Alec was in surgery. Blake couldn't breathe. All he could do was worry. Bringing his fingers up to his lips he grazed them. The touch from Alec's own ones still lingering upon his skin. His heart skipping a beat. His head still not fully processing the moment. That was Blake's first kiss, first time he's seen Alec break, show him emotion. Was it wrong? Was it too soon? All Blake knew is that his body wanted it, liked it. It felt wrong, so wrong. But he liked it, his body wanted more. To look into the jocks eyes as he caressed his cheek.
Alec didn't deserve him, he never will. Blake's never been in situations like this, dealt with these emotions inside of him. He didn't know what to do. All he knew is that he needed to be there for the older boy. He couldn't leave, god why would he leave. He can't explain these feelings. The way the older boy made his heart stop. Made his stomach turn. He liked his touch, body craved it even. It was like a disease that had taken over his body. Filling his head, filling his dreams. He was supposed to hate diseases. He liked this one.
Alec made him feel claustrophobic, intoxicated. But god did it make Blake feel things he's never felt before. He knew he wasn't good for him, did he listen? No. Did he want to give up what they were building? Not at all. Blake wanted Alec in his life. He couldn't imagine a life without the boy. Who knew the jock could have such an effect on Blake in the space of two weeks. He just hoped this one stayed, showed no signs of leaving. He didn't want this boy to leave his life, he wanted him in it.
"Blake" A manly voice spoke up. The smaller one's eyes meeting the doctors as he gave him a small smile. Standing up Blake was quick to rush over standing before the middle aged doctor.
"He's okay, a little drowsy but you're able to see him now" nodding his head Blake thanked the doctor before heading to Alec's designated room. Standing outside the door Blake couldn't help but hesitate. What's Alec gonna say, what will Blake say himself. Biting his bottom lip he took a deep breath before opening the door. Their gazes quick to meet. Blake's breath leaving his body as it hitched.
A smile raising upon the older jocks lips as he examined Blake. Slowly walking over Blake didn't know what to say. His eyes trained on Alec's as the older jock held his hand out. Interlocking their fingers Blake acted upon impulse. Wrapping his arms around Alec's neck, this action only stunned Alec. Smiling he was quick to wrap his arms around Blake's waist. Planting a kiss on the younger one's neck Alec felt weird inside. Other than pain attacking his body with every moment. This was a good weird feeling. One he hoped to grow getting used to.
"I'm okay I promise" The older one spoke. Watching as Blake pulled away Alec hoped he had leaned in to kiss him. However Blake only gave Alec a worried look as he stood before him. Blake didn't believe him, he wanted to. However he just couldn't believe Alec. The way he broke down in front of him, the way he let his emotions show in front of Blake. Blake hated to admit the impulse to believe him. He just couldn't. He doesn't wanna lose Alec. Why would he? Alec's the only person to actually talk to him.
Give him a chance. Not treat him like nothing but an outcast. Glare at him in school. Talk about him behind his back. Alec's actually tried, treated him like any normal person. That's what Blake liked about the older boy. Despite the differences he hasn't once treated him like shit. Instead he's shown love, something friends don't do. Friends don't kiss, friends don't call each other cute, friends don't have feelings for one n other than make them go dizzy. Make them feel claustrophobic. That's not what friends do. Did he hate that Alec made him feel this way? No.
"Blake" Alec's voice took the younger boy out of his trance. Looking into Alec's eyes Blake felt the older boys hand tug at his shirt. "Are you okay" Alec found himself asking. The look of worry taking over the jocks face. Giving Alec a small smile Blake nodded slowly.
"I should be the one asking you that Alec" Chuckling to Blake's response Alec tugged the younger boy closer. He wanted his touch, needed his touch. He wouldn't tell Blake how much his touch has come to comfort him. It felt alienated to the older boy. He's never felt this much comfort, lust in someone before. The urge to just pull the boy closer and claim him, tell him he's his, he belongs to no one else but him. Alec found it so hard not to take upon his impulses.
"Are you okay" Blake asked, letting the older boy tug him closer. Biting his bottom lip Alec merely nodded his head. "Only cause you're here with me" Feeling his cheeks flush Blake felt his nerves rise. These words making his stomach turn. That same claustrophobic feeling hitting his head. His mouth becoming dry as the older boy inches him closer.
"Blake you don't understand" Alec couldn't help but run his fingers through the younger boys hair. Watching as Blake leaned into his touch, that same small smile tugging at his lips. The one Alec had grown to like, wish to see on the smaller one's lips more.
"You do things to me" meeting Alec's gaze Blake only felt his heart beat fasten. His cheeks burning a hot red as he watched the older boy, leaning into his warm touch. "What things" The younger one found himself asking.
"That's the problem, I don't know how to explain it, it's just you, you make me feel these alienated emotions" Blake couldn't help but smile at these words. His heart skipping a beat. Chest tightening as the older boy pulled him closer.
"But there's nothing interesting about me Alec" The older jock only chuckled to his boys words.
"But to me you're interesting" Alec's deep voice sending a shiver down Blake's spine. Their faces inches away. The pain subsiding upon Alec's body as he focused on Blake.
"Why" Alec only smiled as this question ran through his head. He didn't know why, why did Blake interest him. That he does not know. The way his body reacts to the smaller one. The way his mind fills with images of him. He wanted to hate it, he couldn't. He wanted to push the boy away for making him feel these things. The way he brings out his emotions, breaks down his walls. He's never let anyone do this, break him within an instant. With a look, with his voice. He wanted to shield himself, around Blake that had accompanied to become impossible.
"You tell me" Blake only smiled as he bit his bottom lip.
"I can't tell you what I don't know Alec" Running his fingers along Blake's bottom lip Alec only smiled.
"Then show me" These words only confused Blake, his eyebrows raising. "Alec I" placing his finger onto Blake's lips Alec shushed the boy. His lips tugging into that same smirk he found himself pulling the day they had collided.
"Then I'll show you" pulling Blake's hands Alec kept his gaze on Blakes. Signalling for him to get on his lap the younger boy obliged. Straddling the older jocks legs Blake felt his heart stop. Watching Alec, Blakes breath only hitched as he felt Alec's hand graze his neck. His fingers tingling as they collided with the smaller one's skin. Blake's eyes blooming into the older jocks. Blake's heart beating faster, skin beginning to burn. Cheeks flashing that same bright red. The colour Alec had gotten used to seeing on Blake.
Watching Blake's Adam's apple pulsate Alec felt arousal course through his body. The urge to kiss that part of his neck, make the boy before him shudder to his touch. Trailing his fingers along the rim of Blake's shirt Alec only smiled as his gaze trailed back onto Blake's. His skin becoming hot, tender as he slipped his hand under the smaller one's shirt. His fingers grazing Blake's sensitive skin. His boys breath hitching as he watched Alec. Alec's need for touch growing, the need to feel Alec touch him more. What was this boy doing to him.
Gripping Blake's waist Alec bit his bottom lip. He knew he could possibly be crossing a line. Was this too soon? Should he stop? These thoughts only left him as a soft moan escaped Blake's tongue. His hand immediately covering his mouth. Eyes wide open. Chucking to this reaction Alec only pulled Blake's hand away from his mouth.
"I'll stop" Watching as Blake's eyes roamed Alec's, Alec felt his heart beat rise. Arousal yet worry filling his body. Had he done something wrong, was this wrong? Had he fucked up. Pulling his hand away from Blake's waist the younger boy stopped him. His hand wrapping around the older boys wrist.
"No i, I don't know" Letting the younger boy place his hand on his cheek Alec softly smiled. Worry leaving his body.
"Did I cross a line" Smiling at this question Blake shook his head. He hated to admit it, he was liking this. Except he's never been touched like this before. Had someone caress his skin like Alec does. "Talk to me Blake" Running his hand through Blake's hair Alec let out a soft breath.
"This feeling is so, so alienated to me, I don't know how to feel" Blake admitted. Embarrassment filling his system. Averting his gaze from Alec's all the younger boy could do was close his eyes. God he wanted Alec to continue, but stop. He hated how weak, fragile the older boy made him feel. He hated how his touch sent his body into overdrive. It merely drove Blake crazy. His mind becoming foggy, vision becoming blurry.
"I don't think you understand how your touch makes me feel Alec"
"Then tell me" Blake's gaze met Alec's. His breath slow as he admired the older boys eyes. A small smile tugging at his lips.
"I just, I just can't describe it" Leaning closer to Blake's face Alec pulled a half smile. Pressing a gentle kiss upon Blake's knuckles.
"One day" Nodding his head Blake placed his forehead against the older jocks. Letting Alec wrap his hand around his neck he couldn't help but smile at the warmth Alec brought his body.
"One day Alec"