calling you every 5 minutes to make sure you ain't fucking off, I letchu do you bruh cus I trust you I feel like you wouldn't even fuck me over like dat"
"ik I got ya heart shawty so I ain't worried bout allat extra shit. you gotta know you come before anybody. all these bitches. nobody topping you bae ion even look at these bitches I look at you. you a queen dey ah hoe" he said making me laugh
"nah on some real shit tho I apologize for putting my hands on ya" he told me
"I apologize too and I apologize for not letting you talk, for even making the situation get that far to where we even had to fight"
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"aye cuhh it's getting late im finna head out" jt said to da boys
we sitting out here on the bricks cus jt had serves. It's late asf. Like 12.
"get up witchu tmr" los said
"Ard sis" dey said
"see y'all later" I said
"Love nigga" dey told jt
"Love foe" jt said
We walked to the car, and we got in. I laid my head on the window while he rolled up as if we ain't just smoke. after he rolled up he pulled off
"u want something to eat" he asked
"yeah" I said
"whatchu want" he asked
"American deli" I smiled and he laughed
"u greedy" he chuckled placing his hand on my thigh before moving it up to my area making me laugh
"order da food" he told me
"we gone share a plate" I asked
"Mhmm" he nodded
I called American deli and I got us some chicken and a Philly cheesesteak and a side of Fries cus we greedy and we love to eat.
"Hm" he passed me the blunt
by the time we smoked the blunt we was sitting outside of American deli high asf.
"bae go get da food" I said
"im tired" he mumbled grabbing his gun, I handed him my card and he smacked it down
"boy stop get this fucking card" I said
"I got it bae" he told me
"come on bae at least lettme buy dinner" I pouted and he took the card