Important ‼️ Do read the prologue before proceeding to the first chp, or you may get confused at few places.
— A y e z a h ' s P O V 𖤐 :
I discarded my white, long, warm, fluffy overcoat, revealing my all-black attire.
I was dressed in sleek black tight leggings that hugged my legs perfectly, paired with a black full-sleeved, tight, warm turtle neck top. My hair neatly tied into a high ponytail.
I placed my coat to the side and stood at the edge of the ice skating rink, taking in the sight before me. It was my own private ice skating rink.
A place where i glide whenever things get too much for me to handle.
I clutched onto my snowflake pendant with my palm, which delicately hung on my turtle neck top.
The pendant was very dear to me.
My mother made me wear it when i was young, saying that I should never take it off.
Unfortunately my mom wasn't alive.
It was plain shiny chain with a medium sized delicate snowflake hanging through it. The snowflake was very beautiful with its bluish intricate details which made it look like almost real snowflake.
I curled my bottom lip between my teeth, Holding the pendant tightly, I took deep breaths.
"Addin, I could never hurt her. I married her because I didn't want to hurt her more. I have hurt her enough by rejecting her twice. And who could better know how badly it hurts to be in one-sided love than me?"
I gracefully glide across the ice rink, Rahil's words from earlier when he was talking with his bestfriend, who is also my cousin, on the call, echoing in my mind. The weight of his words hit me like a ton of bricks.
I couldn't believe what i unintentionally heard from his conversation with Addin.
The pain in my heart was unbearable and without any single thoughts I left his house.
Now, here I am, all alone at the ice rink on the very first night of our marriage.
He married me just because he didn't wanted to hurt me? Does that mean he married me out of pity? to spare me from the heartbreak of further rejection? Because he understood the pain of unrequited love?
I hoped and thought that the time we spend 4 years back as friends, also the time we spend as business partners recently because of the collaboration of our companies, had made him develop feelings for me. I thought he too had started to feel something for me.
But it turns out that it was never the case. It has always been only me.
He never fell for me nor he will ever fall for me. This was crystal clear to me now.
He only married me because he felt guilty about rejecting me twice. He's just too good-hearted to intentionally hurt me any further.
I didn't know what to do? What was i going to do Now? Should i just pretend I didn't hear anything but how?? How could i live with him knowing this? Knowing he just pities me. I couldn't do that.
With each sleek glide, the pain in my heart intensifies. I push myself to glide faster, raising my back foot smoothly.
The emotions overwhelmed me. A tear rolled off from the corner of my eyes. I felt myself loosing balance and almost falling.
You are not gonna cry Ayezah! You are strong. Stronger than you think.
No tears Ayezah! Hold yourself together.
Get a grip of yourself.
My mom's word ranged in my head and i immediately balanced myself and wiped off the tears which slowly started cascading down my cheeks with the backside of my palm.
I was standing straight when i suddenly felt a sharp pain in my chest. I lightly tapped my chest and then sat down on my legs, well, not completely, because I had my skates on.
I took deep breaths, calming myself down, gulping and rubbing my face with my palms.
— ★
I arrived at Rahil's mansion, and it was almost past midnight now.
As Rahil had previously told me the password to his door, I unlocked it and entered his absolutely stunning cozy mansion with two floors, which was made mostly of glass.
My coat was hanging on my hand as I made my way to the living room. There, I saw Rahil sleeping on the couch. I reached into the pocket of my coat and took out my phone, noticing numerous missed calls and texts from him.
Did I make him worry by disappearing just like that?
Clutching onto my snowflake pendant, I bit my lower lip.
Slowly, I made my way towards Rahil and kneeled in front of him. He was sleeping with a frown on his face, as if he had been exhausted but resisted sleep. However, he had eventually fallen asleep.
I couldn't help but gaze at his gorgeous face. His long, beautiful curly lashes rested on his cheekbones, complementing with his perfect eyebrows. His full, dark pink lips made me gulp, and my heart raced. I lost track of time as I just gazed at him with my heart thumping loudly.
It was hard to look away, and suddenly, he opened his eyes, catching me off guard.
" Ayezah!! where the heck were you?? I called you so many times and even texted you! Do you realize what time it is? What were you thinking before vanishing just like that? Do you have any idea how worried I was? I couldn't even reach your dad because it's freaking midnight! " He yelled slightly, jumping up from his seat.
" I had no clue where you were, and I couldn't just wander the streets like a maniac. Well, actually, I was about to do just that, but I thought you were a responsible woman who would come back soon or atleast call me or text me back, so I waited. But how could you be so irresponsible? " I slowly stood up too.
"Answer me! Where were you?" he demanded. I found myself staring into his warm brown eyes, feeling a huge lump forming in my throat.
I gulped, feeling my vision blurring and things infront of me rotating slightly. I shut my eyes, and opened it again to clear my vision.
"I'm exhausted. I'm just gonna go get some sleep," I managed to say, gesturing towards the room behind with my hand.
"But-" he began, but I quickly interrupted him.
"please."
He let out a heavy sigh, nodding his head, and ran his hand through his already tousled hair, making it even messier.
I turned around and hurriedly walked towards the room upstairs without looking back.
As soon as I reached the room, I unzipped my suitcase and pulled out my pastel blue pajamas. The full-sleeved shirt matched perfectly with the pants, adorned with delicate white mini flower prints.
I sensed his presence entering the room. I licked my dry lips and made my way towards the washroom, but suddenly, everything around me blurred again, and my head spun as if the world was spinning too.
I almost lost my balance, falling backwards, when a strong arm swiftly got wrapped around my waist, preventing me from hitting the ground. His other hand held my shoulder blade, keeping me in place.
"Ayezah!" He called out, his voice filled with concern. My vision cleared slightly, and I found myself locking eyes with his warm brown gaze, brimming with worry.
I straightened up immediately, my hand pressed against my forehead. He was still holding my waist firmly.
"I'm okay," I muttered.
"No, you're not! Come here." He gently held my shoulders and guided me towards the bed.
He made me sit on the bed and hurried over to the bedside table. He poured a glass of water from the jug and rushed back to me, kneeling down.
He held the backside of my head, Bringing the glass close to my lips, he carefully made me drink the water with his hand. I sipped the water, gazing at him.
"Are you okay?" he asked, his eyes filled with concern as he looked at me. I nodded, letting out a huff. "It's probably because I haven't eaten anything since morning."
"What? WHY?" he suddenly exclaimed loudly, making me flinch slightly since he was sitting close to me.
"I'm sorry," he quickly apologized.
"I was so busy getting ready for Nikkah that I didn't have any time at all." I said.
"But still, Ayezah! You need to take care of yourself first! Skipping meals and that too all your meals is not acceptable at all, so next time you better don't repeat this." He spoke out sternly.
My heart thundered at his words and I found myself nodding absentmindedly.
His soft caring side is my weakness. Whenever he shows his caring side for me, I couldn't help but fall more for him.
" you really okay right? " He asked and i mumbled a small 'yes' nodding my head.
He smiled slightly, saying " Okay, Now you go and freshen up! I'll quickly cook for you."
"That's really not necessary-" I tried to say, but he didn't let me finish. "I'll freshen up in the front room! You quickly come downstairs, okay?"
With that, he immediately left. I watched his retreating figure moving outside.
— ★
I was sitting on the long stool near the kitchen slab, holding a hot coffee mug with both of my palms which was placed on the table.
Mindlessly caressing the warm mug, I couldn't help but gaze at the gorgeous man standing before me. He was wearing an apron, his t-shirt sleeves rolled up, revealing his attractive veiny hands. His wet hair was messy, falling on his forehead, indicating that he had just taken a shower.
After taking a relaxing bath and putting on my pajamas, I sat with my damp hair flowing freely.
He tossed the spaghetti noodles into the pan of water, spreading them out, and suddenly looked up at me.
Caught off guard, I immediately looked away, focusing on my coffee mug.
I heard him chuckle, and when I looked up, I saw him smiling widely, while shaking his head and looking down at the pan.
My cheeks turned red with embarrassment, realizing that he had caught me gawking at him without even realizing it.
To hide the embarrassment I suddenly took a sip of the hot coffee without thinking and let out a little hiss as it burned my tongue.
"Hey, be careful!" he exclaimed. "You should focus on one hot thing at a time!" He smirked at me playfully.
Oh!
Placing the mug on the table, I pressed my lips together.
"But you know, I'm Ayezah Shah! I have experience of handling a lot of hot things together." I smirked back at him, and he raised his eyebrows as if to say, 'Oh really?' Then he chuckled shaking his head, making me smile widely.
He served me the spaghetti and sat down beside me on the long stool. I muttered a quick 'thank you', Grabbing the fork and immediately started to gobble down the spaghetti.
I stuffed my mouth full and had to bend down a little because the spaghetti noodles were so long. My damp hair fell over my face, but I remained unbothered as I continued stuffing my mouth.
Suddenly, I felt his fingers brush against the side of my forehead, sending electric jolts through my body.
I stopped midway, the fork remained in the air. He gently tucked my hair back, looking at me with a soft gaze. I gazed back at him.
"I never thought Ayezah Shah could eat like this too," he chuckled. "I thought you always ate very slowly and neatly, like you usually eat in business meetings and such."
"Ah, well, I'm just really hungry right now. When I'm starving, I tend to eat like this, you know." I hesitantly replied, holding my one palm to my mouth, covering it.
"It's cute," he said with a smile.
"What's cute?" I asked, confused as i again turned towards the plate and stuffed my mouth full.
" You are cute." He said while smiling widely, and i snapped my head towards him immediately with a stuffed mouth.
My stupid heart thundered very loudly and i felt like it was beating in my ears.
What's wrong with him today? He never said such things to me ever! Not Even when we were friends 4 years back, not even when we were business partners since almost one month now.
We just gazed at each other for few seconds, before i forcefully looked away.
It was kinda hard to tear your gaze off his warm brown eyes.
"Umm, you aren't eating?" I asked chewing slowly and he shook his head.
"Well, I thought that only I could impress myself with my cooking skills, but you too cook damn good! Spaghetti is so yumm!" I exclaimed.
"Oh, gurl, you have no idea how great of a cook I am! You'll doubt your own skills if you try my cooking," he confidently replied.
"Huh! No chance," I retorted.
"Well then, let's do a cooking competition someday, appoint a judge, and see who comes out on top. What do you say?" he asked, extending his hand for a shake. I looked at him, then at his hand, and smirked. "Ayezah loves challenges," I said as I shook his hand.
" By the way, can I ask where you were earlier?" He asked, my smile faded a bit. I slowly freed my hand from his hand
"I just sort of went to my regular place to clear my mind," I replied, looking at spaghetti and tucking few hair strands behind my ear.
" Is something bothering you?" he asked and I immediately looked at him, concern evident in his warm eyes.
"Addin, I could never hurt her. I married her because I didn't want to hurt her more. I have hurt her enough by rejecting her twice. And who could better know how badly it hurts to be in one-sided love than me?"
I gazed into his eyes, his words from earlier echoing in my head.
"Umm, Rahil! I'm really, really drained, Can I just go to sleep?" I pleaded.
He looked at me for few seconds as if trying to read me. He then nodded slightly, sighing.
"By the way, can I stay in the front room of yours just for few days? Like, you know I'm not used to sharing one room with someone so it will take a little time for me." I said.
I need to clear the mess in my mind and it's not possible if I stay with him in the same room.
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