"And if you want to keep me you gotta love me harder"
Trinity's pov
October 16 2023
Luke and I have been fighting all week
I knew that when hockey started we wouldn't see eachother as much but I didn't think we'd lose almost all contact
Yes, I know he's not even here half the time but still a text would be nice
Everyday I text him in the morning telling him I hope he has a good day or on game days I'm wishing him good luck
And all I get back is a simple "thank you" or "you too"
Every night I text him goodnight and all I get back is a "night" sometimes, SOMETIMES with a heart
Today is the first day we get to see eachother since his birthday
He knocked on my apartment door and I went to open it
Kayla's not home
"Hey" I looked up at him "hey" he replied walking in not even hugging me or anything going straight to the couch
"Did I do something?" I asked him once he sat down "because it's seems no matter what I do I can barely get a response from you" I told him annoyed
"Already with the fighting" he sighs and just looks at me sitting on the far end of the couch, I can already feel a sting in my heart
"I'm the only one trying in this relationship, ever since hockey started its like I'm not even here. It takes hours for you to reply and when you do reply it's dry boring answers that I can't even make into a conversation" I ranted and he just had an expression that I couldn't read
"I don't know what you want from me Trinity, we text everyday" he replied "yeah like five words" I scoffed
"Look I didn't come here to fight, Trin I wanted to see you so I came" he told me
"I'm busy, I have a life outside of you, I have practices and games and on my few off days I stay home and relax" he explained to me
"You can't even respond to me though? I get you have a life outside of me but am I not a part of your life? I have a life outside of you too but I still make an effort to keep you in my life" I told him finally breaking a little letting a tear fall
"What are you saying then Trinity? you wanna break up?" he asked and the sting in my heart grew
"Maybe we should" I said shakily and he had a shocked look on his face "what?" He said quietly "maybe we weren't supposed to be together, maybe we're not ready for this right now" I told him
"Trin... are you serious?" He asked starting to look at little nervous "if this is how it's going to be then yeah. I'm done trying to talk to you and not getting a response especially when I know you're at home or in your hotel room and just don't care to answer" I sighed
Luke's pov
My whole world just came crashing down on me in two seconds
I felt like I was being stabbed in the chest
I'd messed up the best thing that's ever happened to me without even realizing how I'd been acting
I'm sitting in front of the girl I love watching tears fall down her face because of me
I didn't wanna break up
Trinity's pov
He didn't say anything but looked like that hurt him
"Trust me I don't like fighting either but it had to be brought up or else it would get worse. I'm trying I really am but I just wish you would too" I started letting more tears fall "if you don't wanna try then I'm done" I told him shaking my head wiping the tears off my face
The more I said the more he looked hurt, all I want is for him to realize what's going to happen if he keeps doing this and for him to become the boy I fell in love with again
Still he doesn't say anything but looks down away from me
Seeing him acting like this is breaking me I feel like I don't even know him right now
"I'm sorry Trin" he said breaking the silence "I'll do better" he told me looking up at me I sniffled a little wiping the tears off my face again
"You will?" I asked him and he nodded "I love you Trinity" he said walking to where I was giving me a hug
I cried hugging him back and he pulled away wiping the tears from my face with his thumbs
I just looked at him teary eyed hoping he really does what he's telling me
He leaned in to kiss me but I turned my face and he kissed my cheek when I looked back at him he looked like he was gonna cry this time
Luke's pov
When she swerved me it was the worst feeling ever
Her beautiful eyes now bloodshot and glossy, her perfect lips quivering, and her nose red and runny
I kept apologizing but I knew that wouldn't help at all if I didn't do anything to change
The rest of the night we sat on opposite sides of the couch watching a movie
I could barely watch, I kept looking over at my girlfriend that was sitting in a ball looking like she was deep in thought still teary eyed and her lip quivering
AUTHORS NOTE 🖍️
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-Roxy